azurite | Suddenly Apple Juice

You can't spell "distressed" without "stressed." And I was just as equally tempted to pick "depressed" for my mood, because I'm not HAPPY, that's for damn sure.

Yesterday I thought I'd gotten the whole SDSU application out of my way, but Scott (he did a good thing) went to SDSU and talked to a bunch of people, and they said that I might not even need to "transfer," per se, so much as "visit" SDSU, while still taking classes as if they were from/at CSUN. That means my degree would still say "CSUN" on it. Regardless though, I have to get access to and fill out the Supplementary Application re: my grades, even though my grades won't be official until several weeks into the Spring 2007 semester (at least), because I don't get back until A WEEK before that new semester starts. Plus, I would have to clear with various department chairs about whether the classes they offer at SDSU could be considered equivalent to the ones at CSUN for my major/minors, so as not having to take classes OVER again at SDSU, because SDSU doesn't "officially" consider them equivalent. They have ECON 161 and POLS 155 as pre-reqs for even ENTERING the journalism program at SDSU, but because they're lower div and I've taken so many other journalism classes at CSUN, Scott and I are hoping that I won't need to take those, and I can still get into SDSU's IMPACTED Journalism program with the classes I have.

Oh yea, and then there's the FAFSA. -_- Seriously, I'm beginning to HATE January.

I suppose my day's Tarot is kind of ironic, then... The Seven of Chalices card suggests that my power today lies in possibility. Luck is relative -- still, I choose wisely and am not alone. When I envision, expect and choose great things, I will identify, pursue, and experience great things. I keep my options open and acknowledge emotional clutter or unrealistic expectations. I am empowered by desire for meaning and my gift is opportunity or epiphany.

My horoscope for today: You're in pursuit of excitement and fresh adventure. Try a different path to get your life going in a whole new direction. Daring sports and physical activities get your blood racing and stimulate your mind, too.

Then it makes sense that I went to the gym during 4th period. I even tried out some machines I thought I would never use, and even if I'm the only girl in the group that would be there (assuming I would ever go with the guys; since we have such different schedules, it's actually kind of unlikely; the gym also closes at 7pm), I think it would be good for me... I don't need to get into testosterone comparison contests like the boys. It's very different from an American gym, but it'll give me something to do, and I can "stay fit" and shape up... and if the endorphins really do perk me up and inspire me, all the better.

The main portion of today's concern was about the trip (to Hong Kong) that

baine and I are taking on 23 Dec. See, I have enough money in the bank right now (ish) to pay for the trip, but I want enough to pay for the trip (air/hotel) and have money in there JUST IN CASE. You know, for food, souvenirs, etc. That's not even counting the cost of HK Disneyland and food and souvenirs and such in there. HK Disney is cheaper than Anaheim's Disneyland *AND* both Tokyo Disney and Disney Sea, but I'd still like to go to all 3. The good thing is, since HK Disney is one park, I think we can cover it in one day, have one day to tour Hong Kong in general, and one day for free whatever.

We come back to Narita on the 27th, and we reserved some really nice shared rooms at a brand new hostel in Asakusa. I already got all the info for the trains (for me to Narita, and for both of us from Narita to Asakusa), but again, it's the "after that" that has me a bit worried-- we wanted to go to both Tokyo Disneyland and Disney Sea, and the 2-day passport is 10,000. That's not BAD, for 2 theme parks, but the Starlight Passport and the After 6 passports are cheaper for both parks. The catch is, of course, you can only go on Sat/Sun/Holidays for the Starlight, and After 6pm for the After 6 one. Bonnie thinks we won't have enough time, and she's probably right.

So while she's going to pay me back (half) for the reservation we made at the hostel, the air/hotel to HK and everything we do their is on our own. I think I'd want at least $100 USD to spend there, hopefully including the Disney ticket. Tokyo is another story, because we have to pay half each for the hostel (only $25 USD a night per person, so it's not bad at all, even for 6 nights), anything we do in Tokyo (including meeting

finyda and Kuris, plus both Disney parks), and my transportation back to Mito on the 2nd (which would cost 2210 yen). Basically, I have to yen-pinch between now and then... >_<

But that's okay, I don't eat much, anyway! It's better to cut back on my daily Coca-Cola, and spend more time here at the dorms getting things cleaned up and done. Like my scholarship paper. *sigh* Or my paper for Pop Culture. Or my Religious Studies test. (and before I leave, a Mass Media paper, a Modern Culture paper, and a Popular Culture/Image of the Japanese in American Media paper. Oy VEY!)

If it's not one thing, it's always another.

Like my new $121 phone bill. I'm going to wait to hear from T-Mobile about what the hell's up with that THIS time, to see if the charges are legit. Even if they are, I don't have to pay until December 10th, which gives me enough time to get paid (3x) and deposit said money by wire into my bank account, and pay that way. I refuse to have mom pay for my phone bill any more than she has already. But I'm probably going to cancel my $14.99 Unlimited Text Messages (I would have to send 150 text messages a month for that to pay for itself, anyway, and I haven't even sent 85 since I've been in Japan), my Web Access (useless, anyway), and whatever other useless things I might be paying for.

Money stresses me out quite easily, and my brain deals with it by having dreams about Christian Bale doing my dishes (the night before last) or going to strange reunions/graduations where friend's boyfriends are suddenly gay and dating angry, fat white guys and where conveyer belts look like they're made of stone and have water bubbling up from the cracks.

Yeah, I think I need to sleep now, too.