Anything else would have been confusing
Jun. 7th, 2006 11:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
azuriteHm, most people on my FL probably know I have some interest in Tarot, and I've been a practitioner of of what I'm going to call "the predictive arts" for many years now. It's funny that I'm so attuned to my own deck, mainly because it started out as my sister's deck, and for many years after her death, the cards remained in a buffet drawer, forgotten. But when they were passed onto me, I could feel their energy -my sister's energy- and they've been with me ever since. I don't do fortunes that often, and for a long while, I had Hitomi (Escaflowne)-esque reservations against reading for myself. That's changed, as I'm not the Princess of the Apocalypse or anything, so when I'm feeling very lost and confused, I'll do my own reading.
I also believe in the teachings of Feng Shui, and I know for a fact that my room is just full of yucky energy (bad chi) right now, because it's a complete mess. Once my 40 hours of work this week are over, work will be back to 8am-5pm (hours that we're open), and my work will be limited... which is actually a good thing. Then I can sit down and finish all my open projects, or at least the ones that aren't so all-consuming. Then my room can get clean, and hopefully with it, there'll be restoration of inspiration and motivation.
Back to the Tarot though; I don't like doing readings in negative spaces, and it tends to reflect in my readings -they won't make sense or I'll be way off base- if I'm not in a comfortable environment. So instead of doing a physical card reading, I did a virtual one, with my Wise Tarot program. It's a free little program where you can select the decks (and even customize your own, if you have the time) and choose from a variety of spreads, and it's had amazingly accurate results with my personal readings in the past. Tonight was no exception. I figure even if it's a virtual deck, I spend so much time on this computer that my energy is just flowing through and around it, and if this reading is any indication, it's true!
I did the Seven Cards Ellipse spread, an uncommon spread that uses seven cards (duh) arranged in an ellipse-ish shape (duh again). Like most readings, the first few cards deal with the Past, Present, and Future. I don't usually like readings that try to generalize (which is why my favorite spread is the Celtic Cross, with 10 cards by default), but this one involved so many issues, so it was a good thing. This deck uses Disks instead of Pentacles/Stars, and Wands instead of Rods.
Past - Three of Swords: Sorrow, grief, separation. The unachievable. This refers to my upset at the first time Scott broke things off with me, and my fear now that this will happen again, albeit in different circumstances.
Present - Nine of Cups: Happiness, good health, advancement. This is what I want out of my present circumstances. Pretty obvious.
Future - Two of Disks: Change, both harmonious and profitable. Flood of energy. Travel. This likely refers to the big changes ahead of me, some that I'm aware of (Japan) and some that I may not yet be.
Advice/What to do? - Judgment: Improving health, new busyness, realization of a dream. The only Major Arcana card in my spread. It refers to my initial idea that getting outside, exercising, and being active will help me focus on things, be motivated, and stop focusing on negative feelings. Time will go by faster that way, and I'll be happier and looking forward to the "realization of my dream" - going to Japan for an extended stay.
Your surroundings - Two of Wands: Dominion. The ability to give and receive constructive communication. If I surround myself with people that are willing to help me, even if that means saying some things I might otherwise perceive as negative (constructive criticism), then I'll be better off for it. I have to be willing to put myself in that kind of environment, or else be isolated and lonely.
Your expectations - Four of Cups: Luxury, gifts, charity. Probably complicated feelings. While I tell myself every day not to expect things -even if it's something as simple as that it'll be a good day or a bad day- it's extremely hard to do. I suppose I do expect that there will be lots of complicated emotions surrounding everything that I do, and I do expect to get a nice paycheck for all my work this summer (I should get a bonus for putting up with the teasing of Zack and Steve... and now my boss Chris, too! He called me a "support UNIT" today. Geez!) But maybe I should follow the advice of Cardcaptors "Expect the unexpected now!"
Results - Ace of Wands: Creation, new beginnings, invention. Good luck. I'm hoping this is a good sign - if I'm willing to take action and change, put up with constructive criticism and stop being so negative about everything, then things will shape up for me.
Sometimes all it takes is a little "supernatural" push to get me going. It's funny how I was talking to Scott earlier, and he was saying how I had so much to get off my chest, and I didn't even realize it until he commented, and I realized I'd said so much. Even Steve came by and commented on how fast I was typing (admittedly, that's when I was doing my LJ entry earlier, after I stopped speaking to Scott for the morning/early afternoon), so I guess I do have a lot to get out.
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pockyken said makes sense too, and I ruminated on that a bit when I got home (I decided just going to sleep for a while would help me clear my brain, and it did). Humans can do one thing at a time excellently, and everything else at the same time on a mediocre level. So if I focus on one thing at a time, and really throw myself into it, I can enjoy myself. Maybe life is like a fanfiction, and I have to finish one thing that I've started before trying to move on, or else I'll just have confusion, loose ends and blocks everywhere.
