ARGH! -.- LiveJournal's being a bitch.

I'm TRYING to post comments here...! *sigh* I'm getting so steamed over something immensely petty like LJ not working. What else is new? This happens all the time to the sites I need/frequent the most. -.-; Why can't I just be indifferent? Mike's right, I am too high-strung. How do I become low-strung? Or unstrung? *gets tangled up*

Lessee, Sunday night Mike came over and we chilled some. What did we do? Uh, watched Otakudom, and he showed me his super-secret-special never-tell-anyone anime. Matter of fact, it's pretty good. HAHA, but we're both stuck with 56K modems, so we'll have to blow the secret if we want to get more episodes! ;_; But Mike's got up to 34 or something now... nuts!

Monday was our movie night, and as soon as he came over (late in the afternoon, since we both slept in till late-- 2pm and 5pm, respectively) we headed out to blockbuster (*ahem* Cockinblokbuster, as 'Niichan calls it ^^;) to get the movies... "Clerks," "Clerks, the Animated Series," "Mallrats," "Star Trek: Nemesis" and "Animatrix." They didn't have any Animatrix (I don't feel like typing all those quotes again... forgive me?) to rent, so Mike paid me with his room money (well $20 of it) so I could get it... so now I'm going to have to go to the bank and get the money for that. We watched "Clerks" first (I won at Rock-Paper-Scissors, but he would not be bested... and he beat me in the 2/3 match) and then "Animatrix," which he seemed to think was pretty cool. -.- He talks a lot when watching movies though... I dunno, I guess it's just when I saw "Animatrix" it was just so o_O WOW... that I didn't feel the need to comment. Question maybe, but... yeah.

Anyway, we watched a bunch of movies till... oh, we didn't even watch "Nemesis," and we were still up around 4am. We started to play a game of poker to see how rusty my skills were... VERY MUCH SO! He kept winning a bunch of games, but I won a few. Remember that bet I made with Mike the first time he was here last year? He made the bet about the Metreon having 5th Mix, and I said "No, it's 2 MAX2 machines," and I also said that "Kick the Can" was on MAX2. So I won half the bet, and lost half of it, and as a "reward," I'm supposed to get to duct tape Mike. But I could never bring myself to do it, so as a result of our poker games, he won that "right" back. -.- So now I can't duct tape him even if I want to! Feh.

Alright, LJ is pissing me off, so here are all the replies to the comments I *would* have made:
To Will: People in the room (SO FAR):
Mike
Will
Aaron
Chris K? (?)

Me(redith!)
Amber
Shannon (?)
ONE MORE PERSON REQUIRED (Two total, since it's unlikely BOTH Chris and Shannon will be staying in the room... I think)

To Grace: Ooh, you're going! ^_^ Yaaay! Well regardless of where you end up staying do drop in and say hiii~ if you're not working or something. o_O

To Amber: (dunno if this showed up or not)
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! Please stay over, because I've been getting all freaked out over whether I'll put the blue stuff in my hair right... and and yeah, people were getting confused over where we were supposed to meet and the like, so why not kill several birds with one stone (now that I think about it, that's pretty gory) and just have everyone stay over? We can play games and stuff, and I can cook! ~_~ Yeah.

Yahoo! is starting to piss me off too. I don't check my email for 3 days, and it overflows the bulk email box with 207 junk emails! That's a bit much! I don't even get that many on my other address! And Yahoo! claims they have the best junk stopping system! Just think if I hadn't decided to use the damned bulk mail folder, I'd have to rifle through my inbox to get rid of all 207 of those, plus the 30 that default right to my inbox! GAAAAAAAAAAAAAUGH!

I'm in a fairy tale mood. I might get to writing some of my own "fairy-tale rewrites." I had one, once upon a time, but I couldn't figure out how to execute it, and now it's just taking up KB here on my harddrive. Too much to do and not enough time, money, or hands to do it with!

