Help.

Okay, so it's not like I'm having an emotional or mental breakdown or whatever, but it IS quite hard to deal with this. I appreciate all of the advice, whether I end up listening to it or not (^^;;...). I'm really surprised by how many people stepped forward with words of encouragement or ... other stuff. ^^; Even my aunts and uncles liked to add their two cents (more like fifty cents, really) and I'm sort of stuck with this: "It's my decision." I mean, everyone says different things. Dan contradicts his girlfriend Joanne, and David contradicts Neko, and... well, I'll do what I feel is right when things progress more.

Yeah, I haven't heard or seen any of Scott in the past two days, and needless to say it's got me a bit unnerved and sad. I keep wondering about various things-- is he thinking of/missing me? Was/is there another girl? When I finally do get a chance to talk with him (hopefully face-to-face) what will I ask? I kind of know why he broke up with me, but not why he thought he had to give up. Maybe it's my fault for posing an ultimatum when that wasn't what I intended to do. But I did see things as "give up or keep trying" because honestly, what other option is there for relationships in trouble? Let them stagnate as they are, like a piece of bread getting moldy? And then are the questions that I might not want to know the answers to-- does he still love me, are we still going to be friends, can we still hang out every once in a while? I'm sorry if everyone thinks this'll make things worse before it makes them better, but I can't possibly just cut him out of my life altogether and try and suddenly be single and move on. I love him, period, end of story.

Anyway, I need help with something else. This whole thing is sucking away my time and mental energy, so I'd like to ask anyone willing and able to please help me moderate the various communities I own, namely 30kisses (shadow_reality, weren't you my co-mod?). Mamono's covering offtopicon, and I haven't even officially opened ygo_icontests yet, so... that's okay. And I can keep putting off lyricwheel... still, I'd like any help you could give.

Does anyone have any good movies to recommend to me? You know, things that won't keep reminding me of Scott and what's happened at every third left turn? I mean, I can go shopping and all tomorrow, but for the next several weeks, I'd like something to distract me besides FFIX and work.

Oh, with the domain name thing... I'm still thinking. My primary choice sounds too darn cute for me, and I want something with a touch of sophistication... Mamono? *pokes*

And I'm serious about adopting a kitten. Someone point me in the right direction-- what do I do, where do I go, what do I need? I want a kitty.

( I'm not shy and quiet... )