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Can't blame me for trying
May. 8th, 2004 03:19 amOkay, so I didn't go to Abercrombie, but I will tomorrow. Er, today. After Yu-Gi-Oh, and maybe a well-deserved nap on the couch. After much gaming.
I won't get the Perfect Ending after all, since I've neglected to do so many things. >_< But hey, new game plus...! And this time around, I'll use the 100% completion guide, instead of the bulk of the strategy guide itself. Hopefully I won't need it, having been through FFX-2 once before. I might just finish it soon; I have just started Chapter 5!
Anyway, I went to AFX after 6pm; got off at Eucalyptus to go to the bank and deposit my last check and grab some cash for McDonald's. Not really what I wanted to eat (for breakfast, especially since I didn't eat anything at home-- there WAS nothing), but I couldn't think of anything better or cheaper. I did pick up Wild Act #6 (which isn't even supposed to be out till the 11th!) at Border's, which is quite cool. Yuniko O_O! Shocking girl.
So I went to the screening room and ate my fill; no one noticed me save Aileen. I watched a few eps of some random anime that I can't even remember all that well; when Aileen went into the spillover room I did too; there were very few people, and Joe, Jenny, and the others weren't among them. Which was okay, at first, since I had nothing to feel uncomfortable about. But they all came in having gotten food from wherever, and immediately I was a bit off-guard. Of course I expected them to be there; Joe was the one that had, (in what *I'd* hoped was a somewhat insistent manner) told me to "GoGo" to the meeting.
Well, it's not like anyone seemed to care very much about whether I was there or not. Or that I HADN'T been there the past few weeks. And of course, Sean made the accidental (I assume) and snide comment, "You're here on a Friday? What, did you get fired?" So I fixed him with my blandest stare and told him, YEAH, I did. This past month or so has NOT been good to me, and it doesn't look like it's getting much better. I stand on my belief that PEOPLE DO NOT GIVE A SHIT. Okay, some people do. Richie does, which was sorta nice. So maybe ONE person here in SF might miss me when I go. Not many others, I think.
Maybe I'm seeing too much, or expecting too much, or wishing humanity or specific people would change when they can't or won't. It's their own choice, after all. You'd think telling someone how you felt would mean they'd respect those feelings, even if they don't return them, but nope. Flirting, flirting, flirting, even when the feelings are not mutual. And sorry, but Jenny is 21 and acts like a feline around me. It might have been cute before, but not so much now. I have no reason to go to FX. I was pretty bummed the whole time I was there. But I didn't want to just go home and be depressed, so I when I was "slightly" invited to go on a last minute joyride, I went. Jenny, of course, got shotgun.
We went all the way up to Vallejo and then hopped back on the 80 and turned right back around to SF. The two cars we were split in went to Sean's house and... wherever Ray+ went, I don't know. We hung around, watched weird yo-yo videos and stupid Flash movies (though admittedly "Banana Phone" is funny, and stuck in my head). And I told my tarot with the Ukiyoe cards that I assume Grace left at Sean's-- even though it wasn't my deck, and it's been a while, dead-on accurate, as always. *sigh*
And then Joe drove us all home, me first obviously, since Richie and Jenny both live out of town. I suppose I should have taken shotgun so it wouldn't have been such a hassle to get out, but I don't think I could have handled it. I'm good when I'm *not* around the people that concern me so much. Well, oddly enough, Joe seemed to get out and want a hug, and I'm not one to deny that kind of thing when I want it too... so I did. But it felt weird. Of course it felt weird, he doesn't like me, and I certainly have no priority in his life! I don't in anybody's life, I guess.
I should be glad I'm leaving.
Matter of fact, I got my registration stuff for CSUN. Once they get my ELM scores (26th) I can have an advisement appointment and then register for my classes online. I have to call to verify that they'll get the scores on the 26th, and then I can make the appointment for the 27th... and then I can stay through the 28th, come back to the Bay Area in the morning at San Jose airport, and just go straight to Fanime. Sounds like a decent plan to me, at least.
No spending of my money until then. This paycheck is nice enough, but it's only enough to cover Fanime expenses and *maybe* part of the room cost. I might be slaving away for my mom for a while, especially if she's insistent about the phone bills. I know I paid her for the last one, but there might be another one I owe her... o_O
I'd really like to have that bonfire and just burn everything that keeps me tied here. I have to stop being some sort of sentimental sap. What's gone is gone, and I should know that better than anyone else, eh? And no matter what, I will make it a point, somehow, to go to Magic Mountain and/or Disneyland before I start school this Fall. Who wants in?
:P Not many reviews for WDKY9. So not much of an ego boost. Some funny ones, though. One person reviewed 6 times... and each review said the exact same thing. -.- Some people are too impatient with their 'Submit Review' button. And Fido needs to do a better job at preventing that. The people that MATTERED reviewed. Kysra's is going into my "Keepsake Review" folder for sure! ^________^ So maybe I'll just read hers, Atlantis's, and Mamono's... over and over again. :) Yeah.
