Gaah...

As I left Will's house last night, I felt really bad for not really talking to him that much-- you know, more than I could have. I knew that I wanted to be home before 8pm (and I left my house at 6:50, so by all rights it should have been possible, except I got lost and had to walk) so I could catch Buffy and Smallville... both of which turned out to be repeats, and the former of which I watched at his house, despite being a repeat. I think I'd figured it out not long after the first 15 minutes of the show; I shoulda just asked Will to turn the TV off or something so I wouldn't so so distracted. ;_; Damn, I feel bad.

We stopped by a liquor store to pick up snacks, but I wasn't that hungry for chips and the like. I was thinking of stopping by BK for a pie or something, but the bus stop was closer than the BK I was thinking of, so I nixed that idea. Blaah. And when I left the bus stop, I didn't really look at Will that much. More feelings of guilt and badness. I feel like I'm not being enough of a friend... *sigh* But hey, I've got a whole bunch of fun to look forward to-- the dance this Saturday (gotta tail it to Ishibashi's office and get that form signed!), my concert on the 13th, Will's birthday, my birthday (SPRING BREAK!) and possibly Passover... >_>... mmhmm, let's see, there's also Amber's birthday, B3, Graduation, Fanime... =D No more depresso-beans!

Oh, and I managed to get the lyrics for the English (well, it's really Italian, but the band -called Name- sing it in English) version of "My Will..." Gawd, such a fantastic song. I love it. ^_^ And now, here they are...

( thinking of you made me cry... )

62 minute period, roughly 20 minutes already gone. Time flies. I oughta be distributing. I'm heading to RTA after 5th period (gah, Thompson better not make me fall asleep, her class is getting as boring as Gilmore's!). Yay, no 7th period!

Out of the Ordinary

You know what, I'm not done. I'm going to post again because I want to have a different mood, music, and subject line. ^^; Yep, yep, dorky. Okay, for starters:

1 - some people at my school have planned a walkout, and I found out this morning that two fairly politically active (their words, not mine) girls in my journalism class -Colleen and Corinna- have had a hand in organizing the whole affair. Personally, I think it's a bunch of horseradish, since they're encouraging a walkout in the middle of this longer-class schedule. Why do I think this is stupid? First, the little flyers had bull for information-- stuff about how our democratic rights were being violated, and as the next generation, the "future of this country," we have to do something about it. Walking out though, isn't the solution. People staged walkouts in the 1960s to boycott practices at the places they were walking from! The school hasn't done anything wrong; we haven't promoted the war in the slightest. Quite the opposite; most of our student body is highly anti-war, including myself! But students are being brainwashed into thinking that Bush is some evil Nazi (admittedly, he's a crappy president, but we can't just impeach him, now can we?) and that this entire "war" because of our greed for oil. BULL! Has anyone else forgotten that we have a fucking 1000+ mile long oil pipe from Alaska?! WE HAVE OIL! It just so happens that a *majority* of the places where we get CHEAP oil are in the middle east. Anyone want to tell me why the US keeps butting into stuff that isn't our business? Why do we always have to act as mediators and get our own boys killed!? I've already lost friends, and more of my classmates in the reserves are on stand-by.

I'm fairly steamed at Colleen right now, because when I mentioned how the school was going to lose money for all the people walking out of 5th period, Colleen said that I was one of the biggest cutters she knew-- which is complete and total bullshit. I'm in ONE of her classes, and I am 85% always here. The other 15% I don't cut-- leave 5 minutes early, yes, but that's when I ask permission and am allowed to-- or I'm sick and I don't come to school at all. It's fucking ridiculous how she thinks she knows who I am, what I've been through, and what I'm feeling when I don't want to be in class. Even when I miss my early classes that I hate -like math and American Democracy- I always show up to Journalism. *hiss* You know, sometimes I like her rebellious, liberal, outspoken self, but sometimes she spews more shit than a fucking dinosaur. And if Eva doesn't show up to 5th period because Colleen's convinced her to go to this "walkout" (apparently other schools are doing it. I don't think the media's going to take much notice of this; the advertising certainly isn't citywide, and regardless of the cause it's for, all these people are cutting-- there's no excuse). *sigh* I'm not going to be pissed if and when she comes back. I just think it's ridiculous. My opinion.

Now, from Liz... an interesting question that reminds me of the thought-provoking "themes" from FreeOpenDiary.com.

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?
Hm.

1. Write to Barbara Walters asking about how she got as far as she did, and what advice she has for a wannabe-journalist like myself


2. Write to YM, Teen, and Seventeen about maybe getting an internship (!?)


3. Get the guts to talk to Joe and just find out why he hasn't talked to me at all


4. Finish writing ALL of my fanfiction; get started writing all my ideas before I lose sight of why I wanted to do them in the first place


5. Go to Petaluma and just hang out... to to Copperfield's, Dodge City, the library... without fear of seeing my dad


6. Sing karaoke (maybe "White Destiny" ?) at Fanime!


7. MAYBE go to Northridge/LA for Passover the day after my 18th birthday... being free from all parental restrictions, not have to worry about seeing my dad or having him tell my aunts and uncles what I can and can't have


8. Go to all the school dances... maybe have some courage to either a) ask for a date or b) just plain have fun


9. Actually find a way (and be determined to) to hook up a road trip out East to either NYC or Jersey


10. Actually apply for some of those scholarships/jobs/internships I've heard about...


11. DDR Heavy songs (hah!)


12. Max Combo and/or PA "Break Down"


13. Para Para like the graphics tell you to, instead of just doing my own "freestyle" thing...


14. Not worry about money so often... maybe be spontaneous and treat my friends to dinner or a movie or something.


15. Open a website design company... hey, I actually have skills, and I have friends who would make fantastic co-workers!


16. Learn to play a real instrument... not just "sing." Maybe drums or guitar or piano... >_>

( things to think about )

I'm somewhat calmer now. Once again, we shoulda been doing distribution, but oh well... I like being laid back. We do need to take care of this Target ad thing though... I sincerely hope they do dish out the 5K for the 12-page spread-insert ad... it *is* full color. Lunch is in a few minutes, so I'm going to head out.