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I long to find the messenger.
Aug. 26th, 2005 06:04 pmI neglected to mention the severe creep-factor that was Wednesday en route to Carmel-by-the-Sea. We saw no less than 4 car accidents. One was a motorcycle accident, one of them happened within five minutes of our driving past the intersection where it happened, and the other 2 were on the freeway as we headed out.
Considering Ben died in a car accident, this didn't leave me with a very settled feeling.
I hate myself for not bothering to "try" harder, since that's something that bothers me-- people not TRYING, not making an EFFORT, being COWARDLY. I mean, I've TRIED fish before. I don't like it, so it doesn't make me a coward if I don't try it when someone offers it to be. I TRIED. You can expect to succeed at everything you do in life, or like everyone you meet, or enjoy every food served to you. But the trying of something counts for so much in your own head, if not to the people around you.
Turns out Ben was on MySpace and TheFaceBook all along, and I could have kept up with him, I could have... ARGH! I'm not trying to put myself down. I'm not. But I hate myself for not trying.
Anyway, WDKY18 with its 3-bites-out (that is, 3 scenes that need prose-ifying) is up at![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
betasquad. Help me, please?
I beat Bakura... now Yugi is all that's left of "Duelists of the Roses." ;D SQUEE NESS!
I decided to get the Dell Inspiron 6000: ( New compy for Mer Mer! )
I wish I could look forward to school starting now, but as of this moment, I'm just seeing it as another distraction, a thing to get done. I need to do a lot of that these days-- clean my room, move my room once Scott gets all his stuff out, send my PS2 to Dave (I need a box!), travel somewhere this winter... maybe Japan again.
...Gaaah.
Considering Ben died in a car accident, this didn't leave me with a very settled feeling.
I hate myself for not bothering to "try" harder, since that's something that bothers me-- people not TRYING, not making an EFFORT, being COWARDLY. I mean, I've TRIED fish before. I don't like it, so it doesn't make me a coward if I don't try it when someone offers it to be. I TRIED. You can expect to succeed at everything you do in life, or like everyone you meet, or enjoy every food served to you. But the trying of something counts for so much in your own head, if not to the people around you.
Turns out Ben was on MySpace and TheFaceBook all along, and I could have kept up with him, I could have... ARGH! I'm not trying to put myself down. I'm not. But I hate myself for not trying.
Anyway, WDKY18 with its 3-bites-out (that is, 3 scenes that need prose-ifying) is up at
betasquad. Help me, please?I beat Bakura... now Yugi is all that's left of "Duelists of the Roses." ;D SQUEE NESS!
I decided to get the Dell Inspiron 6000: ( New compy for Mer Mer! )
I wish I could look forward to school starting now, but as of this moment, I'm just seeing it as another distraction, a thing to get done. I need to do a lot of that these days-- clean my room, move my room once Scott gets all his stuff out, send my PS2 to Dave (I need a box!), travel somewhere this winter... maybe Japan again.
...Gaaah.
