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azuritePeople are so lazy. I should know, I'm one of them. But I hate looking at fanfics and seeing "Uh, I don't feel like working on this anymore, I think it sucks, so goodbye." It's so much easier just to delete it than to leave a stupid one-liner message like that there! Worse, I hate seeing the idiotic "plea" for help: "Please give me reviews; if you don't give me reviews I'll never finish this!" Lame. You write for yourself, not for fans.
Personally, I have a lot of unfinished fanfics. Yeah, it's shameful. I'm not proud of the hundreds of unfinished fics I have-- and I always have this goal scribbled in all my books, on all my posters-- FINISH WHAT YOU START! It's a great thing, that feeling of accomplishment when you finish something. I always get this big sense of relief, and then this big bubbling spring of energy that I did this, this is done, WHAT'S NEXT!? It makes me happy and excited.
Losing all my old data on the computer before really sucked. I mean SUCKED. I'm still not over it, and it pisses me off to this day that something idiotic like not having a virus scanner trashed ALL my webpages and fanfics. I'm trying to make a habit of writing down (on paper) my ideas, or uploading fics, even if they're in beta form or just on an ideas page, to the Internet, so they can't just get corrupted like that. It's halfway working. The problem is that I get into "trends" or "moods." If I watch Sailor Moon, I'll be in a Sailor Moon mood, and more likely to write Sailor Moon fics. Sad part on that end is, I signed myself up for the Lyric Wheel on SMRFF-- got a great song that I love too, but I don't have any new Sailor Moon to watch and inspire me. Even so, Sailor Stars probably wouldn't be appropriate for the theme "A sorta kinda fairy tale," but it's the idea that inspires you, not so much the content. Stuff in Stars could make one reminisce about the first season, or about unanswered questions... but of course, when I'm NOT in an SM mood, that presents a problem.
I'm busy. I finally finished the whole CCSF sign-up thing, and it looks like I'll be taking Elementary Japanese (I can look on it as either brushing up on my old skills or acing an easy class-- besides, college Japanese 1A might not be high school Elementary Japanese. Who knows?) to make up that credit. The deadline for SFSU, unfortunately, is in May, before the CCSF classes start, so that means I'll be making up my credit in the summer, hopfully getting a job, and then, in the fall semester when everyone ELSE starts college, I'll be working. Then, come spring, I'll go to SFSU! ~_~ To be honest, I'm kind of scared...
Anyway, back to the busy and the ficcing. There's CCSF, the Lyric Wheel... oh, and the Hinata 120% project! GAH! This one kanji was frustrating me so much, since I couldn't find it anywhere, and even when I translated it, it didn't make much sense. I feel so rusty, not being as fluent in Japanese as I used to. People always ask me if I can read the manga I carry around everywhere, but lately it feels more like a "sorta kinda" instead of an affirmative "yeah!" ._. Damn. In terms of fanfics, watching the Ranma OVAs has put me into a Ranma mood, reading Ranma fics and the like. I might just check out Hearts of Ice soon as see if Krista has gotten any farther. She hasn't posted anything to her ML though, so I'm somewhat worried. I'd like to finish all my "dead fics" before I get so involved in college and everything-- I know between exams, midterms, essays and the like, fics will likely become a last priority. I don't want that to happen, but college is taxing, even if you do only go to classes three days a week. And here I am spouting like I know what I'm talking about when I'm not even in college yet! GAH!
I have to go downtown to check out this store, Loehmann's, tomorrow. Er, today. Mom finally asked me what the deal was with my prom dress. It's a 'no' at this point that her designer friend will be doing anything for me, since Prom is a little over a month away. And to be honest, I don't have many ideas. It's easier just to find an existing gown I like and have it altered to fit me. I went to the trouble of "designing" all those dresses as DavidsProm.com, but Mom pretty much put a damper on that when it came to the whole sizing issue. I don't want to get a dress 3 days before prom, only to discover the bust is too tight, the waist is too loose, and the gown itself is too long. The closest store is in Modesto, where Mom says "Pregnant women get murdered!" Essentially, she refuses to go. Option 2: go to stores in San Francisco, or in the vicinity thereof. Like the Jessica McClintock outlet in So. San Francisco. But mom and I rarely go out of the city together, since she stopped driving. That'll be a no too. There's still this Loehmann's place, and Nicole's. If I buy now and am satisfied, there's plenty of time to get the accessories and have the dress altered, if need be. But there's still no info on the prom itself. And I still have to tell Rochelle...
