Two Songs For Your Listening Enjoyment
Aug. 15th, 2002 03:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
azuriteI'm a horrible liar, thinking I can just move on with my life. Maybe it's pathetic of me to be so attached, but I don't think I can survive a month. Two days has been hell. Maybe I just need something to distract me. Like these songs.
I'm dreamin'/And dyin' inside/Just don't care anymore/Keep on sinkin'/Stayin' me.../Thought I was real/Thought I could feel/The walls crumbled/Time passes/And the world keeps on movin'/But I'm drownin'/Always sinkin'/In my own despair
Pathetic, ne? Reminds me of the Clementine song. Now THAT was eerie. Oh well, I write what I feel.
My life is told in the magazines/Hidden by flashes, my heart unseen/I try to smile/And pretend that it's ok/I'm living through another day/Scandals and heartbreak/Shockers and heartaches/All there for the world to see/I'm a million-and-one masks/Adaptin' to any situation/Never see the real me/I survive, hiding the pain/Dreamin' of the day/That shoulder I lean on.../Will finally stay/Be more than a faceless/Name to drop/I'm living... through another... day.
Ah, this one is strange... it's like a sad song for a celebrity whose live is always misinterpreted by tabloids. It kind of reminds me of "Lucky" (Britney Spears- *Shudder*) and of Pink's "Lonely Girl". Eh, go figure.
Well, it's finally here. Senior year, that is. My classes are all... bazooka'd, for lack of a better word. They started out like this:
1 - Vocal Music ADV (YAY! I got in!!)
2 - American Democracy/Econ (...I forgot who the teacher was. It's not AP, but oh well. I can't handle AP anymore)
3 - Japanese 3 (With PRYCE! EVIL EVIL EVIL!)
4 - Journalism (New teacher, weird location)
5 - Euro Lit (With a supposedly crazy teacher, but she apparently likes "forward" girls)
6 - ??? (I know it's not a science, and for some reason I can't make up US History *IN* school... what was this class!?)
7 - Unscheduled period (I WANNA GO HOME!)
8 - Afterschool: Teacher's Aide (-.0 probably for journalism)
I was supposed to have creative writing... but they didn't have enough people. So I'm guessing that the schedule went 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 8. @__@
It changed to something like this:
1 - Vocal Music ADV
2 - American Democracy/Econ
3 - ??? (Now THIS class is unknown!)
4 - Journalism
5 - Euro Lit
6 - IMP 5 (Fancy acronym for a math class I got a D in last semester)
7 - TA for Journalism (-.- I don't know why I need this)
I dropped Japanese 5-6 (;_;) since apparently I can't get a D to pass... also, my college of choice doesn't accept Ds. So I'm hoping my former Japanese teacher will allow me to write that extra credit manga (WEEKLY! I have a lot of work to make up in the next two weeks. I totally forgot what the other two options were, so I'm going to check his website) to make up for that D. If not, then once I finish my semester of IMP 5, I get to switch to a semester of Japanese 4. @_@ But I still don't know my third. I'm so confuseeeeeed!
Oh, in better news... ^^ He talked to me~! We talked about everything and anything but the fact that we were broken up, or that day. But now it seems like we really are living up to that "unspoken" promise of staying friends. I really hope it lasts. =)
I'm sure plenty of people have heard of the vast number of hoaxes on the Intenet-- rumors about a WhiteHouse.com, and the infamous Bonsai Kitten site, too. But what about hoaxes in the mail?
Today I got a letter in the mail from a 'National Society of High School Scholars.' This is the second of its kind-- but the first one I checked out with the Better Business Bureau, and THAT one's legal. This one seems to be more shady, since I can't access their website (www.nshss.org) and their phone number LOOKS toll free, but it might not be, considering this place is supposedly stationed in Atlanta, GA. They want me to pay $45 for a "lifetime membership" and should I want extra stuff, like a Press Release or a Graduation Cord, I can pay extra for that. @_@ The fact that I get these things at all perplexes me.
My junior year SUCKED academically, and it's no secret. I don't hide the fact that I failed English and US History (but strangely am in the 99th percentile for my state's standardized test), got a D in both Math 4 and Japanese 4. I made up English in summer school with straight As, am retaking those messed-semesters of Japanese and Math my senior year (see previous entry) and should be making up US History in night school (oh joy).
But it doesn't stop me from wanting to explore every opportunity-- I'm the type who values honesty, integrity, and truth above all else. I won't be copying my college application from someplace online, and I won't lie about the community service I have (not) done. I might not be a saint, but I have given back to community, and even if I'm not the class valedictorian or student body president, I am involved. My grades don't speak for who I am, or how I perform in class, or get along with others. I know they're important, which is why I'm making them up this semester, but that doesn't change the fact that I'd like to be PART of something-- Nobel society or not.
The problem is, this place doesn't seem to exist... and I don't want to call them and risk getting a one-word-a-minute voice recording in the Philippines!
Lastly, I'm modified my high school credits (i.e. taken specific classes) since I plan on applying to the local State university-- not a University of California. I want to stay local, to avoid high costs, and since living in the city is a lot greater than people (who have lived here all their lives, even though that's me too) give it credit for. But I know I should apply to at least one other school... I'm just nervous that I might get turned down. What if I don't have enough money for it? I need to take every chance I can get to get into a good college, stay motivated, get a degree, and be successful. It seems like such a broad, far-off plan, but suddenly it's much closer than I ever could have imagined.
