Paranoid disruptive nervousa
Sep. 12th, 2005 11:24 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
azuriteScott didn't come to Japanese today. That's not like him. He usually shows up to campus a half hour or more EARLY so he can get advance reading and stuff done. And even if he was just late, parking or whatever, he would have come in anyway. But he didn't. A whole hour went by and I didn't see him. I text messaged him ten minutes into class; no reply. I called him after class; I got bumped directly into his voice mail, and I STILL haven't heard from him.
I'm really worried, even though part of me knows I shouldn't be. I mean, Scott works late weekends, and he's entitled to miss a day of school if he wants. He's also entitled to do what he wants, talk to who he wants, and get the grades he wants for the work he does (or doesn't) do. I'm not trying to be the boss of him or anything, but I am concerned. Really concerned, actually, just because it's so OOC for Scott to not contact me if something's up. Maybe he's sick? Or hurt? I have no way of getting ahold of someone (like his roommate, Marlene) if something happens to him. I don't even know his exact address, I just know how to get there once I'm in a car, and even then, I don't know how to access the apartment complex when you don't have a key to open the gate. I don't even know if there's a front door!
I really, really hope I'm over-reacting. It's bad enough that Ben died this summer, that my Mom got suddenly and violently ill from some sort of virus and I was worrying about her, and that my grandparents, being GRANDPARENTS always cause me to worry. Internally, I'm as frazzled as Mrs. Frizzle, and I don't know how much more stress I can take. On the outside, I'm fine: class is okay, work... blah, it's work, what are you gonna do?
But I feel all paranoid and jittery coming up with possibilities, even though a sane (?) part of me says that "if yout imagine it, it won't happen!" and, well, I can imagine a lot of bad things...
On a somewhat happier front, I've gotten a few reviews for WDKY18, which has been posted over at FFnet and MMorg. (I also added Chapter 17 to MMorg. Apparently I forgot to add it there. Bad Mer!) Reviews always make me feel good, though one person said "More depressing crap?" in reference to the author's note I had at the end of 18, saying we were AT LAST halfway through the fic. I don't think they really meant it as negatively as it came across to me... but still! I don't try to write depressing stuff, it's just that I try to get WDKY to mimic some of the hardships of REAL LIFE that the Yu-Gi-Oh gang might face when NOT dueling or saving the world. And real life isn't all magical-pretty-sparkle-flowers, it's angst, it's drama, it's action. WDKY has it all, and, as I said, more is on the way.
If you couldn't tell by all the teasers I've been dropping, you can expect:
* Familiar baddies to show their faces/rear their heads
* More interpersonal drama and wangst, between everyone and every pairing (be they implied pairings, friendship pairings, or I-wish-I-could-get-with-hir pairings)
* A BIG GIANT FINALE... that isn't really a finale at all, which is why WDKY will have a sequel. ^_~
Well okay, I'm still rather twitchy, and I have about a half hour before I have to be in my Mythology class. I think I'll see if Scott is in the library somewhere with his cell phone turned off; if that's not the case, I'll call him again on my way to the bookstore to pick up my Office 2003 student edition (which I won't load because my laptop is being stupid!), and then I'll go to class after grabbing a bite to eat (because I work 6 hours at Jamba Juice today. Eugh!).
*sigh*
Calm, calm, be calm...
I'm really worried, even though part of me knows I shouldn't be. I mean, Scott works late weekends, and he's entitled to miss a day of school if he wants. He's also entitled to do what he wants, talk to who he wants, and get the grades he wants for the work he does (or doesn't) do. I'm not trying to be the boss of him or anything, but I am concerned. Really concerned, actually, just because it's so OOC for Scott to not contact me if something's up. Maybe he's sick? Or hurt? I have no way of getting ahold of someone (like his roommate, Marlene) if something happens to him. I don't even know his exact address, I just know how to get there once I'm in a car, and even then, I don't know how to access the apartment complex when you don't have a key to open the gate. I don't even know if there's a front door!
I really, really hope I'm over-reacting. It's bad enough that Ben died this summer, that my Mom got suddenly and violently ill from some sort of virus and I was worrying about her, and that my grandparents, being GRANDPARENTS always cause me to worry. Internally, I'm as frazzled as Mrs. Frizzle, and I don't know how much more stress I can take. On the outside, I'm fine: class is okay, work... blah, it's work, what are you gonna do?
But I feel all paranoid and jittery coming up with possibilities, even though a sane (?) part of me says that "if yout imagine it, it won't happen!" and, well, I can imagine a lot of bad things...
On a somewhat happier front, I've gotten a few reviews for WDKY18, which has been posted over at FFnet and MMorg. (I also added Chapter 17 to MMorg. Apparently I forgot to add it there. Bad Mer!) Reviews always make me feel good, though one person said "More depressing crap?" in reference to the author's note I had at the end of 18, saying we were AT LAST halfway through the fic. I don't think they really meant it as negatively as it came across to me... but still! I don't try to write depressing stuff, it's just that I try to get WDKY to mimic some of the hardships of REAL LIFE that the Yu-Gi-Oh gang might face when NOT dueling or saving the world. And real life isn't all magical-pretty-sparkle-flowers, it's angst, it's drama, it's action. WDKY has it all, and, as I said, more is on the way.
If you couldn't tell by all the teasers I've been dropping, you can expect:
* Familiar baddies to show their faces/rear their heads
* More interpersonal drama and wangst, between everyone and every pairing (be they implied pairings, friendship pairings, or I-wish-I-could-get-with-hir pairings)
* A BIG GIANT FINALE... that isn't really a finale at all, which is why WDKY will have a sequel. ^_~
Well okay, I'm still rather twitchy, and I have about a half hour before I have to be in my Mythology class. I think I'll see if Scott is in the library somewhere with his cell phone turned off; if that's not the case, I'll call him again on my way to the bookstore to pick up my Office 2003 student edition (which I won't load because my laptop is being stupid!), and then I'll go to class after grabbing a bite to eat (because I work 6 hours at Jamba Juice today. Eugh!).
*sigh*
Calm, calm, be calm...