TO DO LIST
* Do Laundry (!!)
* Buy pair of nude-colored tights, since I ripped the last pair
* Find a pair of huuuge socks in my laundry pile, and stretch the seams, so I have something resembling leg-warmers.
* MAKE MY CAPE!! (Use leather pants with brown shoe-polish dying them as the leather bit)
* Get $$ from bank for Fanime, CalTrain, food, film (pick up on Thursday) and new cameras
* CLEAN SWIMSUIT!
* Buy more blue stuff for my hair
* Remember to tell sensei that I'm not going to class on Thursday, and can I take the quiz now?
* Go to Goodwill and find a white turtleneck (unless a friend or mom has one that they don't mind me KEEPING)
* Have Mom help me make the required cape-cord and necklace
* Buy yellow ribbon for my cape lining


@_@ AH! Why didn't I do this all waaaay long ago? Because I'm a lazy bitch, that's why. ;_;

^^ WHEE! (swiped from ishiwatari)

I. Con Going

1. Have you ever gone to an anime convention?: Yes!
2. Are you planning to go to one in the near future?: What Helen said-- Fanime in a few days.
3. You have been to 1-5 conventions?: *counts* 4!
4. You have been to 6-10 conventions?: I don't think I'll be going to AX or AWA...
5. You have been to 11 or more conventions?: Nopers. @_@...
6. You rival Richard "Pocky" Kim in your con count?: Nope. Why do they call him "Pocky" ?
7. You've been to a con for one day?: Nah, I stay for the whole thing!
8. You've stayed all three days of a con?: *points above*
9. You've had more than 4 people in a hotel room?: *shudder* I'm going to try pulling 8!
10. You've slept on the floor of the hotel room?: The beds are so much more comfortable though!

II. Social Behavior

11. Have you met someone you knew online at a con?: *scratches head* Nah, not that I think about it. But if I ever go to AXNY, I will!
12. Are you now good friends with an online friend?: A few of them, yes.
13. Are you now dating an online friend?: @_@ No...
14. Ever glomped someone?: Oh yeah, I'm like... Shampoo, but without the purple hair, the Chinese accent, and the cute outfits.
15. Ever been glomped?: Hugged REALLY hard, but it wasn't "glompish" enough.
16. Ever have a fangirl/boy moment?: Oh hell yeah. I start jumping up and down and swooning and it's all ~_~ waaah! (various people)
17. Was it over yaoi/yuri?: *hack cough gag* No.
18. Cons are the extent of your social activity? Uhm, NO!
19. People know who you are, even if you don't know them?: A few-- that's happened before.
20. You're a FansView Con Personality of the Week?: Wha?

III. Cosplay
21. Ever cosplayed?: Yep! It wasn't a GREAT cosplay, but I had fun. And I'm doing it again this year!
22. Worn 2-3 costumes over a con?: Yeah-- Miaka Yuuki (minimal effort), Momo Adachi (medium effort), Mirielle Bouquet (decent effort)
23. Worn 4-5 costumes over a con?: Nope.
24. Hell, you're changing costumes every other hour (6+ costumes)?: @_@ I'm not THAT creative! Besides, with all that time you're taking up changing, you're missing the con!
25. Do you bring a camera to photograph cosplayers?: Yeah, but only the highly original, GOOD ones.
26. Participated in a masquerade?: Nah, I prefer to be in the audience. ^^; I crave the spotlight, but can't stand beign dragged into it.
27. Won an award? That'd be cool, but I'm not that good!
28. Been complimented on your costume?: Heopfully I *will* be. Last year's effort were minimal.
29. You're recognized by your local fabric store employees?: Haha, no.
30. You take commissions?: To do what? ^.~

IV. Life At A Con

31. You usually stay up past midnight at a con?: Duh! All the good HK movies are on at like 1am, and it's always fun to go for a 3am swim!
32. ...Past 2AM?: *points above*
33. ...Past 4AM?: *points anove*
34. Sleep is for the weak?: Uhm... guess I'm weak then. I sleep in the midafternoon, prolly, when there's not much going on.
35. You like Pocky?: ;_; I like it! Strawberry is yummy!
36. You've gotten sick of fast food by the end of the con?: I try to keep a variety going. You know, fast food, restaurant stuff, ramen...
37. You've gone broke from eating hotel food?: Eh, I would have if it hadn't been for my mom. But the SC Westin doesn't have great room service anyway, and the restaurant downstairs doesn't have much of a variety.
38. You've survived off Ramen the whole weekend?: How did you know my super cool plan!?
39. You've blown at least $100 in the dealers room?: *scratches head* Yeah, probably. Without thinking-- since it wasn't all at once. I hope I have that much this year!
40. You've managed to spend nothing in the dealers room?: NEVER. Okay, maybe the first time at Fanime, hella long ago, when I didn't even know what it was and stuff. I just stared in awe.