Now I have the difficult task of determining what's real... and what's not. @___@ Oi...
I'm dreamin'/And dyin' inside/Just don't care anymore/Keep on sinkin'/Stayin' me.../Thought I was real/Thought I could feel/The walls crumbled/Time passes/And the world keeps on movin'/But I'm drownin'/Always sinkin'/In my own despair
Pathetic, ne? Reminds me of the Clementine song. Now THAT was eerie. Oh well, I write what I feel.
My life is told in the magazines/Hidden by flashes, my heart unseen/I try to smile/And pretend that it's ok/I'm living through another day/Scandals and heartbreak/Shockers and heartaches/All there for the world to see/I'm a million-and-one masks/Adaptin' to any situation/Never see the real me/I survive, hiding the pain/Dreamin' of the day/That shoulder I lean on.../Will finally stay/Be more than a faceless/Name to drop/I'm living... through another... day.
Ah, this one is strange... it's like a sad song for a celebrity whose live is always misinterpreted by tabloids. It kind of reminds me of "Lucky" (Britney Spears- *Shudder*) and of Pink's "Lonely Girl". Eh, go figure.
Well, it's finally here. Senior year, that is. My classes are all... bazooka'd, for lack of a better word. They started out like this:
1 - Vocal Music ADV (YAY! I got in!!)
2 - American Democracy/Econ (...I forgot who the teacher was. It's not AP, but oh well. I can't handle AP anymore)
3 - Japanese 3 (With PRYCE! EVIL EVIL EVIL!)
4 - Journalism (New teacher, weird location)
5 - Euro Lit (With a supposedly crazy teacher, but she apparently likes "forward" girls)
6 - ??? (I know it's not a science, and for some reason I can't make up US History *IN* school... what was this class!?)
7 - Unscheduled period (I WANNA GO HOME!)
8 - Afterschool: Teacher's Aide (-.0 probably for journalism)
I was supposed to have creative writing... but they didn't have enough people. So I'm guessing that the schedule went 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 8. @__@
It changed to something like this:
1 - Vocal Music ADV
2 - American Democracy/Econ
3 - ??? (Now THIS class is unknown!)
4 - Journalism
5 - Euro Lit
6 - IMP 5 (Fancy acronym for a math class I got a D in last semester)
7 - TA for Journalism (-.- I don't know why I need this)
I dropped Japanese 5-6 (;_;) since apparently I can't get a D to pass... also, my college of choice doesn't accept Ds. So I'm hoping my former Japanese teacher will allow me to write that extra credit manga (WEEKLY! I have a lot of work to make up in the next two weeks. I totally forgot what the other two options were, so I'm going to check his website) to make up for that D. If not, then once I finish my semester of IMP 5, I get to switch to a semester of Japanese 4. @_@ But I still don't know my third. I'm so confuseeeeeed!
Oh, in better news... ^^ He talked to me~! We talked about everything and anything but the fact that we were broken up, or that day. But now it seems like we really are living up to that "unspoken" promise of staying friends. I really hope it lasts. =)
I'm sure plenty of people have heard of the vast number of hoaxes on the Intenet-- rumors about a WhiteHouse.com, and the infamous Bonsai Kitten site, too. But what about hoaxes in the mail?
Today I got a letter in the mail from a 'National Society of High School Scholars.' This is the second of its kind-- but the first one I checked out with the Better Business Bureau, and THAT one's legal. This one seems to be more shady, since I can't access their website (www.nshss.org) and their phone number LOOKS toll free, but it might not be, considering this place is supposedly stationed in Atlanta, GA. They want me to pay $45 for a "lifetime membership" and should I want extra stuff, like a Press Release or a Graduation Cord, I can pay extra for that. @_@ The fact that I get these things at all perplexes me.
My junior year SUCKED academically, and it's no secret. I don't hide the fact that I failed English and US History (but strangely am in the 99th percentile for my state's standardized test), got a D in both Math 4 and Japanese 4. I made up English in summer school with straight As, am retaking those messed-semesters of Japanese and Math my senior year (see previous entry) and should be making up US History in night school (oh joy).
But it doesn't stop me from wanting to explore every opportunity-- I'm the type who values honesty, integrity, and truth above all else. I won't be copying my college application from someplace online, and I won't lie about the community service I have (not) done. I might not be a saint, but I have given back to community, and even if I'm not the class valedictorian or student body president, I am involved. My grades don't speak for who I am, or how I perform in class, or get along with others. I know they're important, which is why I'm making them up this semester, but that doesn't change the fact that I'd like to be PART of something-- Nobel society or not.
The problem is, this place doesn't seem to exist... and I don't want to call them and risk getting a one-word-a-minute voice recording in the Philippines!
Lastly, I'm modified my high school credits (i.e. taken specific classes) since I plan on applying to the local State university-- not a University of California. I want to stay local, to avoid high costs, and since living in the city is a lot greater than people (who have lived here all their lives, even though that's me too) give it credit for. But I know I should apply to at least one other school... I'm just nervous that I might get turned down. What if I don't have enough money for it? I need to take every chance I can get to get into a good college, stay motivated, get a degree, and be successful. It seems like such a broad, far-off plan, but suddenly it's much closer than I ever could have imagined.
Now I have the difficult task of determining what's real... and what's not. @___@ Oi...
