Some days it's just not worth chewing through the restraints

[azurite]

Well, today was better than yesterday, purely because:
a) I didn't embarrass myself in Japanese class and lose credit (when I shouldn't have)
b) I got to see Scott (even though he was rather difficult to get along with, let alone TALK to)
c) I woke up determined to make this day better, and I think that actually made the difference.

The downside is that I'm still very much worried about the laptop that I blew so much money on, and my current sorry state of funds. I also find myself getting bored by everything I do, lacking inspiration or motivation to do the things I want and NEED to do, and generally becoming very cynical about everything around me. I want a challenge, I want freshness. That doesn't mean I want to change my religion, rearrange my room, or start eating an all-sushi diet. But I *AM* trying to be more fit (I signed up for the gym at last and had my first workout session of this week; I would have done another today, but I thought it would be yucky to get all sweaty and then go to class), eat better (note: foods I once enjoyed make me sick now-- that's how healthy my body is!), and do things that will improve my life, even if I don't see some immediate benefit to me.

With the laptop, I'm still waiting on the Drivers and Utilities CD. It's not that I think I'm lacking much in terms of drivers; all the necessary devices work just fine. But I do want to have all the original Dell programs that were likely included in the cost of my laptop (Norton and WordPerfect excluded), and the Owner's Manual. I also wonder if maybe some obscure driver NOT listed in the Device Manager has something to do with why the computer is so sporadically slow to shut down, open up some programs, or download email. Worse, when I try to use Firefox on my laptop now, I get the browser with the title bar of the webpages, but no tabs, no screen-- just white! It's freaking me out, and I don't know what to do.

I'm also waiting on my new Kingston 1 GB memory chip (which I paid a lot for, so it better damn well make a difference), my PS2 (I pray that it got to Dave okay; he hasn't emailed me back yet), and a bank statement, because WaMu online is being a bitch.

I want to have more time to myself, to actually SLEEP, perhaps get some more writing/work (icons!) done, webpage design, and the inevitable CLEANING OF ROOM. The right side of my room is all paperwork; the leftside is all clothes that need to be put away or hung up. ;_;

When I finally DO finish my icon sets for iconfiend100 and 7sinvirtueicons I want to pimp them over at the usual places: goodygoicons and the like. The same applies to my fics; when I release a new chapter of WDKY, I have to remember to post announcements at setoanzulove and pro_anzu_fans along with ygowritersguild (any others?). Same goes for the completed 30kisses set! X_X I really think I need to make lots of colorful to-do and checklists that are laminated or something.

I really want to be enthusiastic about October and November:

* October 1st is the all-day Clubs & Organizations Recognition Conference. Workshops and free food = fun!
* October 1st-5th, Baba and Grandpa are away in Seattle. PARTAY!
* October 3rd is the Student Development and International Programs (SD&IP) workshop for potential Study Abroad students. I plan on commanding and conquering the competition!
* October 3rd or the 13th I can apply at Red Robin. Hopefully that will lead to a new, more challenging job where I can make friends, get good pay, and learn more.
* October 30th is Daylight Savings Time-- one more hour of sleep!
* October 31st is Halloween/Samhain, my favorite holiday EVAR! If only I could come up with something cool to do/dress up as...
* November 1st-2nd, there are two Leadership Institute workshops I'd like to attend.
* November 20th is Mai's birthday, and I'd like to have several of the late 20s WDKY chapters out by then, when Mai has some pretty big, kick-ass roles.
* November 21st is Scott's 26th birthday, and even if we're not together, he is still technically the best friend I have down here, and someone very dear to me, so I want to think of something special to do/give.

There's cool stuff coming up this month, too. September 25th is both a speech about the miracles of twins (too bad it's at CalTech; I have to find a speech to attend for Story #2 for my WRP2 class), plus a scrapbooking workshop at this lady's house in Granada Hills. September 26th, Eva comes back to SoCal. September 29th, UCLA starts and Alias premieres.

The big kicker, as I kind of mentioned before, is my lack of funds. Food, clothing, treats (manga), and all the computer stuff I bought has added up, and now I don't have the $400 to take a Driver's Ed course, which I really wanted to do before December. So I sent Mom an email (early Xmas present?) and asked her to call me back, but I haven't heard from her yet. I can't ask her over the phone... ;_; If I get the money (regardless of who) I will take and pass that damn course. I want my driver's license, dammit, even if I don't have a car.


Okay, so I haven't written all 30kisses yet, but I have put all the ones I *HAVE* posted in my Memories. Some that are in 30kisses/my memories are NOT yet on FFnet, and there are some oneshots that are NOT 30kisses that I've posted either on my personal LJ/in my memories or on FFnet.

