MILES to GO || before I sleep

Ugh... Just UGH! I just barely managed to get my profile on guardian_kysra finished and turned in at 1:30 (I wish I could have done better, because there were other things I wanted to focus on. Alas, stress and a bunch of customers prevented me from saying what I wanted or getting it done on time). It was due at 1, but luckily (or unluckily?) the professor was still there, and he took it. Whether he'll actually read it and grade it, or grade me down for it being 30 minutes late is beyond me. I just want to pass the class. :P A C or better is what I need.

Then came my Japanese final, which was harder than I expected- I forgot the kanji for hospital and family, and I wasn't sure if I got the past affirmative verb copula chart filled in correctly (we had noboru, shinu, wasureru, tsukau, and one other I can't remember). There was about 7 things I think I may have missed on which disappoints me. I can make excuses -and they are legit, and you'd know if you've read any of my past FO entries- but it doesn't justify not having all this stuff done BEFORE I got sick, or before Scott and I had our "talks."

Well, tomorrow is my last final in Women Writers of Asia, and we'll have some hopefully simple IDing to do, and then a potluck-type party. I'm planning on getting some Chinese food for everyone, so I hope someone brings enough plates. Maybe if I order early, I can get the lunchtime discount? I know I should get at least one chicken, one beef, and one vegetarian dish, so I need to go home and peruse the menu and see how much this'll damage me. I already made a reservation for my shuttle to the airport on Friday and back home on Monday, so Baba and Grandpa can just give me cash for that (because they said they'd pay for it), and I can also get money by selling my English and Women Writers of Asia books back to the bookstore... I hope.

My nose is horribly congested, I sound terrible, and I admit, I'm still incredibly sad about this whole Scott thing. It's not like we'll even be able to talk much for the next three weeks, because his TEFL class starts this weekend. I told him I'd call before going to Fanime, and I will, but... well, I'm worried it'll be awkward. To be honest, even if "nothing is changing, really" in terms of the relationship (or lack thereof, or what we call it, or whatever), it still FELT like a break-up to me. And having everything I want told to me, and then stuck with a BUT... "Deep in my heart, I know that's not the path for me, and it might never be" is sort of like sticking a beautiful dagger into me and just TWISTING it. Or something. My analogies suck lately.

Everything sucks lately.

Fanime better rock or else I'll have one more reason to get drunk with Rochelle and Stephanie on Friday.

schmollieollie, if you read this, tell Rochelle in advance so I don't have to explain all this BS to her. I just want to have fun with you guys, not keep you in the dark or recall all the pain I've been going through this week.

The Worst Weeks of Mer's Life
#5 - This week
#4 - The week where I thought I had TSS, and I couldn't eat anything but plain toasted bagels
#3 - The week Scott broke up with me the first time
#2 - The week when I got rejected from SFSU and I wasn't sure what would happen to me
#1 - The week following my sister's death

Also on the list:
-The week when Joe broke up with me
-The week when I got fired from the movie theatre
-The week when my mom was an angry, abusive bitch
-The week (and 2 years following) my dad becoming estranged the first time
-The week when Chris Garcia told Amy to tell me never to speak to him again
-The week when I found out my hard crush liked one of my best friends
And probably a few more I really don't want to think about. But just to let you know, this week RANKS.

And everybody say WHEE! Blue Eyes and Apricots, the web's first, official, and ONLY (English) Azureshipping fanlisting now has -count 'em- 400 members! Congratulations to Rea-kun from Malta, who will probably not read this, but who is the kick-buttingest 400th member. I think I should do something special, but what, I do not know. (No, I will not change the layout. Dammit, that layout was hard enough to put together! :P If anything, I can change the colors and the picture but THAT IS IT!)

Spread the word, yo. We've been getting more members than EVER lately, and it makes me so happy! :D :D :D I have some new fanart to put up soon too (from... you guessed it, Rea-kun!) among other things, so at least there's always some new content to check out. I need some more recs and nominations for the Fanfics and Websites sections too, though, so drop me a line, ne?

