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You know, I can't honestly say I know too many people that screamingly identify themselves as emo or punk or goth. I just know people. All of them are different in their own weird ways, but whatever, I like them anyhow.

There's this guy at work, J, who is younger than me, but has always been extremely nice and understanding, very polite and sweet-- matter of fact, I think he liked me, and I respected how he didn't get worked up whenever I was mad/upset over C, the guy I kinda-sorta-not-really had a crush on (and J knew it). Well J is normally nice and everything to me, but two days ago he and C were complete asses, and I stormed out of Jamba without saying anything to them. And today, though J and I didn't work much together (I was on dish most of the time, but later I got a reg), toward the end, he would literally TWITCH and SHUDDER when he saw me. I don't know why he did it, and I asked him as much-- but he never answered. And then when he was clocking out, I was on my reg trying to help speed the line on, he got somewhat pissed that I didn't want to let him clock out. I told him flat out that he'd been such a jerk to me that day, and I didn't know what I did to deserve such treatment. He gave me a flat, disbelieving look, and said "Ugh, I can't believe  you" and stormed out without another word to me.

Me, at least, I let people know what upsets the hell out of me before I storm out of anywhere. But I didn't know what I did or what upset him, and now I'm left still kind of angry, and still upset. Mostly because when people shudder at the sight of me, it's a painful reminder of a rather lonely elementary-school life, when I didn't have too many close friends that understood me, and of people that liked to make fun of me all the time. To have someone that was so nice to me --someone I thought was a friend-- do that for no reason makes me very sad. I explained this to one of my co-workers, who explained that J is an "emo kid" and acts on his emotions, never thinking things through, and he can swing easily from nice and happy to angry and grumpy. It sounds more like bi-polar disorder, but that's a legit medical syndrome, while this whole "emo" this is more like a phase or a conscious choice, right?

Meh.

So I've gotten even MORE inspired for Circle of Seven-- you know, WDKY's sequel. That's kind of a bad thing, since I still have half of WDKY to write, even if all the chapter titles are planned out, and only 2 of the remaining er, 17 are "filler"ish.

My problems:
(1) How long should CO7 be? I was leaning toward 36, to make it the same length as WDKY, but despite my very-lengthy planner, I don't know if I really have enough content for that many chapters. Then again, I didn't think WDKY would be more than 10 chapters... look where we are now! It's a matter of coming up with the right places to cut off, and a certain number of plot points and subplots to take into at once. If not 36 chapters, then 27 might suffice (yes, a 9 chapter difference...)

(2) I'm confused. I'm trying to sort out the content by chapters, and I KNOW there is a reason why I made Chapter X have this title. So if I place Chapter Y after Chapter X, at what point does Chapter's X content have to stop (cliffhanger) and become Chapter Y? If I make Chapter X two chapters AHEAD of Y, will that screw things up too badly?

I may have kinda-sorta fixed this problem with some chapter rearranging. Here's the tentative list for CO7, with some top-secret chapter titles removed for your own sanity.

Chapter 1: Family Ties
Chapter 2: Revelations
Chapter 3: Where Loyalties Lie
Chapter 4: The Calm Before The Storm
Chapter 5: [Removed for your own sanity]
Chapter 6: Jitters
Chapter 7: [Removed for your own sanity]
Chapter 8: Far and Away/As Sweet as Honey
Chapter 9: [Removed for your own sanity]
Chapter 10: Divided We Fall
Chapter 11: [Removed for your own sanity]
Chapter 12:
Chapter 13: Heart Barriers
Chapter 14: Lady of the Tongues
Chapter 15: X
Chapter 16: Y
Chapter 17: The Stone of Memory
Chapter 18: A Return (?)
Chapter 19: Stay
Chapter 20: The Collector
Chapter 21: Home is Where the Heart Is
Chapter 22: [Removed for your own sanity]
Chapter 23: [Removed for your own sanity]
Chapter 24: [Removed for your own sanity]
Chapter 25: Traces
Chapter 26: A Question of Honor
Chapter 27: The Betrayal
Chapter 28:
Chapter 29:
Chapter 30:
Chapter 31:
Chapter 32: Patchwork Soul
Chapter 33:
Chapter 34:
Chapter 35: The Beginning
Chapter 36: Days Go By (Epilogue)

The blank chapters are ones I don't have ideas for... yet. X and Y are chapters I have ideas for, but I don't have chapter titles for them. I could just plan to cut them out entirely-- that would make 29 chapters. But it's possible that with the ideas I have, I can stretch it into 36 if I divide it up right. And hey, you never know if a new idea or a WDKY subplot I've forgotten will come back to bite me in the butt. So... *shrug*

It has also occurred to me that I know some people that are just downright weird. I mean, weird. Like, they are the epitome of fandom mutants. Not bad or anything, just freaking... GAH! They do and think some things that have me wondering what goes on in their head, truly. But hey, the weird can never understand the normal, and the normal never realize they're weird. I wonder which camp I hail from?

Anyway, I don't work till 6 tomorrow (er today) and I managed to get next Sunday off for Baba and Grandpa's big 60th anniversary shebang (to which EVERYONE who is ANYONE will be coming) so... it's all good, I'll have thinking time. And hey, the CSUN Jamba guy called me back and said we'll be having a meeting within the next two weeks... and then, come the 22nd or so, I'll be an official transfer (if all goes well, and why shouldn't it?). I'm so sick of the super busy Northridge/mall location, and the attitudes of all the high schoolers and college dropouts that work there. -_-; I can get along with maybe *5* people-- on a good day, if I'm lucky.

I need to read some good fics. *sniff*

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