I slept 6 hours today after getting home from rehearsal. Ishibashi let us go early, since we got through the whole stage-walking process pretty fast. But even so, I was so zonked throughout the rehearsal, I slept. -.- Conked out in the auditorium chairs. I've been awake since 7pm, and the inbetween hours were spent setting up my savings account over the phone (makes it easier-- no stupid computer errors!) and talking to Mom about weird stuff. Dogs, kids, prom, all sorts of things. 8 o'clock comes and I'm hoping for a new Buffy, but NOOOO... repeat. I should have known. Last week's ACUVUE CAM preview was telling. Next week's is new though-- it's when Buffy gets kicked out! Harsh man. I can't wait. ^_^ I feel bad though, knowing all this spoilerage, even though I only looked up series/Angel season finale spoilers for an hour or less. =D So, being a repeat, I showered... gak, more dye coming out. It's not noticable though. People still look at me in some sort of shock, like "Did you dye your hair?" and "Hey, your hair's kinda purple now, Mer..." I snicker to myself and nod complacently.
Gina finally (she kept trying to catch up with me-- at the bonfire, at Jimbo's, here at home) gave me my birthday present-- whee, it's Koda Kumi's realEMOTION single from Final Fantasy X-2. The girl on the cover beside Yuna is actually supposed to be Koda-san's CG! o.O weird. But the graphics and music definitely make me want to play. Even though I'm PS2-less, it's not released in the USA yet (it just came out in Japan in MARCH, for Pete's sake!), I still want to play. Or hunt down artwork. Maybe I'll be creative enough to make my next main page layout with X-2 art. >D
I want to work on Ranma fics! There's too many unfinished ones. "Saving Akane" is the primary one right now, since I have a bulk of Chapter 4 finished. But there's so many other fics from varying fandoms I need to work on. Lyric Wheel, too. BAH! Not enough hours in the day. And my back still hurts-- I made my appointment for my MRI, on May 13th. Hopefully it won't irritate me much this weekend, when I'll be in Anaheim for the Heritage Music Festival with choir. So I won't be at RTA Friday. ^.~ Hope you'll miss me! Last week was entertaining, to say the least. Hour long duel with Cris, sex0rz talk with the guys... *laughs* Definitely amusing.
Wish me luck at the competition guys, if we do well, we might have yet another reason for Mr. Kelleher not to remove choir from the class schedule next year! People are asking me why I care, since I'm a senior, but here's what it comes down to-- despite the bitches in the class, and even how Mr. Ulrich plays favorites, being in the class has taught me so much. I always feel so proud to be up there on the risers singing. I can't play an instrument. I'm not gifted in that way. My fingers are deft, they're stubby. But my voice is powerful, and the idea that I can use something I was born with to evoke emotion, to tell a story, to send a message-- that's an incredible feeling. I wrote a big long letter to Kelleher about all this, and hopefully he'll respond to it positively. I don't want choir to die.
I signed myself up for Jeremy's grad party (I want one! But all my parties turn into cook-fests or dinners... maybe iI should just go out for dinner again?) and, given his requirement for RSVPing (*grumble*) I snagged Adobe Premiere 6.0 as the grad gift of choice. Yay me. I still have to burn copies of all Vince's Full Metal Panic too, especially since I haven't watched it all. And speaking of anime, I won't be going to FX tomorrow, since I have to go to Loehmann's and J-town for the Hinata 120% manga. Despite using Windows Image Viewer, it's easier to have a copy on hand so I can translate it without being parked in front of the computer. I hope I can really get the first chapter done by Thursday night, like I told Himiko though. I got several pages done, but some words are just downright confusing. Subject Object Verb! Kanji! Kana! *runs*
I'm almost done reading "The Pillow Book of Lady Wisteria." It's not what I thought it was, to be honest. It's no Banana Yoshimoto, for sure, but it's pretty gripping. Passion, lies, murder... quite fun, especially given that it takes place in feudal Japan. 100 years after Samurai Deeper Kyo's time! *giggles* Oh, and there's still Fanime, and Otauworld subscriptions, and FFnet and LJ sign-ups... *mind is boggled* I need to get a job, because I need money! And I need to become Sailor Pluto and add more hours to the day! *runs around like a chicken with her head cut off*
BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!
Personally, I have a lot of unfinished fanfics. Yeah, it's shameful. I'm not proud of the hundreds of unfinished fics I have-- and I always have this goal scribbled in all my books, on all my posters-- FINISH WHAT YOU START! It's a great thing, that feeling of accomplishment when you finish something. I always get this big sense of relief, and then this big bubbling spring of energy that I did this, this is done, WHAT'S NEXT!? It makes me happy and excited.