The 30kisses will have a special section on my site (along with other challengefics) when I update DR. The following are the kiss-themes, and if I've written something for them, the title of the fic(let) and the post date. You should be able to find them all under that date in either my memories (Azurite's Fanfiction) or the 30kisses memories, under Yu-Gi-Oh. If I have NOT written something for them, but I have an idea, I'll put it in parentheses and asterisk (*) it.

I'm also contemplating a new rule for 30kisses-- requiring people to put their pairing in the subject line. Good idea or bad idea?

Anyway, onward and... downward.
#1 - look over here (Disunity*)
#2 - news, letter : Letters - 5/4/05
#3 - jolt!
#4 - our distance and that person : Lover Alone - 7/11/05
#5 - "ano sa..."
#6 - the space between dreams and reality (Stairway to Heaven*)
#7 - superstar (for AudibleHush, a spinoff of a potential scene from one of her SxA fics*)
#8 - our own world
#9 - dash
#10 - #10 : Something Completely Different - 6/11/05
#11 - gardenia (Girls' Club*)
#12 - in a good mood : In A Good Mood - 6/11/05
#13 - excessive chain
#14 - radio-cassette player : Cowboy - 9/14/05
#15 - perfect blue
#16 - invinciable, unrivaled : A Tough of Victory - 5/9/05
#17 - kilohertz
#18 - "a~n"
#19 - red
#20 - the road home : I Walk Alone - 6/8/05
#21 - violence; pillage/plunder; extortion
#22 - cradle (BEWJ*)
#23 - candy (Halloween/O-Bon fic?*)
#24 - good night : Good Night and then Goodbye - 8/3/05
#25 - fence
#26 - if only I could make you mine : The Darkness Within - 6/29/05
#27 - overflow
#28 - Wada Calcium CD3
#29 - the sound of waves : Neko no Guukan - 9/20/05
#30 - kiss

Completed: 10 fics
Coming Soon: 5 fics
Eventually: 15 fics
Total: 30

Note that some of these doubled as entries for other things. Bad Mer, but who cares? :P

I have to do my ygo_lyricwheel entry soon, plus there's (as I said before) all those icons... and hey, rhapsody_dragon, we need to brainstorm more themes for ygo_offtopicon ne? I have a good idea... ^_^;

Comments

[guardian-kysra.livejournal.com]

My god. You can take driver's ed via internet O.o; I dunno. I think I'd be scared and I've been driving for ten years! And $400 x.x!!!!!!!!! That's like highway robbery! I only paid $150 (but the DE classes I took were part of a summer program put on by the school system). As for driving itself, it's very freeing (at least, it is for me) - ya know, cuz you can take off whenever you want, granted someone lets you use their car XD So, I wish you luck!

^^;;

[azurite]

Well I took Driver's Ed back in high school and got the pink slip, but since I'm over 18 now, there's no point. Still, I want to pass my written exam, so I want to take the combined online and behind-the-wheel course for $399. The behind-the-wheel 6 hour course by itself is $370, while the online course is $79, so I'm technically saving money if I do them together.

As for why it's so expensive, I couldn't tell you-- maybe to maintain the hybrid vehicles with accessories (head & side airbags, GPS system, iPod plug-ins, in-car DVR cameras). But all the other places I looked at had similar prices, for more of a traditional (yucky) environment.

But thanks for the well wishes... once again (?), it looks like my mom is going to come through when I need her the most, but not without complaining that my dad should help out... ^^;

[svelterose.livejournal.com]

Well with the theme number, theme title, title of fic, and the author's name, I think putting the pairing would just make it unnecessarily long.

[azurite]

That's what I thought, but when you go into the Memories, it doesn't help. We can't further subdivide the pairings either, but we CAN make use of the tags.

[svelterose.livejournal.com]

I always forget about that extra function. ^_^

In any case, it's a (possible) future project of mine to just create an easily accessible archive for these 30kisses fics.

[schmollieollie.livejournal.com]

LOL that's funny they have drivers ed on the net. I'm currently studying for the pink slip too.

I think you're just going thru a slight slump and that October will be a fab month for you ! I hope Red Robin hires you!

I hope you come up during thanksgiving or winter break so we can all kick it. I really will have to get down there soon!!!

[azurite]

I don't go up to SF during Thanksgiving, primarily because we at the Sweet household double that weekend with Chanukkah, so it's a ginormously big, fun, family deal.

Plus it's only one weekend and mom's Tofurkey... *eyes tofurkey warily*

Xmas, well, yeah, probably-- esp. since I'm sure as hell not going to Japan!

[schmollieollie.livejournal.com]

eww tofurkey...well i dont like turkey in general so yeah...bring on the stuffing!

XMAS will be over the top, off the hook, barrells of fun ! But I will see and talk to you before then, hopefully!