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A Pretty Good Day (And a Paradox)
Jul. 3rd, 2003 04:56 amWhee, went to RTA with Jonathan today. He called earlier in the day (around 1) and I was still half-asleep... told him to come over around 3:30, when I'd be fully awake, dressed, etc. Since I went to bed at 6am this morning (er, yesterday morning, since now it's 4:14am) just like I said I would, I was still pretty lacking in the sleep department.
We made plans to go to RTA and play some games-- I also figured I could ginuea pig my brownies on him-- and I gave him a small slice, which he didn't seem to *hate,* so I guess that's a good thing. They're chocolatey, he said. =D We didn't waste any time leaving-- all I had to do was finish some dishes and shut down the computer (I've been on a spree listening to my new favorite songs-- "Nara," "Mitternacht," "Major Tom," "Bring Me To Life," and "O Fortuna." And they're great songs for inspiring creativity, I tell you! No wonder why they were apart of such great AMVs at Fanime! =D I'm so getting inspired for future chapters of "Haraguroi Yuugi," so I'm very excited!
Anyway, so we had random conversations the entire time there-- and since I didn't have any breakfast, Jonathan kept joking that I was going to be neurotic (he'd been reading my slambook, and in the part that asked "When are you most neurotic," I wrote "When tired and hungry." XD). So we stopped off at Subway first, and he got a 3.5" sub (it was supposed to be 6"!?) while I got a deli-style turkey (YUM!) and some cookies (they had oatmeal raisin! *melts* YAY!). We went to eat over at the benches near the pier, commenting on all the street artists and gullible tourists on our way there.
We walked down the Waterfront to avoid the crowds (I started getting excited as we got closer to RTA... now THIS was a place where we could both be comfortable and have fun!) and upon arriving at RTA, saw Seigfred on DMX (I didn't break your combo, did I?!), Will, Benji, and Aaron. Jeremy showed up a few minutes later, ready to work, armed with a bottle of Windex. I played a game of DDR MAX 2 (and I sucked... for some reason. Might have had something to do with the fact that I was aware Jonathan was watching me, the fact that the pad was WAAAY too close to the screen, or the fact I was wearing clothes not conducive to sweaty-dancing. Or that I did songs harder than I normally choose) and failed my 2nd stage. BLACH. Waste of money, especially considering no one took advantage of the free joint premium. Jonathan immediately went to the Time Crisis 3 after that... I joined a while after him, and died soon after-- he kept playing for a good 10 minutes, getting pretty far in the game! @_o...
Played Extreme with this guy that, by the final stage, kept trying to get me to fail by putting me on Heavy. Very annoying, mind you, DDRing with random strangers that feel the compulsive need to SHOW OFF. I already knew the guy was better than me, but he didn't need to purposely need to set me up to fail, especially when I paid for his damn game! =P I got to pick all the songs though, so it ended up being fairly even.
Sometime while we were there, Jeremy sprayed me with Windex-- it got all in my hair and nearly in my eyes, and I know it did because I suddenly got a headache from out of nowhere. ;_; WHY? He was on some sort Windex trip, cleaning practically every screen in the house! He showed me a pic on his cell-camera of the as-yet-unfinished expansion-- it looks bigger in the picture than it seems in person. They didn't look even close to being finished yet, but Jeremy insists it'll be done by this Friday (not that I'll be there to see it; Jonathan and I are going back Monday).
Lessee, also played some Initial D, and a bunch of ticket games-- I beat Jonathan at Skee Ball because I had the incredible luck to get the 100 point (beat 'em by over 100 points! WHOO!), and thanks to Jeremy's l33t Pixi Stix skills, we got the flying-ticket machine working again. But my arms are too short to do much good; Jonathan had a special technique that got him lots more tickets than I did, but he was nice enough to give me all that he won. =D (I'm still in shock that I spent that many tokens-- 12 on DDR, 4 on Time Crisis, 8 on Initial D, and who knows how many on those ticket games... at least 5, probably). People seem to like my Coke-bottle token holder though. It's cool when I actually can get tokens out!
