Mental Health Day!

Ugh, I've been waking up at 5:45am lately and hating it, so I'd go back to sleep, curl up in my blankets, and then for whatever reason, not wake up again until it was too late to make it to choir on time. Today it was a completely conscious choice, though I don't entirely know why-- I mean, there's nothing horrendous about today. No afterschool classes I'm going to miss, no huge assignments due. There's plenty of stuff PAST DUE (i.e. POWs 9-10) and tomorrow there's a whole skew of journals due for English. Hopefully Eva has (or will have by now) sent me the list of journal assignments I may have missed or that we can do to meet our quota, since I left my math and english folder in stupid Koski's class. >_< Damn.

Ugh, the one thing I am glad I'm missing today is the chapter 1-2 test for Economics. I'll have to read up on all that today, and maybe get to work on a "study guide" for it, in the form of those "Mer's Guides To..." Mm, yeah.

Let's see, yesterday I slept in, trying to catch up on all the sleep I missed from Saturday, what with waking up so early and going to Santa Cruz. But it was all fun anyway. Yesterday I was supposed to go to see a movie with Will and maybe look at his computer, see why Dreamweaver wasn't loading properly. But since I blew all of my cash (all that my mom could give me) the movie was out... and Will's all honest, so I didn't use the credit card # I swiped from my mom while ordering food online from Safeway. ~_~ Oh phoo, but I did save it for future reference... tee hee hee.

Well, so it took a while to get my contacts in, and I was hungry... plus, having only $1.25 to my name, I decided to eat pizza at home, which took a while to reheat, despite the brand-new toaster oven. Those things are really quite helpful, especially if you have an explosive gas-range oven *hint hint*. Plus they're cheap. =D I brought a whole crapload of stuff to Will's, too-- the cookie press for those special cookies I wanted to teach him to make, ALL my SO2 files (that is, hundreds of printed pages regarding how to play the game, how to play it well, and how to cheat), my memory cards, and the Prima Strategy Guide, which I guess I can put in a bunch of slip-covers now, stick in a binder, and keep more organized that way. -.- I'm too nice, I guess.

Oh, and Will:
Funny Slayer
This tip is for receiving the 'Funny Slayer' sword, before the 'Cave of Trials'. Here's how you do it, after finishing up the 'Lacour, Tournament of Arms', go to the tiny town of Salva. There you'll see a worried looking man named Raddle the Traveler. By talking to him he'll ask which way is it to Herlie. Replying 'North' will be the correct answer, and he will thank you and be off. Then, after conquering the 'Mountain Palace'. Go to the slightly bigger city of Mars. Going inside the the only store on the west side you will see Raddle the Traveler again. Talking to him will have him respond by saying that he lost his way and will ask you for directions again. Now say that Herlie is further east. Finally go and retrieve Leon, for the mission to retrieve the Energy Stone. Once you have retrieved the Energy Stone, go look around Hilton. If you have done everything I told you, you will see Raddle the Traveler. Tell him the proper direction to Herlie again. Now, in the second disk, when you go back to 'Virtual Expel', you will see Raddle the Traveler in the hotel in Herlie. He will thank you profoundly and give you a token of his gratitude. The sword will be the 'Funny Slayer'. Now you can beat the Level 6 boss with ease. - PlanetSilicon

The above site from which this was taken (the first one on the Yahoo! search results) otherwise sucks, but this is true... and I actually think I'd done everything-- oh WAIT, THAT WAS IN MY OLD FILE! *grumble* I guess the best way to pass the time waiting for food to get here is to play Star Ocean.

We went to Japantown yesterday... Will got some red-bean cake, blackblack (it didn't make me scream, tear, or anything of the sort. It tastes like Altoid's gum) gum, and Star Ocean 2 the manga #3 yesterday. Will was drooling over Celine the whole time... or if not Celine, Opera. ^^;; Now Amber knows her options for cosplay for Fanime this year. Hehe... Me being broke, I was relieved Will didn't get a crepe and rub it in my face, because I was so hungry I probably would have floored him for trying. ^^; He got an Initial D keychain (the guy at Japan Video asked Will if he even knew what it was, and I scoffed, thinking behind-the-counter dude was about to get a lecture) which is... a Skyline? An RX-7? @_o I dunno, someone should go check and see the official site and all the color combinations for the cars.

