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azuriteWell, it was a generally good Thanksgiving. Good food (yum, cranberries! And latkes!), the usual emotional drama... and I've discovered that my cousins actually are human, and do experience hardship at times. I've always sort of idolized them due to how RICH they are (or seemed), and I thought they were blissfully ignorant immune to the kinds of things I've been through. Admittedly, everyone still has their share of problems, so I'd say I'm pretty grateful for how my life is right now: not all that exciting. It can be a good thing at times, as I'm sure many people will attest.
I did have the requisite emotional breakdown, but that's only because my period happened to fall on the same day as Thanksgiving, so I have Basketcase Excuse Alpha-01. :P Nyah! The cousins are still calling Scott "Scott Peterson" though, which bugs the hell out of me. It'd be one thing if the name were that of a celebrity or whatever, but a murderer? Ugh... not very nice.
As for shopping, my sole Hanukkah present (from Baba and my Dad: $80 total) was mostly spent on books (FY: Genbu Kaiden #1, YGO Duelist 9, 10, 11, Socrates in Love) . The Fashion Valley mall is home to a Saks, a Neiman Marcus, Coach, Tiffany's, and all those other stores I feel uncomfortable just setting FOOT in. I hated shopping there because I didn't feel right in ANY of the stores. And to shop on Black Friday is a bad idea anyway, even if (because?) everyone else is doing it. I did see Scott's brother Ryan at Coach, and his Mom at Ann Taylor, so that was nice... even if I felt out of place in those stores. The cheapest thing at Coach was a sparkly iPod mini case for $68! As for Ann Taylor... well, much as I love their clothes, I couldn't even bring myself to look.
Oh, did I mention I got my hair dyed (one color: chocolate brown) and cut (a layered cut down to my shoulders), and my eyebrows plucked? Yes, so I'm teh mature and girly looking, now. I don't act like it all the time though... I seriously need to stop thinking so much, be more social, and not act like a cat. ;_; ANYWAY!
Mostly, what I want for the holidays:
* To be with my friends
* To spend some time with mom
* To stuff my face with good food (spritz cookies! yams! hot cocoa with marshmallows!)
* BOOKS! Or Borders gift certificates...
* A cashmere sweater and scarf (Target has some for only $40/sweater, and... much cheaper for the scarf. Can't remember how much, but teh yum!)
I should be getting my first Xmas-present-to-self soon: my Shonen Jump/Jan 2006 with the Blue-Eyes Ultimate Dragon! No, I don't have anyone to play, but maybe I should change that. Sure, socializing with 10 year old boys isn't my idea of making friends, but there's bound to be the odd female duelist, duelist-who's-also-an-anime-fan, or an older duelist-with-a-brain that I can meet... somewhere, somehow. And learning to drive might help me go further to hobby stores or sneak previews.
Speaking of anime and manga, I finally got my first issue of Takuhai... er, "MANGA" magazine. Tokyopop has slowly been slipping off my radar, what with how they're releasing mostly obscure titles/artists at a slow pace. And this magazine causes me to think: just what is "manga", anyway? I really don't like the idea of non-Japanese people trying to mock their favorite manga-ka's style, inventing their own style, messing around in Photoshop, and calling the end result "manga." And God forbid the word "Ani-manga" spread beyond the borders of our not-so-fair nation. I highly respect people that can draw so well as to garner Tokyopop's attention, but it shouldn't be touted as manga when it's far from professional. There are spelling errors, shoddy sound effects, and much less detail than real manga-kas-- even if the artists use screen tones, Deleter pens, and the works. I feel like I'm being prejudiced, but... well, "manga" is a Japanese word, a Japanese creation! You can't fake it! That would be like doujinshi-ka calling themselves manga-ka, when they know they're not! Even if American (or other nations) create their own stories in the Japanese manga style, I don't think it's manga...
Other stuff:
I'm participating in both the![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
dmhgficexchange and the yuugiouxmasfic this Christmas; I have my assignments for both, but afaik, I don't have any submitting to do until December. That might be different for the YGO exchange, if only because there are themed "weeks" in which each week, a gift fic (according to the requester's "rules") should be submitted in line with the theme... I'm kind of confused on that, and whether I've missed the first week.
I've been emailing this person (Phyllis) who is an Azureshipper fan; I tried explaining to her that the "comics" she saw of Seto and Anzu were not official, that they were "doujinshi" or fan comics, and that the Yu-Gi-Oh series (anime and manga) has ended without ANY canon pairings whatsoever. And Phyllis acted like I'd told her there was no Santa Claus or something: she whined, bitched, complained, and insulted me. And she managed to do so while misspelling three words in a single sentence. I don't know if she's going to email me again, and frankly, I'd rather she didn't. I hate lame people like that...