I'm glad things weren't too uncomfortable at RTA today. >_> I wasn't sure if Will was mad at me, or if he'd told Benji any of what I'd said. The thing I have is, trust. Even if you have to tell someone something bad, you better be honest and up-front about it, because otherwise, the situation just worsens. And waiting to say something gives people the wrong idea, too. That's probably why I'm so paranoid with Jonathan, always asking him if I'm making him uncomfortable. He won't tell me if I don't ask, and sometimes even when I don't ask, he's too reticent to get an answer out of. Hence, I worry about people ALL THE TIME.
But all's well, no one seems particularly angry/vengeful towards me. Admittedly, I'm still uncomfortable myself around certain people, but not to the point where it makes me act different. After all, I <3 my friends. More than anything. =D Oh, the rest of my money? Besides $5 in tokens, also gave $3 to Aaron for burning me Battle Royale (kind of a rip off, if you ask me, since CDs don't even cost $1/ea. these days... but he needs the cash for AX and I sort of do need to "repay" him for missing his recital... EVEN THOUGH IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!).
( hehehehahaha... )
Gah, but where am I going to get the $15 needed to buy "Wicked" now!? Whenever I actually have the money, damn Border's never has the book! *whine* Stupid Border's... you know when I was there Tuesday, there was literally a ROW of people sitting in the Manga section, fully absorbed in reading what was there. It was pretty funny to see, but I get reminded of how nice it is to go to Border's-- the people don't care if you sit there reading manga for hours! It's a great place to study, now that I think about it, so WHEN (determination kicks in, especially with "Mitternacht" playing in the BG) I get into SFSU I'll pro'lly study there. =)
Whee, applied to a few more jobs thanks to SAJ... I really needed to update my profile, since my hours were so limited, I didn't have the employment "experience" I got from working the Election Polls listed, and I filled it out before I graduated, so I didn't have that part completed yet. Hopefully this time around, I at least get some calls or interviews. Anything will be better than that possibility of working at Vector (WILL, THANK YOU!!). *whew* I'll have to start figuring out ways to get to Serramonte, Daly City, or Oakland via bus, since those places seem to have a lot of job openings. While I don't like commuting, money is money. NOW, the bonus (and here's hoping I don't jinx myself) is there's a job where I can work at home and earn upwards of $35K a year! =D Guess who it'd be for? eBay! ^_^ Whee. Now there's one job I hope I get (even if it's on commission...?).
~_~ I'm kinda hungry now, I wonder if I should have some cereal.
Oh yeah, the Paradox thing? Why is it that guys these days seem to lean towards more aggressive girls? You know, the guy wants the girl that will jump HIM, that will out of nowhere kiss him, etc. Not that I have a huge problem with that, since it's in my personality-- but here's the paradox. See, I'm sick of being the aggressive one. Call me a sap for chivalry and romance, but for once, I'd like a guy to push ME up against a wall and kiss me out of nowhere, or just surprise me for no reason, bringing me my favorite bagel or favorite drink. I think when those kind of things happen, it's either "not the right person" or it's weird and circumstancial, so it doesn't occur to me that "HEY, this is what you wanted, isn't it!?" Now with some people that are open to being either aggressive (assertive?) or passive, I get pretty shy (!). With Jonathan, it's weird, because I'm acting as the aggressive one, in the hopes that I can slowly get HIM to open up more. I'm not trying to change who he is or anything, but the guy has never had much of a social life outside of his house (if that even counts-- before he walked me home, we passed by the Donut shop on 17th/Geary, and he was complaining that they didn't serve Icees anymore! They haven't served Icees in 10 years!). So yes, it's quite a muddle I'm in here.
Yep, getting seriously hungry and worked up here. (Neurotica!)