Anywho, after Japantown, we returned to Will's house, and his mom was back-- she'd walked their turtle Rex in Golden Gate Park. ^_^ I see turtles every now and then over at Stow Lake when I go, always basking in the sun then sliding back into the water. Rex was cute, too, though I think she was afraid of me at first. At least she didn't bite me for having fingers that look like Cheetos. >_> We played some Star Ocean, and while I was trying to clean up Will's comp (he'd over 2,000 MB worth of Temporary Internet Files saved on his computer!!) he accidentally saved his best Earth-mode file over mine. *sigh* Something tells me I should have been more pissed off than I was, but I can't bring myself to be. Yeah, I spent a lot of time on that file, and despite it being a video game, I had a great deal of pride when I beat all those Fields on my own, and I got Orchestra on my own... *whimper* But I'm okay. I saved as far as Herlie with my crappy memory cards, so I'll catch up soon enough. Maybe I'll go play when I'm done with my email.

Gah, Will kept on apologizing, too. I kept on tickling him in response, even when Amber called. All I said was that he owed me, so I guess when we have a 3 day weekend coming up (that's this weekend) he and Amber will have to stay over, and Will will have to do all the cooking. -.- Yeah, that's it.

I'm also considering putting "Every Heart" (my personal site, encompassing all the ooey gooey delishiousness that is "me") up sometime this week, with a Wish List, since my birthday's coming up. Hmm... I can think of two things I want now:
1) one of those super-memory cards.
2) a playstation 2
^^; I just get so sick of playing SO2 on my PSX and it freezes right after a lengthy dungeon or... gah. NEVER MIND! THINKING OF ALL THE TIME I SPENT ON THAT FILE AND LOST IN THE FRAME OF TWO SECONDS IS MAKING ME DEPRESSED! *cry*

*ahem* Well, I was going through my computer this morning too, and I found a bunch of old (funny, depressing, strange) AIM conversations with Mike, Joe, and Aerisande. Haha, Aerisande and I have had some great, funny chats. I need to get working on my quote collection again. It's a good way to display fonts, too, now that I think about it. I guess that's why I loved FontGarden.com. Mike's conversations were always either one of us revealing something horrible to the other, or talking about absolutely nothing of importance. Funny how that works. I wonder how he's doing now, I haven't talked to him in a while. Maybe he'll come back in the summer? Something tells me that would be very weird.

Blah, I miss Joe. I can't believe I'm saying it either, since I convinced myself that not getting back with him all those months ago was a GOOD thing. You know, that if in my gut I couldn't trust someone, it was better for the both of us that I didn't strain that. And yeah, I guess it was right, since I ended up having fun and such while Mike was here, and then crushing on other people... and it's not like I *need* to have someone. I guess I miss talking to Joe more than anything. I found an old AIM conversation of us where we were just babbling. There was nothing icky, mushy, or weird about any of it. That's what I miss. How sad.

Things coming up this month:
14th - Valentine's Day/Bemani Night/Stupid Asthma Appointment
15th - Gene's Birthday Party/Chinese New Year Parade/Amber Returns!
16th - Sleepover?
17th - NO SCHOOL!
26th - Young Women's Heath Conference

Yeah. My throat hurts. I want to be productive today. I'm hungry.
My not-so-brief rant is finished.

Mm, I forgot about this...

( What about who now? )

Since I tend to hate one-line emails, unless you're reading this from the extended view, I also get irritated at one-line entries, with only a silly link to something like the above. There should be content, j00! Not much I can think of to say though, since I pretty much ranted so much before.

I can ask something though. Why does everyone like Holly? I mean guys. I don't know too many girls besides her own *insert insult here* friends that actually like her. What is it that turns girls off of her, but makes guys flock to her like moths to a flame? Or male praying mantii to female maniii? Do you get my reference here? She's going to eat you all.

It's already 3:30. I've gone a while without doing anything real productive or eating anything. I think that's my cue to play Star Ocean until the food gets here or my mom nags me about replacing the fish filter. Eww, fish shit.

