Well, whee.

So I wake up as my internal clock reminds me it is trash night, and I get down with my trashy self and... take out the trash. Go me. The garbage bags are scented so it doesn't smell so bad. Haha. Whoever came up with that weird idea?

Anyway, so being the weird person I am, I decide this is the perfect time to get creative. Either work on a new layout of sorts or a fanfic-- of which I have too many ideas. And not feeling particularly prosaic (does that even make sense?) I opted for the layout idea. After a few moments of browsing through papers and files, I decided on BEA's new layout and theme. I won't tell ya just yet, though... Though I think kenmiyanomiko is to blame again-- she has nice icons!!! So that's all I'm going to tell you. I think it was her. ^^;

Gotta email all the BEA members and ask them to submit me ideas of what the FL should have. I know plenty of FLs have things like evidence, quotes, etc... I could easily put most of that into the Features section. I plan to have a good deal of it at BEA anyway, but I'm talking about more MAJOR sections (like Rules/About/Join/Link Us-- that kind of thing).

I was waiting for my email to come, and I was staring at the FFnet folder, thinking "Please let it be 6 emails or more, please, please..." I don't know why 6 came to mind. Maybe it's because that's the number of LJ replies I usually get (or it has the past few days, anyway). Or maybe because there were 6 or so Inbox messages. But lo and behold! 6 emails from FFnet! And none of them reviews for WDKY! It's bizarre. People reading my Inuyasha fics. Or even funnier, that DDR fic of mine. All of them unfinished. ^^; It's so cool seeing people rummaging through my seriously OLD stuff.

o_O... Many hours later, Mer realizes she still has not yet posted this. (Mer started this post at 9:35pm. It is now 6:30 am.)

>_< Well, I do have something cool and new to say!

YAAAAAAAAY! Blue Eyes And Apricots' layout is up! Doesn't it look nice!? I tried to follow PersonM's suggestion and not make it look too feminine (though if someone would care to inform me as to how cream and brown are "feminine" colors, I'd certainly like to know. The last layout reminded me of a Milano cookie), hence all the blue-ness.

Uhmmmmm.... got a new idea for a fic. I think I'm starting to grow a sense of humor. This one is funny along the same lines as TJOY (read: snarky, sexy wit) but... well, different. I can't tell you how, it'll spoil you. "Wish" (tentative titled) may be coming your way soon...

Yep, I'm hyper. I should be tired, but I'm hyper. ^_^ I went through my Megamix Playlist about 3 times (and it has 116 songs), so I'm listening to FFX-2 again now. ^^; I can't help it, I love the songs! *sways like a chocobo* Wheee~

He's allergic to kittens.

-.- You know, some reviewers really piss me off. They don't even have to flame me, they just have to be stupid. And in that case, I'd rather they didn't review at all. Someone named 'Seto Kaiba' reviewed TLC and said only "Eh... I'm allergic to kittens." -.- Oh yeah. Right.

LAAAAAAAAME!

Whee, I got the Circle Journey book from Marcella today! ^_^ I totally forgot about it for a while, but then Steph reminded me, and now here it is! PHWEE! But now it's almost summer, so should I really send it to Eva, or wait for her to come back to the city? We could all have TEH BIG PARTY and look it over or whatnot. We seriously need to have a bonfire though. And I mean a well-planned one, with hot dogs and marshmallows and school papers worthy of being burned.

Turns out I spoke too soon about BEA's new layout-- there were a few parse errors-- and I totally forgot to put the Members listing on the Nav Bar! So I had to go back and change all that, and now everything [supposedly] works now. Thing is, on the Members page, the side bar where I was planning on putting Affiliates buttons WILL NOT SHOW UP. I don't know what it is; something in the PHP is closing a table that I can't modify; I just can't get that cell to show up! It's pissing me off, so I just deleted it altogether. :P The Members page will not have any ads on it.

Mom left to go laundering (MONEY!) hah... no, she went to clean her loads of clothes. I'm here freezing my fingers off, trying to ignore my hunger until we go food shopping...

Ooh, in RPG news, Isis updated with something very nice and sneaky! Well, sort of. I suppose I should update too, but I'm supposed to wait for the Other Selves (of the Darks) to say something. And Kaiba, HELLLLOOOOOOO!! :P It was more fun when I first went evil; at least then everyone was posting. ;_;

Thus far, no one has emailed me regarding new sections or BEA's new look... but then, I only finished it at like 6am. ^^; I have to learn to be patient. There's not much for me to do online right now, since so much of what I do depends on other people getting back to me (that's not a good thing, now that I think about it). So I think I'll try and find something to eat, sit down with my new issue of YM, and maybe play some FFX-2. And then when I find a decent colored pen, I'll start writing out my replies for the Circle Journey Book ROUND #4!!!!! :DDDDD

By the way, when my mom's coffee machine works, it smells like fish.

I hate her.

I hate my mom, I hate spending money on her, I hate thinking of her, and YES, I BLAME HER FOR MY SISTER'S DEATH. She fucked up the only good thing in this family, and now we're not even a family anymore, and I know she doesn't give a damn.
I called her to ask if she was coming home after she did the laundry, but she said she was planning on going right to the supermarket with her BF and not include me at all. Which means more beer and less food that I would want to eat. Which means more starvation. Joy. Just what a depressed freak like me needs right now.

And then she goes and says that if I'm going to come, I can't get any junk food (hah, as if I really eat any anyways), because I'm not working anymore and I'm not bringing in any cash...

WTF!? I just hung up on her right there. I was silent, and in a state of shock. I still am, nearly on the verge of tears here. She called back and I tried to explain things to her, but it ended up as demi-shouting match. When I try to remain calm and mature, she whines and bitches; the same is true vice-versa. She uses her pathetic memory as an excuse to get her out of situations, as if it's some kind of rationalization.

I GOT FIRED.

It was not fun, I do not look upon the event as something uplifting and wonderful. And I certainly didn't want it rubbed in my face by my own money-grubbing mother. You'd think she'd know me better than that, and at least TRY to be a little sensitive, but NO, I guess that's too fucking much to ask.

I'm going to do anyway, because I'm fucking hungry and I want something I can actually eat. She's such a bitch, and I am so glad I am leaving. Again, I WILL NOT MISS HER AND HER SELFISH BITCHY WHINEY BLINDSIGHTED POT-SMOKING FREAK WAYS.