EDIT 5:24 - MOM IS ANNOYING THE SHIT OUT OF ME! She always thinks I don't pull my weight around here-- because I leave the brownies out on accident? Because I don't like washing Ziploc bags? GAUGH! I don't care if she's the only one who works, all she ever does is complain! I WANT OUT!
We made plans to go to RTA and play some games-- I also figured I could ginuea pig my brownies on him-- and I gave him a small slice, which he didn't seem to *hate,* so I guess that's a good thing. They're chocolatey, he said. =D We didn't waste any time leaving-- all I had to do was finish some dishes and shut down the computer (I've been on a spree listening to my new favorite songs-- "Nara," "Mitternacht," "Major Tom," "Bring Me To Life," and "O Fortuna." And they're great songs for inspiring creativity, I tell you! No wonder why they were apart of such great AMVs at Fanime! =D I'm so getting inspired for future chapters of "Haraguroi Yuugi," so I'm very excited!
Anyway, so we had random conversations the entire time there-- and since I didn't have any breakfast, Jonathan kept joking that I was going to be neurotic (he'd been reading my slambook, and in the part that asked "When are you most neurotic," I wrote "When tired and hungry." XD). So we stopped off at Subway first, and he got a 3.5" sub (it was supposed to be 6"!?) while I got a deli-style turkey (YUM!) and some cookies (they had oatmeal raisin! *melts* YAY!). We went to eat over at the benches near the pier, commenting on all the street artists and gullible tourists on our way there.
We walked down the Waterfront to avoid the crowds (I started getting excited as we got closer to RTA... now THIS was a place where we could both be comfortable and have fun!) and upon arriving at RTA, saw Seigfred on DMX (I didn't break your combo, did I?!), Will, Benji, and Aaron. Jeremy showed up a few minutes later, ready to work, armed with a bottle of Windex. I played a game of DDR MAX 2 (and I sucked... for some reason. Might have had something to do with the fact that I was aware Jonathan was watching me, the fact that the pad was WAAAY too close to the screen, or the fact I was wearing clothes not conducive to sweaty-dancing. Or that I did songs harder than I normally choose) and failed my 2nd stage. BLACH. Waste of money, especially considering no one took advantage of the free joint premium. Jonathan immediately went to the Time Crisis 3 after that... I joined a while after him, and died soon after-- he kept playing for a good 10 minutes, getting pretty far in the game! @_o...
Played Extreme with this guy that, by the final stage, kept trying to get me to fail by putting me on Heavy. Very annoying, mind you, DDRing with random strangers that feel the compulsive need to SHOW OFF. I already knew the guy was better than me, but he didn't need to purposely need to set me up to fail, especially when I paid for his damn game! =P I got to pick all the songs though, so it ended up being fairly even.
Sometime while we were there, Jeremy sprayed me with Windex-- it got all in my hair and nearly in my eyes, and I know it did because I suddenly got a headache from out of nowhere. ;_; WHY? He was on some sort Windex trip, cleaning practically every screen in the house! He showed me a pic on his cell-camera of the as-yet-unfinished expansion-- it looks bigger in the picture than it seems in person. They didn't look even close to being finished yet, but Jeremy insists it'll be done by this Friday (not that I'll be there to see it; Jonathan and I are going back Monday).
Lessee, also played some Initial D, and a bunch of ticket games-- I beat Jonathan at Skee Ball because I had the incredible luck to get the 100 point (beat 'em by over 100 points! WHOO!), and thanks to Jeremy's l33t Pixi Stix skills, we got the flying-ticket machine working again. But my arms are too short to do much good; Jonathan had a special technique that got him lots more tickets than I did, but he was nice enough to give me all that he won. =D (I'm still in shock that I spent that many tokens-- 12 on DDR, 4 on Time Crisis, 8 on Initial D, and who knows how many on those ticket games... at least 5, probably). People seem to like my Coke-bottle token holder though. It's cool when I actually can get tokens out!
