azurite: (believe in subtext)
Yuuko from xxxHolic's got it right-- humans are the most fascinating creatures in the universe! The human brain is just downright weird.

I believe that every human has a very small, very specific range of time in which, if they get X hours of sleep, they will awaken fully rested. "Studies show" this, and "surveys say" that, but I think it does vary from person to person, no matter what a required minimum or average amount of sleep is.

For me, it's definitely not four hours. Of course, my sleep schedule's gone to high heaven lately-- as is wont to do on an official "winter break," with no more schoolwork to worry about. It also doesn't help that the best things on Spike TV tend to be on from 12am-4am.

Anyway, I have a dentist's appointment at 8:45am (!), which is why I'm up so early, why I set the alarm for "annoy," and so on.

To go back to sleeping and related subjects, I think that dreams are a particularly interesting facet of the human brain. Sure, other creatures "dream," but we assign MEANING to them... sometimes. I think dreams can fall into a few categories:

(1) Brain sorting through life events - not necessarily events that are real (you could have seen them on TV, imagined them while reading a book, etc.), events that happened to you (vicarious living FTW!), or events that happened recently. These dreams have distinct elements that you can recognize, even if it's something general like a particular city that you can recognize or a person you know. Often even if you have a LOT of life events, they'll be a big mish-mash of all the ones I mentioned above. That might make it harder to recognize everything. But I'd say this is just "brain process" and not necessarily anything indicative-- no "hidden messages" necessarily, any more than emptying out your trash at the end of a week reveals secrets about you.

...but it can! Especially if you stress about a particular scenario. Your brain can step in and convert that stress into images-- and then you get recurring dream types, like flying, falling, being chased, etc. Even if your dream seems as though it has no connection with whatever you may have been thinking about before you went to bed or whatever occupied your thoughts/feelings the most as of late, there's a chance that a clear-minded breakdown of the dream's elements will reveal insight.

(2) Brain doing the sorting for you - Like the above, except your brain presents things to you in a clear format. You understand your dream because your brain's broken it down for you. This is usually more one "dream source" than another-- you either dream entirely about a situation based off something you saw in a movie/on TV/read in a book/etc., or you dream entirely about something that actually happened (whether to you or not). Usually the elements won't mix unless there's a damn good reason.

I'd say fantasies fall into this category. Usually fantasies involve a certain amount of one's personal "reality" --their own appearance, daily activities, and whatnot, but after a certain point, the fantasy elements dominate. You recognize the dream as a fantasy, as something that can make you happy, because it's got all these unrealistic elements and just that one tiny thing that isn't "unrealistic" necessarily-- you.

(3) Brain generating bizarre - Because it's the brain, even if it's yours, it's not yours to control. That's why you can dream and not necessarily KNOW you are dreaming, and therefore you can lack the awareness to wake yourself up from a nightmare. This has elements of the other two types I mentioned above (like realistic things you recognize, or fantasy things that could never happen), but it's mainly a matter of your brain spewing out who the hell knows what because it can.

I would say that the dream I had this morning was of this third type.

Well that was a whole lot of preamble for this )
azurite: (sailormoon - mars says let 'em burn)
Remember how, I think no more than a few weeks ago, one of my deviations got deleted from DA? I suspected that it was because I put my name to a petition saying that several users were getting abused by DA "staff members" who claimed we were pedophiles for wanting or appreciating illustrated art of fictional characters in sexual or other graphic situations. This is DA, where photographic pr0n or near-pr0n is just fine and dandy, but an image of Harry Potter getting it on with Ginny Weasley isn't allowed, even though by the end of canon, he is perfectly adult and therefore there's no issue with any minors (fictional or otherwise) being "harmed" by putting them in that (illustrated) scenario?

I don't know if that's really the case, but DA finally responded to the note I sent them asking about why it was deleted. The one update claimed that it was due to Art Theft/No Permission, even though I reiterated that I HAD permission from Diana Hold/Sailor Xv2 and gave credit back to both her DA account and website, but I'm not sure if there's anything I can say or do in response to this:

The logs indicate that the artwork was an edit of a doll created on a doll generator. Generated dolls may be submitted to your scraps only, however, since this is an edit it is infringing upon the generator's owner's copyright.

I could possibly upload it into my scraps, but I worked damn hard on that-- it's NOT a scrap! Plus, hundreds of other users, thousands of other deviations are just like this! Besides, what qualifies a piece using a "generated doll" base over a "real" deviation? Does it have to involve intense Photoshopping? I refuse NOT to give credit on the virtue that it might seem like my own work, because it's not, and I'm NOT a thief. But Diana gave users permission to use her generator to create our own senshi-- some of them just flat out, direct from the program, others severely edited before seeing the "light" of DA. So I have to ask: why this one deviation (and not more in my gallery) and why just me (from what I've heard)?

WTF mates, wtf?
azurite: (sailormoon - mars says let 'em burn)
WTF, DeviantART?

I don't want to smell conspiracy where there is none, but only a few days after I gave [livejournal.com profile] cyperian my name down for a list of Deviants who find it offensive and harassing that one of the Staff at DA called us all pedophiles (it's a long story, but I'm thinking [livejournal.com profile] cyperian's journal's got a better recap of the details than I could ever give), for the very first time, one of my deviations is flagged as being a copyright violation.

Um... whut?