V. Everything Else

41. You hang out regularly with con buddies?: Con buddies like people I met at a con? No. Otherwise, most of my friends are coming to the con! We're so cool!
42. You go to school/work with con buddies?: Nope.
43. You drive more than an hour to see con buddies?: Nah, I don't drive. =P
44. You preregister for cons?: Hell yeah! Why pay $50 when you can pay $35! Besides, you get a cool badge! (*hopes she doesn't get something stupid this year*)
45. You plan months ahead for the next cons?: I try to, but inevitably I end up rushing in the last week. *innocent chuckle*
46. You've driven more than 6 hours to get to a con?: Ugh, that'd have to be one hell of a con!
47. You've taken a plane to get to a con?: -.- No. And I repeat, I AM NOT GOING TO AX! BOOO!
48. You've volunteered at a convention?: I was going to, but the volunteers were filled up! HAH!
49. You're staff of a convention?: Nah, but I have friends who are!
50. You're starting your own convention?: I tried to, once. It was a joke.

Yet another entry...

I am the Siren A man is often secretly oppressed by the role he has to play - by always having to be responsible, in control, and rational. The Siren is the ultimate male fantasy figure because she offers a total release form the limitations of his life. In her presence, which is always heightened and sexually charged, the male feels transported to a realm of pure pleasure. In a world where women are often too timid to project such an image, learn to take control of the male libido by embodying his fantasy. Symbol: Water. The song of the Siren is liquid and enticing, and the Siren herself is fluid and ungraspable. Like the sea, the Siren lures you with the promise of infinite adventure and pleasure. Forgetting past and future, men follow her far out to sea, where they drown.

What Type of Seducer are You?
created by polite_society

@_o... I got the same thing as Grace. Nuts. I wanted more variety here!

OMG OMG! I got a 3.5!! A 3.5! (GPA, that is!) *starts to cry* I'm so happy, I feel like I won an Emmy or something! Don't get me started, I might start reciting that stupid bit from the "I'm a Blonde!" AMV, and everyone insists that I'm more redheaded anyway, but I'm going to end up blue-haired in a few days, so why does it matter!??! AHH!

The report: (Grades for the final report card period; Grade followed by Citizenship)
Homeroom - Satisfactory (blah)
Vocal Music - B/E (I got an E even though I was tardy 22 times. Hot damn.)
American Democracy/Economics: - B/S (YESSSSSSS! I got a B!!! I raised my grade from a D to a B in ONE quarter! I RULE!)
IMP (Math) - B/S (AGAIN! Raised from a D! *glomps Jonathan* When he comes back, I'm HUGGING THE AIR OUT OF HIM!)
Journalism - A/S (of course ^.~)
European Lit. - A/E (of course-- haha, and Thompson left 4 comments: "student does excellent work/participates well in class/makes consistent effort/is improving")
Teacher's Aide - A/E (of course)

WAHOO!! I think that's one of the highest GPAs I've had in my high school career. For all your APers used to getting 4.22s or whatever, sorry, this is a big deal for me, especially after having a 1.5 GPA in my junior year. I AM SO HAPPY! ;_; Maybe I'll laminate this and cover it with smiley-face stickers and glitter glue!

Hmm, this seems to be the month of karmic-ness where guys are involved. It's not just with me either; people are hooking up, people are breaking up. It's kind of relieving and sad all at the same time. I get those bouts of jealousy that come and go with the tide almost, and sometimes I'm so proud of what I have, I just show off! I've always been ignored and teased before, and to actually *have* somewhat of a sex life, to have relationships and stuff is amazing to me. I think part of me is still in shock that I'm not halfway down the road to becoming some graying spinster with 80 cats.

And you know why I'm here? Call me mushy and all that, but it's all because of my friends. This is so dorky, but I have to say it, because so many people go through their lives without really recognizing those people that are always there for them, or if they do, it's only on this superficial, "happy birthday" level. There's always these rules I come up with, about honesty and friendship and everything, but with people you're really comfortable with, real friends, you can't write rules or predict anything, because it all just happens. And you're find for it, for the better, in the end... somewhere down that road.

What I mean is, real friends are the ones that tell each other most everything-- even the brutal truth, which always hurts. Real friends can do all sorts of weird shit with one another (like drinking vodka and eating goldfish, maybe?) and then it's a fond memory, not something forgotten or whatever. You have all these times to look back on and remember with a smile on your face. And people will come and go from your lives, boyfriends, girlfriends, all sorts of people, and you'll look back and probably feel a lot of things. But you'll have learned lessons, and the same people that were there for you then, to help you get through the tough bits of life, are still there for you now.

I'm getting sappier and sappier for several reasons:
* I don't feel like I'm there enough for my friends. I always get "left out" and I feel lonely and stuff when people I thought I was good friends with don't call, or when they do talk to me, it's over something they want. But if it's that way, then it's because I'm not being active enough in THEIR life. I have to make the effort to get out there and have fun with them, to call them up and just party. So that's what I want to do.