Hi again, Addressing this: "in japan there together my friend lives up there here name is lisa she sends me down comic books of them so they r toghther ad thats how it should be so there seto and tea 4ever!"
Yes, but those are not legitimate comics of Yu-Gi-Oh. They're called doujinshi, or "fan comics." The original author of Yu-Gi-Oh did NOT create nor authorize them, so they're NOT together in canon (that is, the real show/manga). There are plenty of doujinshi comics for other pairings... e.x. Seto x Yuugi, Anzu x Isis, and so on and so forth.
I've been to Japan and scoured the comic stores for SxA doujinshi, but they're just not as popular as some of the other pairings. That's why I write fanfiction and draw fanart! Hope I cleared that up... ~Azurite
humph your pathatic you descusust me (blushes) *i spelled the word wrong*
There's a code glitch in phpFanbase, which is what BEA is running on. I don't know if anyone else is using that script or its spinoff, phpClique, but if so, I'd recommend heading over to CodeGrrl.com to keep up-to-date with the codes and fixes that Sasha and Co. put out.
And finally, this whole thing with Scott. I might as well just say what's been stressing me on and off...
We're not really 'boyfriend' and 'girlfriend' or whatever labels you'd like to stick us with, but I'd like to think we are 'together.' There's no sense of commitment, but it's not like either of us have the mind or opportunity to fool around, anyway. And it's both serious and not, because we both know he's leaving in December, if not in January, and that's it.
It's not like we'll never see each other or talk again-- Scott said he might even want to come with me to San Francisco for when I go for Xmas (or something). And I know he loves me (he's said as much), even if it's a different kind of love from what we had in the past year or more. And I still love him too, and I KNOW it's different from before. I don't really know how, it just is. We do still sleep together, and it's no secret to most people... but neither of us like calling it "sex" because there's more to "it" than that with us. We don't just get turned on, decide it's convenient for us to bang one another, and that's it.
But then there's this big looming thing of him going off to work for Fred in San Diego sometime this winter. Heck, he'll probably be living (in a metaphorical sense; you know how some people practically "live" at work?) at the studio, which is at my aunt Joyce's new house in Scripps Ranch! Obviously, if it weren't for me and my family, there would be a whole world of opportunity that wouldn't be open to Scott right now, but neither of us are going to pretend that Scott couldn't have found himself another job, or that he doesn't have the skills to earn the job he's getting through the normal channels. On that same note, the job isn't what he thought; Fred's initial speculations at pay were $25/hr, but now it's dropped to $10, and even I'm surprised and upset by that, even when it's not my place. I do hope Scott talks to him about it and they end up working together well.
And so what if San Diego is only two hours away...? This is pretty much the thing I've been dreading since Day One, and it's coming closer and closer, and all amount of insensitive remarks from Grandpa (no matter how truthful) will allow me to accept it with a sigh and move on. I don't know what I'm going to do or what's going to happen, and I'm afraid I'm going to be horribly lonely and depressed without him. So close and yet so far... off doing what he loves, so I have no right to intrude, and it's HIS adult life now. I mean... what am I expecting, really? Let's say I get into Study Abroad, that would be a whole year and 3000+ miles apart from him! So... better that I grow up and apart from him now, right?
The annoying child in me screams, "I don't wanna!" and stomps her foot and cries a lot. I guess this is my first long-term serious relationship (sexual, at that; if you want to add up the factors of all my other relationships, the big ones never really came together in one relationship until now) so that explains my reluctance to just drop it and move on. I'm not good at the whole moving-on thing, really...
So I guess I'm at an impasse. I can keep on living life and letting things happen as they may, not knowing what I'll do or how I'll react when the time to say 'goodbye' (for now?) comes at last. Or I can do SOMETHING and... see what happens, too. Regardless of what, I want to enjoy the time I have left with Scott. I know that sounds a lot like it's a final goodbye, like someone's going to die or move far, far away, but neither of those are the case at all. I just don't know how it's going to be.
What kind of ending will I have?
I did have the requisite emotional breakdown, but that's only because my period happened to fall on the same day as Thanksgiving, so I have Basketcase Excuse Alpha-01. :P Nyah! The cousins are still calling Scott "Scott Peterson" though, which bugs the hell out of me. It'd be one thing if the name were that of a celebrity or whatever, but a murderer? Ugh... not very nice.