It was one of "Sailor Nautilus." As far as I know, I gave all the proper credit to Sailor Xv2 (aka Diana Hold, the creator of the Sailor X v2.10 KiSS doll that I used for the base). Maybe they flagged me on forgetting to give credit to Naoko Takeuchi, et. al.? That seems a bit ridiculous, but Sailor Nautilus isn't HER work, it's my original work, based off her "Sailor" theme and idea. You know me, I'll drop a line to Naoko where credit's due, but to flag a deviation and then delete it within the span of a few hours, not even notifying me (Deviant Notes don't get CC'd to email addressees, which I find STUPID) to give me a chance? Unfair, yo!

I wrote to the Help Desk already and hope they'll get back to me and restore the art, but if not, I'll reupload it and make sure I give all the proper credits. I'd rather my whole DA account not get into trouble, so I might need to go through my whole (small) gallery, but this just seems... so sudden and unfair. Why me, why now, why THAT particular art?

*shrug* I'm confused more than angry. (Still don't remember the name of that song. I try listening to stuff to see if I can pinpoint it, but then I only get more confused with other melodies in my head. Should I try and record it the next time it pops into my head, so maybe someone can help me ID it that way?)
azurite: (brain+uterus)
[livejournal.com profile] a_white_rain stole all the good subject lines for this issue, so I'll just be honest and comment "this is an awfully apt song title for the context, innit?" Read on.

The Bush Administration is trying, yet again, to tie religion to government, and therefore control people's lifestyle and choices. I'm all for people being able to practice their religion how they please, so long as that doesn't mean shoving one's religion down the throats (or up the uteruses, in this case) of others, forcing them to change their lives to suit those views.

Basically, they want to let medical clinics define "abortion" willy-nilly, based on a poll where NOT EVEN THE MAJORITY of people believe that life begins at conception (vs. implantation) and where the accepted medical definitions (from across several organizations) DIFFER from this whole "at conception/fertilization" point.

As is mentioned in some of the pages AWR links to, this is going to give power to religious right medical clinics, doctors, etc. to say that abortion can take place at a point when a woman doesn't even know if she's pregnant. There is NO definite way to know that an egg has been fertilized-- no blinking red light, no incontrovertible signs. Doctors can "opt out" of assisting a woman with getting birth control and/or an abortion, and there is no legislation that provides for a woman in this scenario: no alternatives she is given to seek, no transportation should the next nearest place be hundreds of miles away, nothing.

They call this a "conscience" act, as if to imply that doctors that DO assist women with birth control and/or abortions don't HAVE a conscience. What a bunch of bullshit! (For the record, I'm on birth control and have been since I was 16. I haven't been sexually active for that long; I've just had horrible, horrible, debilitating PMS and MS cycles. But will that minor detail stop a "conscientious" doctor from denying me my medication? No. And then I'll be S.O.L. for a good week out of every month. Thanks, Bush!)

*groan* I could probably rant on this for a while, and half the things I'd say might come out wrong because it just makes me that furious. Check out AWR's links, read up on it from various sources, and then ACT. I don't care if you're a man or a woman, young or old, religious, spiritual, or anything else in-between. Hell, even if you're not a U.S. citizen, write to our government and tell them how STUPID they're looking to the rest of the world and how, for a supposed world-superpower and global leader, we're sure acting like we've just popped into existence from the Middle Ages! (Actually, that's insulting the Middle Ages.)

I already sent out emails to both friends and family, and to the government in protest of this. It's bullshit and I won't stand for it as a woman or as a U.S. citizen.

Details, links, and more:
AWR's first post, including links out
Naamah Darling's rant on the subject, very nicely worded, with more links out
AWR's second post, with some more links out
azurite: (Default)
In 2001, two years after having gained fame with Stray Dog, Hiromu Arakawa launched this bracing series, now entertaining readers worldwide in a 12th installment. This time around, life turns 180 degrees for the Brothers Elric as the twosome combine their skills with those of Prince Lin. Together, they hatch a plan to trap Gluttony. Meanwhile, Colonel Roy Mustard takes advantage of a rare opportunity when a skeleton in the closet of Führer President King Bradley appears suddenly, possibly altering forever the balance of power.
-From March My Borders Monthly manga section, emphasis mine.

Someone ([livejournal.com profile] ceruleansan?) please tell me Viz hasn't really mistranslated Roy's surname as MUSTARD. I know they're not the super-fantastic-always-the-best of translators, but I was really getting geared up into investing in Fullmetal Alchemist, but if they've made such a joke of Roy's name... I don't know.

Tell me that it's just some sort of creepy Borders joke or a bad pun or some miscommunication, or...

Oh god, COLONEL ROY MUSTARD!? What does that make Winry, WINRY SCARLETT!? ED GREEN? HAVOC PLUM!?

*shudder twitch die*

WTF.

Aug. 15th, 2006 04:39 pm
azurite: (grandpa will fuck 'em up)
According to eBay, the listing of the cell phone that I bid on (actually, it was BUY IT NOW!) was removed for violating policy. According to PayPal, I already paid for the phone. My bank account doesn't say this, but after I called them, they said it's pending and will clear by today (so there's no point in doing a Stop Payment request, which takes 2 days to clear). I was about to open a dispute with PayPal, but since I just paid for the item yesterday and contacted the seller a few minutes ago, I'm hoping this can get resolved quickly and I can still get my phone. The seller (or a representative) got back to me, told me he was looking into it, and told me to call tomorrow.

I don't want to have to go through all the trouble of looking for other sellers with the things I need.

But I am so freaking sick of THIEVES!
azurite: (cat: what the shit is this!?)

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