Well, I'm hoping I can finish WDKY24, so that'll be it for me. I'll catch up on LJs and emails, and then try my hand at ficcing for the night.
I also believe in the teachings of Feng Shui, and I know for a fact that my room is just full of yucky energy (bad chi) right now, because it's a complete mess. Once my 40 hours of work this week are over, work will be back to 8am-5pm (hours that we're open), and my work will be limited... which is actually a good thing. Then I can sit down and finish all my open projects, or at least the ones that aren't so all-consuming. Then my room can get clean, and hopefully with it, there'll be restoration of inspiration and motivation.
Back to the Tarot though; I don't like doing readings in negative spaces, and it tends to reflect in my readings -they won't make sense or I'll be way off base- if I'm not in a comfortable environment. So instead of doing a physical card reading, I did a virtual one, with my Wise Tarot program. It's a free little program where you can select the decks (and even customize your own, if you have the time) and choose from a variety of spreads, and it's had amazingly accurate results with my personal readings in the past. Tonight was no exception. I figure even if it's a virtual deck, I spend so much time on this computer that my energy is just flowing through and around it, and if this reading is any indication, it's true!
I did the Seven Cards Ellipse spread, an uncommon spread that uses seven cards (duh) arranged in an ellipse-ish shape (duh again). Like most readings, the first few cards deal with the Past, Present, and Future. I don't usually like readings that try to generalize (which is why my favorite spread is the Celtic Cross, with 10 cards by default), but this one involved so many issues, so it was a good thing. This deck uses Disks instead of Pentacles/Stars, and Wands instead of Rods.
Past - Three of Swords: Sorrow, grief, separation. The unachievable. This refers to my upset at the first time Scott broke things off with me, and my fear now that this will happen again, albeit in different circumstances.
Present - Nine of Cups: Happiness, good health, advancement. This is what I want out of my present circumstances. Pretty obvious.
Future - Two of Disks: Change, both harmonious and profitable. Flood of energy. Travel. This likely refers to the big changes ahead of me, some that I'm aware of (Japan) and some that I may not yet be.
Advice/What to do? - Judgment: Improving health, new busyness, realization of a dream. The only Major Arcana card in my spread. It refers to my initial idea that getting outside, exercising, and being active will help me focus on things, be motivated, and stop focusing on negative feelings. Time will go by faster that way, and I'll be happier and looking forward to the "realization of my dream" - going to Japan for an extended stay.
Your surroundings - Two of Wands: Dominion. The ability to give and receive constructive communication. If I surround myself with people that are willing to help me, even if that means saying some things I might otherwise perceive as negative (constructive criticism), then I'll be better off for it. I have to be willing to put myself in that kind of environment, or else be isolated and lonely.
Your expectations - Four of Cups: Luxury, gifts, charity. Probably complicated feelings. While I tell myself every day not to expect things -even if it's something as simple as that it'll be a good day or a bad day- it's extremely hard to do. I suppose I do expect that there will be lots of complicated emotions surrounding everything that I do, and I do expect to get a nice paycheck for all my work this summer (I should get a bonus for putting up with the teasing of Zack and Steve... and now my boss Chris, too! He called me a "support UNIT" today. Geez!) But maybe I should follow the advice of Cardcaptors "Expect the unexpected now!"
Results - Ace of Wands: Creation, new beginnings, invention. Good luck. I'm hoping this is a good sign - if I'm willing to take action and change, put up with constructive criticism and stop being so negative about everything, then things will shape up for me.
Sometimes all it takes is a little "supernatural" push to get me going. It's funny how I was talking to Scott earlier, and he was saying how I had so much to get off my chest, and I didn't even realize it until he commented, and I realized I'd said so much. Even Steve came by and commented on how fast I was typing (admittedly, that's when I was doing my LJ entry earlier, after I stopped speaking to Scott for the morning/early afternoon), so I guess I do have a lot to get out.
And what
pockyken said makes sense too, and I ruminated on that a bit when I got home (I decided just going to sleep for a while would help me clear my brain, and it did). Humans can do one thing at a time excellently, and everything else at the same time on a mediocre level. So if I focus on one thing at a time, and really throw myself into it, I can enjoy myself. Maybe life is like a fanfiction, and I have to finish one thing that I've started before trying to move on, or else I'll just have confusion, loose ends and blocks everywhere.Well, I'm hoping I can finish WDKY24, so that'll be it for me. I'll catch up on LJs and emails, and then try my hand at ficcing for the night.