As for shopping, my sole Hanukkah present (from Baba and my Dad: $80 total) was mostly spent on books (FY: Genbu Kaiden #1, YGO Duelist 9, 10, 11, Socrates in Love) . The Fashion Valley mall is home to a Saks, a Neiman Marcus, Coach, Tiffany's, and all those other stores I feel uncomfortable just setting FOOT in. I hated shopping there because I didn't feel right in ANY of the stores. And to shop on Black Friday is a bad idea anyway, even if (because?) everyone else is doing it. I did see Scott's brother Ryan at Coach, and his Mom at Ann Taylor, so that was nice... even if I felt out of place in those stores. The cheapest thing at Coach was a sparkly iPod mini case for $68! As for Ann Taylor... well, much as I love their clothes, I couldn't even bring myself to look.
Oh, did I mention I got my hair dyed (one color: chocolate brown) and cut (a layered cut down to my shoulders), and my eyebrows plucked? Yes, so I'm teh mature and girly looking, now. I don't act like it all the time though... I seriously need to stop thinking so much, be more social, and not act like a cat. ;_; ANYWAY!
Mostly, what I want for the holidays:
* To be with my friends
* To spend some time with mom
* To stuff my face with good food (spritz cookies! yams! hot cocoa with marshmallows!)
* BOOKS! Or Borders gift certificates...
* A cashmere sweater and scarf (Target has some for only $40/sweater, and... much cheaper for the scarf. Can't remember how much, but teh yum!)
I should be getting my first Xmas-present-to-self soon: my Shonen Jump/Jan 2006 with the Blue-Eyes Ultimate Dragon! No, I don't have anyone to play, but maybe I should change that. Sure, socializing with 10 year old boys isn't my idea of making friends, but there's bound to be the odd female duelist, duelist-who's-also-an-anime-fan, or an older duelist-with-a-brain that I can meet... somewhere, somehow. And learning to drive might help me go further to hobby stores or sneak previews.
Speaking of anime and manga, I finally got my first issue of Takuhai... er, "MANGA" magazine. Tokyopop has slowly been slipping off my radar, what with how they're releasing mostly obscure titles/artists at a slow pace. And this magazine causes me to think: just what is "manga", anyway? I really don't like the idea of non-Japanese people trying to mock their favorite manga-ka's style, inventing their own style, messing around in Photoshop, and calling the end result "manga." And God forbid the word "Ani-manga" spread beyond the borders of our not-so-fair nation. I highly respect people that can draw so well as to garner Tokyopop's attention, but it shouldn't be touted as manga when it's far from professional. There are spelling errors, shoddy sound effects, and much less detail than real manga-kas-- even if the artists use screen tones, Deleter pens, and the works. I feel like I'm being prejudiced, but... well, "manga" is a Japanese word, a Japanese creation! You can't fake it! That would be like doujinshi-ka calling themselves manga-ka, when they know they're not! Even if American (or other nations) create their own stories in the Japanese manga style, I don't think it's manga...
Other stuff:
I'm participating in both the
dmhgficexchange and the yuugiouxmasfic this Christmas; I have my assignments for both, but afaik, I don't have any submitting to do until December. That might be different for the YGO exchange, if only because there are themed "weeks" in which each week, a gift fic (according to the requester's "rules") should be submitted in line with the theme... I'm kind of confused on that, and whether I've missed the first week.I've been emailing this person (Phyllis) who is an Azureshipper fan; I tried explaining to her that the "comics" she saw of Seto and Anzu were not official, that they were "doujinshi" or fan comics, and that the Yu-Gi-Oh series (anime and manga) has ended without ANY canon pairings whatsoever. And Phyllis acted like I'd told her there was no Santa Claus or something: she whined, bitched, complained, and insulted me. And she managed to do so while misspelling three words in a single sentence. I don't know if she's going to email me again, and frankly, I'd rather she didn't. I hate lame people like that...
Hi again, Addressing this: "in japan there together my friend lives up there here name is lisa she sends me down comic books of them so they r toghther ad thats how it should be so there seto and tea 4ever!"
Yes, but those are not legitimate comics of Yu-Gi-Oh. They're called doujinshi, or "fan comics." The original author of Yu-Gi-Oh did NOT create nor authorize them, so they're NOT together in canon (that is, the real show/manga). There are plenty of doujinshi comics for other pairings... e.x. Seto x Yuugi, Anzu x Isis, and so on and so forth.