More Randomness

For once I got a somewhat useful email from one of my "fans." Not to say her other emails aren't... well, normally I hate getting surveys and stuff. But now I collect them. I'm weird. Yay me.

( and the walrus said... )

I need to get Pretear! 'Niichan has all these series that I want to get my hands on, like the rest of FMoS (well, up to 45, anyway) and probably Inuyasha... plus G-on Riders, Pretear... *eeps!* I need to get DSL or something!

Yay, only 6 more minutes until the 2 hour range of possible food delivery! YAHOO!! FOOD! I LOVE IT!

Ten Reasons Why It Sucks To Be Female

1. You have to menstruate. Guys have nothing on us. It fucking sucks. Guys don't have to pay for pads, tampons, Midol, or any of that shit. They don't need special doctors, they don't go through labor (and bullshit, I bet passing kidney stones a) doesn't happen as often, b) doesn't hurt as much, and c) doesn't have such a long-term impact on your life, potentially destroying it if you didn't mean for it to happen in the first place).

2. You're prone to about 70% more diseases, especially the rarer, more painful ones. When was the last time you heard of a man with breast cancer or ovarian cancer? Women, amazingly, are also more prone to getting AIDS.

3. You're always worrying about body image, and how you look, when it really shouldn't matter. How many anorexic guys do you know? Why is it all the guys that are "drool-worthy" are muscular and fit, and guys KNOW they have to work out (not starve themselves) to look that way? Why don't girls realize that about female models, too?

4. You're the target of 65+% of all advertising. SPEND SPEND SPEND! Everyone stereotypes girls as vapid, idiotic drones. Newsflash! We're not, and we've been proving that for the past god-knows how many centuries.

5. There are about 200% more insults made just for you. You bitch, you ho, you "mother" fucker.

6. Everything's always a competition. You can't ever really have "friends." Hence cat-fights, bitch-fights, and all that follows.

7. Inevitably, you will have a "best" guy friend. Even feminists find themselves with a guy friend or relative they come to care about and trust a lot. The problem herein lies when you start falling for them, against your better judgment.

8. That best guy friend will mean so much to you, you'll keep your mouth shut until he tells you that he has a crush on your best girl friend, or vice versa. You will actually LOOK at the pictures of them together, hoping it'll faze you out of your crush, when it won't do anything of the sort.

9. And you will sit and watch them happily, trying to believe yourself when you say that you want nothing but the best for them, you'd protect them if a friggin' nuclear warhead were to descend on their heads, etc. when you'd rather just have him all to yourself. Even if it meant losing your best girl friend, which is a thought too terrible to REALLY comprehend.

10. Guys can sit in a chat room and talk about sex and get horny and DO something about it, while girls can't. At least not with feeling somewhat strange, maneuvering, etc. Being lonely and depressed is not fun for a Monday night. I think I'm going to go to school grumpy tomorrow.

To the people that inadvertantly made me feel this way: Thanks a lot. No, I take it back. *I* make myself feel this way. You people just are the psychological trigger. Congratulations. Half of me hates you.

Concessions to MANkind:
1) You DO go to war... but you also get yourself killed, and leave us alone. Sometimes for exotic women.
2) You DO put most of the money on the table... but usually take it with you to the bar or the strip club.
3) You HAVE let us have some rights... but not half as many as we should have.
4) You ARE there when we need you... but sometimes you're as dense as rock, and don't know when to shut up and just let us hurt, instead of driving the knife in deeper.
5) You ARE generous... but also selfish.

Blah. I know I'm lucky to have the friends I do. I guess I always hate January and February though. I thought I had something to look forward to with this year, but I don't know anymore. It's not enough to talk to people anymore. I'm sick of being jealous. I wish I could just carve that part of me out, and be done with it. Problem is, I don't know where that part is. Maybe it's everywhere, like some kind of infectious disease. Whee, I'm dying...

Gah, I sound like HER. I'm stopping now.

Oh, and I changed my mind. Holly's cool. But I'm still fucking sick of all these other people getting all the attention, while when things truly matter to you, no one notices. Not even your friends. Lovely.