Losing all my old data on the computer before really sucked. I mean SUCKED. I'm still not over it, and it pisses me off to this day that something idiotic like not having a virus scanner trashed ALL my webpages and fanfics. I'm trying to make a habit of writing down (on paper) my ideas, or uploading fics, even if they're in beta form or just on an ideas page, to the Internet, so they can't just get corrupted like that. It's halfway working. The problem is that I get into "trends" or "moods." If I watch Sailor Moon, I'll be in a Sailor Moon mood, and more likely to write Sailor Moon fics. Sad part on that end is, I signed myself up for the Lyric Wheel on SMRFF-- got a great song that I love too, but I don't have any new Sailor Moon to watch and inspire me. Even so, Sailor Stars probably wouldn't be appropriate for the theme "A sorta kinda fairy tale," but it's the idea that inspires you, not so much the content. Stuff in Stars could make one reminisce about the first season, or about unanswered questions... but of course, when I'm NOT in an SM mood, that presents a problem.
| Andi's Battle Imp is |
 Eaery |
Backstabbing: 6 Dodgin': 4 Guts: 7 Magic Mojo: 10 Smackdown: 10 |
I'm busy. I finally finished the whole CCSF sign-up thing, and it looks like I'll be taking Elementary Japanese (I can look on it as either brushing up on my old skills or acing an easy class-- besides, college Japanese 1A might not be high school Elementary Japanese. Who knows?) to make up that credit. The deadline for SFSU, unfortunately, is in May, before the CCSF classes start, so that means I'll be making up my credit in the summer, hopfully getting a job, and then, in the fall semester when everyone ELSE starts college, I'll be working. Then, come spring, I'll go to SFSU! ~_~ To be honest, I'm kind of scared...
Anyway, back to the busy and the ficcing. There's CCSF, the Lyric Wheel... oh, and the Hinata 120% project! GAH! This one kanji was frustrating me so much, since I couldn't find it anywhere, and even when I translated it, it didn't make much sense. I feel so rusty, not being as fluent in Japanese as I used to. People always ask me if I can read the manga I carry around everywhere, but lately it feels more like a "sorta kinda" instead of an affirmative "yeah!" ._. Damn. In terms of fanfics, watching the Ranma OVAs has put me into a Ranma mood, reading Ranma fics and the like. I might just check out Hearts of Ice soon as see if Krista has gotten any farther. She hasn't posted anything to her ML though, so I'm somewhat worried. I'd like to finish all my "dead fics" before I get so involved in college and everything-- I know between exams, midterms, essays and the like, fics will likely become a last priority. I don't want that to happen, but college is taxing, even if you do only go to classes three days a week. And here I am spouting like I know what I'm talking about when I'm not even in college yet! GAH!
I have to go downtown to check out this store, Loehmann's, tomorrow. Er, today. Mom finally asked me what the deal was with my prom dress. It's a 'no' at this point that her designer friend will be doing anything for me, since Prom is a little over a month away. And to be honest, I don't have many ideas. It's easier just to find an existing gown I like and have it altered to fit me. I went to the trouble of "designing" all those dresses as DavidsProm.com, but Mom pretty much put a damper on that when it came to the whole sizing issue. I don't want to get a dress 3 days before prom, only to discover the bust is too tight, the waist is too loose, and the gown itself is too long. The closest store is in Modesto, where Mom says "Pregnant women get murdered!" Essentially, she refuses to go. Option 2: go to stores in San Francisco, or in the vicinity thereof. Like the Jessica McClintock outlet in So. San Francisco. But mom and I rarely go out of the city together, since she stopped driving. That'll be a no too. There's still this Loehmann's place, and Nicole's. If I buy now and am satisfied, there's plenty of time to get the accessories and have the dress altered, if need be. But there's still no info on the prom itself. And I still have to tell Rochelle...
I slept 6 hours today after getting home from rehearsal. Ishibashi let us go early, since we got through the whole stage-walking process pretty fast. But even so, I was so zonked throughout the rehearsal, I slept. -.- Conked out in the auditorium chairs. I've been awake since 7pm, and the inbetween hours were spent setting up my savings account over the phone (makes it easier-- no stupid computer errors!) and talking to Mom about weird stuff. Dogs, kids, prom, all sorts of things. 8 o'clock comes and I'm hoping for a new Buffy, but NOOOO... repeat. I should have known. Last week's ACUVUE CAM preview was telling. Next week's is new though-- it's when Buffy gets kicked out! Harsh man. I can't wait. ^_^ I feel bad though, knowing all this spoilerage, even though I only looked up series/Angel season finale spoilers for an hour or less. =D So, being a repeat, I showered... gak, more dye coming out. It's not noticable though. People still look at me in some sort of shock, like "Did you dye your hair?" and "Hey, your hair's kinda purple now, Mer..." I snicker to myself and nod complacently.