* Lots of my friends are starting to question their friendships/relationships with other people. I hope I'm not one of those people that someone bitches and rants about in the securely-locked sections of their journals. You know, the type where you tell people that you can't stand them anymore, or that they annoy the hell out of you. Because I do that exact same thing, and not a day goes by when I think how sickening it was of me to do that! How terrible that I can't just express myself to their face, because I'm so afraid of losing them! Won't the truest friends stand right there though, take your shit, and fire it right back at you? I think I'd want that. Every good, solid relationship needs a fight. They're tough to get through, but...

* We're getting closer and closer to July. I don't REALLY have a boyfriend in so many words; I don't know what this thing with Jonathan is, and the more I think about it, the more it drives me nuts. I'll ask him what I want to ask him WHEN he gets back. That's not the topic at hand is right now. I mean, I don't have someone to NEED to be dependent on, to lean on and sob my eyes out. When I do that, especially during this time of the year, I feel like I'm using them, passing along some sob story. Instead, I think it's best to tell my friends what I feel, instead of bottling it up and "smiling and nodding" like I usually do.

I'm sad. I miss my sister. I really miss my sister. More than words can say. But I am SO... so proud, so happy, so blessed, so incredibly LUCKY to have the friends I do. This one time in elementary school, some jerkass told me to count my friends. And being the naive pup I was, I did, and I was incredibly sad to find that of the friends I had, I could count them on one hand. This caused aforementioned jerkass to laugh and run off.

But you know what? It's not quantity, it's quality. I wonder if that same person still knows and talks to all THEIR friends from elementary school? True, I don't either, but then, I consider the friends I have some of the brightest stars I've ever had the pleasure of being in the company with. To list them all would take forever, because I'd end up waxing eloquent (and probably bitching, too ^^;) about all of them. It's not the amount of time that you've been friends with someone (but hey, 1 year is a big deal!!) but who they are, how they treat you, what they mean to you in any situation.

I think if I ever had to pass a message onto my friends, it'd be something like this:
Thank you (repeated a million times). You guys don't know how incredibly cool you are, but I'm not going to say why. Because that might make your ego swell (*wink*) I'm not going to crush my own ego to say how cool you guys are, for hanging out with "me" or whatever. That's not it at all. The big message is that I feel so lucky to have you guys in my life, and I love spending time with you, even though sometimes it seems like I'm stewing in my own PMS. (eew!) Through thick and thing-- wow, we've been through a lot, and we're still going strong, still living, still having fun! We're the best!

After losing my sister, I think I realized the one thing people don't do enough is appreciate others. I was going to ask Jonathan if he'd come with me to Land's End on the 20th of July (the anniversary of when my sister died 7 years ago), and I'd tell him what I've told other people before-- love the people that surround you. Appreciate them, because life might decide to throw a curveball at you one day, and it'll knock you flat on your back. You won't know what hit you, and you won't understand. You can complain all you want about all the injustices of life everyday, how badly your brother treats you, or how much your sister's a bitch, but think about it-- when you say you wish s/he'd go away and die, can you even imagine what it would feel like if that actually happened? If one day, someone called you up and said-- that person is no more?

This isn't just for family, it's for friends too. Moreso with friends almost, since you don't live with them, don't talk to them everyday. I've lost so many of my friends to idiotic, sad things. One of my friends was murdered. Another moved away. Another stopped talking to me because of a stupid thing I did in 5th grade, and it wasn't until THIS year, our graduating year, that we started talking again. Plenty of other people lose their friends to drug abuse, suicide... so many other things, and it suddenly occurs to them that NO, LIFE IS NOT FAIR! Life can be so much fun, but only if we make it so by making the best of what we have, by treasuring it and loving it for every second.

I'm not saying go walking around always holding hands with your best friend, or always stay attached at the hip to your SO or even your siblings... but that doesn't mean that for some inexplicable, out of the blue reason, you can't say "I love you." Those words can actually have a greater effect on someone than you'll ever know, especially if you mean it. And a hug, or a hand squeeze can really brighten someone's day.

It's nice to feel loved. So pass it on, even if it makes you feel sick sometimes, or this sounds like one of those sappy chain letters. ^_^

I know I promised Nikki that I'd try and make my entries shorter again, but look-- 3 entries today and they're not short! I can't do it! I can try and save your eyesight though, along with your pretty layouts. Here, I'll LJ-cut it.

( what happened on Father's Day )

Eeyah! I really gotta get going now. Class! TTYL...