I've been to Japan and scoured the comic stores for SxA doujinshi, but they're just not as popular as some of the other pairings. That's why I write fanfiction and draw fanart! Hope I cleared that up... ~Azurite
humph your pathatic you descusust me (blushes) *i spelled the word wrong*
There's a code glitch in phpFanbase, which is what BEA is running on. I don't know if anyone else is using that script or its spinoff, phpClique, but if so, I'd recommend heading over to CodeGrrl.com to keep up-to-date with the codes and fixes that Sasha and Co. put out.
And finally, this whole thing with Scott. I might as well just say what's been stressing me on and off...
We're not really 'boyfriend' and 'girlfriend' or whatever labels you'd like to stick us with, but I'd like to think we are 'together.' There's no sense of commitment, but it's not like either of us have the mind or opportunity to fool around, anyway. And it's both serious and not, because we both know he's leaving in December, if not in January, and that's it.
It's not like we'll never see each other or talk again-- Scott said he might even want to come with me to San Francisco for when I go for Xmas (or something). And I know he loves me (he's said as much), even if it's a different kind of love from what we had in the past year or more. And I still love him too, and I KNOW it's different from before. I don't really know how, it just is. We do still sleep together, and it's no secret to most people... but neither of us like calling it "sex" because there's more to "it" than that with us. We don't just get turned on, decide it's convenient for us to bang one another, and that's it.
But then there's this big looming thing of him going off to work for Fred in San Diego sometime this winter. Heck, he'll probably be living (in a metaphorical sense; you know how some people practically "live" at work?) at the studio, which is at my aunt Joyce's new house in Scripps Ranch! Obviously, if it weren't for me and my family, there would be a whole world of opportunity that wouldn't be open to Scott right now, but neither of us are going to pretend that Scott couldn't have found himself another job, or that he doesn't have the skills to earn the job he's getting through the normal channels. On that same note, the job isn't what he thought; Fred's initial speculations at pay were $25/hr, but now it's dropped to $10, and even I'm surprised and upset by that, even when it's not my place. I do hope Scott talks to him about it and they end up working together well.
And so what if San Diego is only two hours away...? This is pretty much the thing I've been dreading since Day One, and it's coming closer and closer, and all amount of insensitive remarks from Grandpa (no matter how truthful) will allow me to accept it with a sigh and move on. I don't know what I'm going to do or what's going to happen, and I'm afraid I'm going to be horribly lonely and depressed without him. So close and yet so far... off doing what he loves, so I have no right to intrude, and it's HIS adult life now. I mean... what am I expecting, really? Let's say I get into Study Abroad, that would be a whole year and 3000+ miles apart from him! So... better that I grow up and apart from him now, right?
The annoying child in me screams, "I don't wanna!" and stomps her foot and cries a lot. I guess this is my first long-term serious relationship (sexual, at that; if you want to add up the factors of all my other relationships, the big ones never really came together in one relationship until now) so that explains my reluctance to just drop it and move on. I'm not good at the whole moving-on thing, really...
So I guess I'm at an impasse. I can keep on living life and letting things happen as they may, not knowing what I'll do or how I'll react when the time to say 'goodbye' (for now?) comes at last. Or I can do SOMETHING and... see what happens, too. Regardless of what, I want to enjoy the time I have left with Scott. I know that sounds a lot like it's a final goodbye, like someone's going to die or move far, far away, but neither of those are the case at all. I just don't know how it's going to be.
What kind of ending will I have?
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Date: 2005-11-28 02:07 pm (UTC)Help me/help you...
Date: 2005-11-28 08:07 pm (UTC)Re: Help me/help you...
Date: 2005-11-29 03:18 am (UTC)Make sure to follow the format of other stories (also listed on the UserInfo page) when you post.
Hope that helps!
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Date: 2005-11-29 03:35 pm (UTC)Oh, and I see you've been stealing your icons from the same place as me XD *uses one*
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Date: 2005-11-29 07:22 pm (UTC)Ah, yes, the joy of Sakebi. Personally, I want to gank some more quotes from the movie and use them with my YGO: Teh Moviez!!one1!pie ani-manga scans so I can make my own laughable icons. The freaky thing is (as with your icon), some of them make sense with the YGO characters!
Email exchange
Date: 2005-11-29 05:52 am (UTC)Re: Email exchange
Date: 2005-11-29 07:01 am (UTC)I remember one laughable one with Isis... or maybe someone just iconed one from a Seto x Isis one, and Isis was asking Seto "Do you even know what you're doing with that?" (guess what "that" is)
Re: Email exchange
Date: 2005-12-02 04:36 am (UTC)Re: Email exchange
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