Gina finally (she kept trying to catch up with me-- at the bonfire, at Jimbo's, here at home) gave me my birthday present-- whee, it's Koda Kumi's realEMOTION single from Final Fantasy X-2. The girl on the cover beside Yuna is actually supposed to be Koda-san's CG! o.O weird. But the graphics and music definitely make me want to play. Even though I'm PS2-less, it's not released in the USA yet (it just came out in Japan in MARCH, for Pete's sake!), I still want to play. Or hunt down artwork. Maybe I'll be creative enough to make my next main page layout with X-2 art. >D
I want to work on Ranma fics! There's too many unfinished ones. "Saving Akane" is the primary one right now, since I have a bulk of Chapter 4 finished. But there's so many other fics from varying fandoms I need to work on. Lyric Wheel, too. BAH! Not enough hours in the day. And my back still hurts-- I made my appointment for my MRI, on May 13th. Hopefully it won't irritate me much this weekend, when I'll be in Anaheim for the Heritage Music Festival with choir. So I won't be at RTA Friday. ^.~ Hope you'll miss me! Last week was entertaining, to say the least. Hour long duel with Cris, sex0rz talk with the guys... *laughs* Definitely amusing.
Wish me luck at the competition guys, if we do well, we might have yet another reason for Mr. Kelleher not to remove choir from the class schedule next year! People are asking me why I care, since I'm a senior, but here's what it comes down to-- despite the bitches in the class, and even how Mr. Ulrich plays favorites, being in the class has taught me so much. I always feel so proud to be up there on the risers singing. I can't play an instrument. I'm not gifted in that way. My fingers are deft, they're stubby. But my voice is powerful, and the idea that I can use something I was born with to evoke emotion, to tell a story, to send a message-- that's an incredible feeling. I wrote a big long letter to Kelleher about all this, and hopefully he'll respond to it positively. I don't want choir to die.
I signed myself up for Jeremy's grad party (I want one! But all my parties turn into cook-fests or dinners... maybe iI should just go out for dinner again?) and, given his requirement for RSVPing (*grumble*) I snagged Adobe Premiere 6.0 as the grad gift of choice. Yay me. I still have to burn copies of all Vince's Full Metal Panic too, especially since I haven't watched it all. And speaking of anime, I won't be going to FX tomorrow, since I have to go to Loehmann's and J-town for the Hinata 120% manga. Despite using Windows Image Viewer, it's easier to have a copy on hand so I can translate it without being parked in front of the computer. I hope I can really get the first chapter done by Thursday night, like I told Himiko though. I got several pages done, but some words are just downright confusing. Subject Object Verb! Kanji! Kana! *runs*
I'm almost done reading "The Pillow Book of Lady Wisteria." It's not what I thought it was, to be honest. It's no Banana Yoshimoto, for sure, but it's pretty gripping. Passion, lies, murder... quite fun, especially given that it takes place in feudal Japan. 100 years after Samurai Deeper Kyo's time! *giggles* Oh, and there's still Fanime, and Otauworld subscriptions, and FFnet and LJ sign-ups... *mind is boggled* I need to get a job, because I need money! And I need to become Sailor Pluto and add more hours to the day! *runs around like a chicken with her head cut off*
BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!BAWK!
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Date: 2003-04-23 02:57 am (UTC)Dude. The computer I'm on now I think, at one time, LOST ALL FILES due to the VIRUS SCANNER. My dad fucked it up while installing a new version of Norton and yep. I woke up one morning, a note attached to the computer. Something along the lines of, "sorry, lost all your files and folders.. all your artwork, homepages, etc. Sorry Grace. See you later. - daddy" lol So, it could be worse.
But if this computer lost all its files, I probably wouldn't care. It's happened to me twice. A lot of shit is on this computer that I cherish but nothing lasts forever but I digress. It's incredibly frustrating when you're sitting there and are like, "dude, I think I'll work on-- oh wait, I lost that file. FUCK." :x
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Date: 2003-04-23 03:22 am (UTC)Actually
Date: 2003-04-23 04:35 pm (UTC)An unknown fact about computers is that unless you do a certain kind of format, even just the normal format that you do in dos (deltree) will not wipe everything off your hard drive... there are still remanents. I know this because i've formatted my computer about 4 times and every time I bring it back from the tech-shop the same damn virus is on the computer... finally I just fixed the fucker and now it works.
So if you can find that shop, they probably can bring back all of your data... virus infested, sure, but you can fix that with an anti-virus program.