I'm glad things weren't too uncomfortable at RTA today. >_> I wasn't sure if Will was mad at me, or if he'd told Benji any of what I'd said. The thing I have is, trust. Even if you have to tell someone something bad, you better be honest and up-front about it, because otherwise, the situation just worsens. And waiting to say something gives people the wrong idea, too. That's probably why I'm so paranoid with Jonathan, always asking him if I'm making him uncomfortable. He won't tell me if I don't ask, and sometimes even when I don't ask, he's too reticent to get an answer out of. Hence, I worry about people ALL THE TIME.
But all's well, no one seems particularly angry/vengeful towards me. Admittedly, I'm still uncomfortable myself around certain people, but not to the point where it makes me act different. After all, I <3 my friends. More than anything. =D Oh, the rest of my money? Besides $5 in tokens, also gave $3 to Aaron for burning me Battle Royale (kind of a rip off, if you ask me, since CDs don't even cost $1/ea. these days... but he needs the cash for AX and I sort of do need to "repay" him for missing his recital... EVEN THOUGH IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!).
( hehehehahaha... )
Gah, but where am I going to get the $15 needed to buy "Wicked" now!? Whenever I actually have the money, damn Border's never has the book! *whine* Stupid Border's... you know when I was there Tuesday, there was literally a ROW of people sitting in the Manga section, fully absorbed in reading what was there. It was pretty funny to see, but I get reminded of how nice it is to go to Border's-- the people don't care if you sit there reading manga for hours! It's a great place to study, now that I think about it, so WHEN (determination kicks in, especially with "Mitternacht" playing in the BG) I get into SFSU I'll pro'lly study there. =)
Whee, applied to a few more jobs thanks to SAJ... I really needed to update my profile, since my hours were so limited, I didn't have the employment "experience" I got from working the Election Polls listed, and I filled it out before I graduated, so I didn't have that part completed yet. Hopefully this time around, I at least get some calls or interviews. Anything will be better than that possibility of working at Vector (WILL, THANK YOU!!). *whew* I'll have to start figuring out ways to get to Serramonte, Daly City, or Oakland via bus, since those places seem to have a lot of job openings. While I don't like commuting, money is money. NOW, the bonus (and here's hoping I don't jinx myself) is there's a job where I can work at home and earn upwards of $35K a year! =D Guess who it'd be for? eBay! ^_^ Whee. Now there's one job I hope I get (even if it's on commission...?).
~_~ I'm kinda hungry now, I wonder if I should have some cereal.
Oh yeah, the Paradox thing? Why is it that guys these days seem to lean towards more aggressive girls? You know, the guy wants the girl that will jump HIM, that will out of nowhere kiss him, etc. Not that I have a huge problem with that, since it's in my personality-- but here's the paradox. See, I'm sick of being the aggressive one. Call me a sap for chivalry and romance, but for once, I'd like a guy to push ME up against a wall and kiss me out of nowhere, or just surprise me for no reason, bringing me my favorite bagel or favorite drink. I think when those kind of things happen, it's either "not the right person" or it's weird and circumstancial, so it doesn't occur to me that "HEY, this is what you wanted, isn't it!?" Now with some people that are open to being either aggressive (assertive?) or passive, I get pretty shy (!). With Jonathan, it's weird, because I'm acting as the aggressive one, in the hopes that I can slowly get HIM to open up more. I'm not trying to change who he is or anything, but the guy has never had much of a social life outside of his house (if that even counts-- before he walked me home, we passed by the Donut shop on 17th/Geary, and he was complaining that they didn't serve Icees anymore! They haven't served Icees in 10 years!). So yes, it's quite a muddle I'm in here.
Yep, getting seriously hungry and worked up here. (Neurotica!)
EDIT 5:24 - MOM IS ANNOYING THE SHIT OUT OF ME! She always thinks I don't pull my weight around here-- because I leave the brownies out on accident? Because I don't like washing Ziploc bags? GAUGH! I don't care if she's the only one who works, all she ever does is complain! I WANT OUT!