This is my last week of school before finals. I have four finals, as far as I know:
* Japanese (duh)
* Women writers of Asia (identification... should be easy.)
* Geography (X_X)
* English (X_X;;;)

I finished my term paper for WWA, and I was quite pleased with it-- maybe because the intended length was 8-10 pages, and I ended up with 14. I had to shrink the font and change the font family to get it to fit. :P This is good news though, because I ended up cutting big chunks out, compared to my outline. This means when I actually get around to expanding it and editing it for my scholarship project (which is to write on contemporary writers of Japan, mainly female writers, and in contrast with male writers), I'll have lots of material to work with.

Today I just finished a paper for Geography on symbolic landscapes, and being the urbanite I am, I chose to write about a fourth landscape (this is in addition to D.W. Meinig's list if three from 1979: the New England village, the Middle-American Main street, and Californian Suburbia): the urban landscape. It was limited to 2 pages and a sketch map page, so I hope I did well on it. Prof. Davidson peered over to my paper while I was attempting to draw a lumpy model of San Francisco. :P

I have an idea for my editorial (that is, my second one, because damned if I can come up with another full-length feature piece in less than a day. Bad Mer, bad!) - California is behind the times. Hell, the whole United States is, but California is the worst off, especially here in So. Cal. Now, I haven't heard anyone vocally railing about it on *MY* FL, but that could be due to other reasons... but gas is at an all-time high here in CA. $3.37 is the cheapest you'll find here in Northridge; in San Diego, you were lucky if you saw below $3.54. I saw a $3.61 there, and Baba said she saw a $3.70-something. I realize gas prices as a whole are going up around the country, but CA's always had the higher prices, because we have so many damn people dependent on gas. We can get gas from the South and from Alaska, but somehow, that still doesn't help us. Then you look at countries like Japan, where their public transportation system is RELIABLE and EFFICIENT. I don't know a lot about their environmental policies (they still allow smoking in public restaurants, so...) or fuel usage, but Hummers wouldn't be popular there, and I saw more minivans than I did SUVs while I was there. It's sort of like telling someone they have to cut off their arm to save their life- people just don't want to do it, even if a part of them recognizes it's for the greater good. Are we stupid or just sick?

To do:
* See various departments about transferable credit from Tokiwa. Get them to sign the forms now so that when I come back, they can't double-cross me. I should do that tomorrow, since I need the course catalog.

* Finish up my online resume at meredithsweet.com :D (Go check it out. Tell me if I'm missing anything, if anything needs editing, etc. The front page only has a short intro right now, but so far, I like it.)

* FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICS. I'm already 2000+ words into atlantian_magic's Sousuke x Kaname piece, which mklutz, you will be pleased (I hope) to note that it's a continuation/sequel to the fic I did for you, "Counting." :) I never intended it to be so long, but... hey, it's just one of those universes. I've also got a good idea for the Ed x Winry piece geniusgirl wanted, so I'll get started on that as soon as I'm done with SxK. Oh yeah, and WDKY24. I want it OUT! OUT, I SAY!

* She is the one named Sailor Moon! I was messing with my Thunderbird settings yesterday (remember folks: compact your Inbox often!) and decided to haunt alt.fan.sailor-moon for a bit, and found a HI-larious post on the possibility of yet another live action SM movie. With Jennifer Garner as the main villain. Hahaha, yeah right. But still, funny. And then someone posted a YouTube link to the elusive Episode 67, wherein Chibiusa BEFRIENDS A DINOSAUR. That was a cute episode, even if the animation style degenerated by about 2 seasons. But yeah, Sailormoon. So totally into it again. :D

* AX? Who here is going to AnimeExpo 2006? I mean the one in Anaheim. Because (I think I mentioned this before) someone requested I go, and there *IS* a brand-new Sheraton there. Mom thinks she can get me the StarHot or whatever it's called rate, which is TEH UBER CHEAP! So why not? I'd just pay for the pre-reg and the shuttle there (if Mom wanted to erase the rest of her debt by paying for THAT hotel room too. She paid for all of Fanime, which surprised the crap out of me) and whatever I saw and wanted that I didn't get at Fanime. And hell, I'll even cosplay Anzu. :D I just want to do a lot of things before I go to Japan.

>_> I hope I got a decent grade on my English paper/Kate Chopin's 'The Storm,' even if it was late.