I won't get the Perfect Ending after all, since I've neglected to do so many things. >_< But hey, new game plus...! And this time around, I'll use the 100% completion guide, instead of the bulk of the strategy guide itself. Hopefully I won't need it, having been through FFX-2 once before. I might just finish it soon; I have just started Chapter 5!
Anyway, I went to AFX after 6pm; got off at Eucalyptus to go to the bank and deposit my last check and grab some cash for McDonald's. Not really what I wanted to eat (for breakfast, especially since I didn't eat anything at home-- there WAS nothing), but I couldn't think of anything better or cheaper. I did pick up Wild Act #6 (which isn't even supposed to be out till the 11th!) at Border's, which is quite cool. Yuniko O_O! Shocking girl.
So I went to the screening room and ate my fill; no one noticed me save Aileen. I watched a few eps of some random anime that I can't even remember all that well; when Aileen went into the spillover room I did too; there were very few people, and Joe, Jenny, and the others weren't among them. Which was okay, at first, since I had nothing to feel uncomfortable about. But they all came in having gotten food from wherever, and immediately I was a bit off-guard. Of course I expected them to be there; Joe was the one that had, (in what *I'd* hoped was a somewhat insistent manner) told me to "GoGo" to the meeting.
Well, it's not like anyone seemed to care very much about whether I was there or not. Or that I HADN'T been there the past few weeks. And of course, Sean made the accidental (I assume) and snide comment, "You're here on a Friday? What, did you get fired?" So I fixed him with my blandest stare and told him, YEAH, I did. This past month or so has NOT been good to me, and it doesn't look like it's getting much better. I stand on my belief that PEOPLE DO NOT GIVE A SHIT. Okay, some people do. Richie does, which was sorta nice. So maybe ONE person here in SF might miss me when I go. Not many others, I think.
Maybe I'm seeing too much, or expecting too much, or wishing humanity or specific people would change when they can't or won't. It's their own choice, after all. You'd think telling someone how you felt would mean they'd respect those feelings, even if they don't return them, but nope. Flirting, flirting, flirting, even when the feelings are not mutual. And sorry, but Jenny is 21 and acts like a feline around me. It might have been cute before, but not so much now. I have no reason to go to FX. I was pretty bummed the whole time I was there. But I didn't want to just go home and be depressed, so I when I was "slightly" invited to go on a last minute joyride, I went. Jenny, of course, got shotgun.
We went all the way up to Vallejo and then hopped back on the 80 and turned right back around to SF. The two cars we were split in went to Sean's house and... wherever Ray+ went, I don't know. We hung around, watched weird yo-yo videos and stupid Flash movies (though admittedly "Banana Phone" is funny, and stuck in my head). And I told my tarot with the Ukiyoe cards that I assume Grace left at Sean's-- even though it wasn't my deck, and it's been a while, dead-on accurate, as always. *sigh*
And then Joe drove us all home, me first obviously, since Richie and Jenny both live out of town. I suppose I should have taken shotgun so it wouldn't have been such a hassle to get out, but I don't think I could have handled it. I'm good when I'm *not* around the people that concern me so much. Well, oddly enough, Joe seemed to get out and want a hug, and I'm not one to deny that kind of thing when I want it too... so I did. But it felt weird. Of course it felt weird, he doesn't like me, and I certainly have no priority in his life! I don't in anybody's life, I guess.
I should be glad I'm leaving.
Matter of fact, I got my registration stuff for CSUN. Once they get my ELM scores (26th) I can have an advisement appointment and then register for my classes online. I have to call to verify that they'll get the scores on the 26th, and then I can make the appointment for the 27th... and then I can stay through the 28th, come back to the Bay Area in the morning at San Jose airport, and just go straight to Fanime. Sounds like a decent plan to me, at least.
No spending of my money until then. This paycheck is nice enough, but it's only enough to cover Fanime expenses and *maybe* part of the room cost. I might be slaving away for my mom for a while, especially if she's insistent about the phone bills. I know I paid her for the last one, but there might be another one I owe her... o_O
I'd really like to have that bonfire and just burn everything that keeps me tied here. I have to stop being some sort of sentimental sap. What's gone is gone, and I should know that better than anyone else, eh? And no matter what, I will make it a point, somehow, to go to Magic Mountain and/or Disneyland before I start school this Fall. Who wants in?
:P Not many reviews for WDKY9. So not much of an ego boost. Some funny ones, though. One person reviewed 6 times... and each review said the exact same thing. -.- Some people are too impatient with their 'Submit Review' button. And Fido needs to do a better job at preventing that. The people that MATTERED reviewed. Kysra's is going into my "Keepsake Review" folder for sure! ^________^ So maybe I'll just read hers, Atlantis's, and Mamono's... over and over again. :) Yeah.
