Ever had one of those Ranma moments?
May. 18th, 2005 10:31 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
azuriteMaybe I should revise my subject line. Maybe it should be an "Akane" moment, where you just want to go "bakabakabakabakabakabakabaka" over and over again, repeatedly bashing some object (or person) against a hard surface until it gives.
I felt like that this morning... after my shower, I poked my head into Scott's room-- he was working on a short essay on "What makes a good teacher" for this job in the photo lab that he wants. From the start of our relationship, I wanted to be more helpful to him-- help with his English and grammar and all, and he's been letting me. But to my surprise, when I was helping him today, he reeled back and said I was *yelling* at him.
Mind you, I don't even have a voice to yell with-- seriously, my sore throat has been so bad, I don't even think I sound like myself. I'm not going to strain it by talking loudly, much less yelling. So I was pretty hurt and shocked; but I was well aware of plenty of incidences where *he* thought he wasn't doing or saying anything hurtful, when in fact, he was. I just had to tell him flat out because, well, sometimes people NEED to be told. They can't see what they're not looking for, right?
I didn't realize something so simple was stressing him out so much. I was trying to be gentle in how I explained everything-- "think of teachers you liked and the qualities that made them good," or "think of teachers you didn't like, and what traits they could have had to make them better." He came up with four good subjects, but I wanted him to flesh out his answers a bit more-- I said the first trait, knowledge (a teacher should be knowledgable in the area they are teaching), prompts the question "Why?" Why should a teacher know about the subject they're teaching?
For some, this is an obvious answer (especially me; many of my substitutes for high school chemistry knew less about science than they did about voodoo, while the longest-running Journalism teacher was actually an English teacher who didn't give a rat's ass about the paper), but I guess for Scott, it took much more time to think about. I tried to give him a reassuring hug, and that failed, too-- the zipper on my jacket nearly pierced his arm. -_-
...I skedaddled out of there before I could get more upset, or before I could screw things up further. I wasn't that far from grabbing a pillow and screaming (or trying, anyway) into it. I felt like such a complete fuck-up for something so innane and silly. Worse, those dreams I still demi-harbor, about one day teaching the things I love (Journalism, English, writing, any and/or all of them)-- suddenly I got the impression that I'd be a really LOUSY teacher.
*sigh* I didn't want to make Scott take me to school on top of that, so I asked Grandpa, and right as I was getting ready to leave, Scott came downstairs. I apologized (and I kind of wanted one, myself) and he said it was okay... but I knew he'd already started his whole thing over again. It felt like my fault too, like I wasn't helping, just stressing him out more. -_- I think I do that a lot.
Well, I guess it's never good to dwell on things like that. So let me start raving! I'm so glad I scored a super-cheap subscription to TIME magazine; the newest feature article is about the new XBox 360 coming out this fall, and like "The Legend of Zorro," it looks like it'll give me a lot to look forward to. Me, Sony's l'il bitch, might convert back to Micro$oft... well, if the price for the new console is within reason.
Gone is the traditional "big black box of doom" look for the XBox. I seem to recall one of the guys from AnimeFX describing the XBox as useless for gaming-- but great as a lethal weapon, if you were into clonking people on the head in the dark.
So much for that idea. The new Xbox isn't even black-- hell, it's not even really a box, if you think about it! It's got a sleek, modern design, in a color known as "chill." If the name doesn't give it away, it's like an off-white color accented with a dusky silver. Oh, and it stands up, so it's only about 3 inches wide, maybe 10-12 inches tall, and about 6 inches deep. (One of the reasons why the XBox flopped in Japan is because they're such space-savers there; the new XBox was so sleek and adaptable to small spaces that the Japanese test market thought it had to be from Sony or Apple!)
But if you're one of those l33t gamers who likes to customize your console, fear not! The faceplate is replaceable, too. That's handy news, considering they've subjected the console to baking, freezing, tilting, shocking, and god knows what else. If your faceplate simply happens to pop off, get yourself a new colorful one!
Aside from the obvious --it'll play games-- it's also made to link up to everything and anything you have. Call it the superstation. It's definitely a "computer in a tiny box" now-- it'll have all the juicy features of watching DVD movies (wide screen games, 5.1 channel surround sound), plus super-detailed and realistic. So if you're stuck watching someone play Tiger Woods' PGA Golf 2006, you can at least count the blades of grass. Yes, BLADES OF GRASS. @_o
If your home PC is running Windows XP, you can also hook *it* up to the XBox so you can view pictures! The idea behind the whole XBox 360 is more than just "convergence" or using one mass tool to hook up everything digital in your life. It's adaptability to the smaller, sleeker, more modern designs the public seems to be itching for. That means... wireless! So you can hook your PC up to your 360 without any... hooks! That's always nice. (The controllers are wireless, too.) You can also nab pictures from your digital camera or cell phone.
Then there's the default things everyone expects of a new console-- it can play DVD movies and music, but the neat thing about the 360 is that it's also slated to be able to rip music from your *shock!* iPod or your CDs, and then save them to the XBox's hard drive.
And then there's the thing that neither Nintendo or Sony have quite grasped yet-- XBox Live. But it's going to have a fabulous upgrade-- aside from chatting live across the 'Net (yay for free long distance!) you can also instant message, send music and photos, video conference, and get exclusive content for games, such as trailers or additional, custom, gamer-created levels. The beauty of it is, you don't actually have to be playing a game to do this.
Grrl!gamers also into watching Desperate Housewives can be chatting with their girlfriends across town, wailing over the infidelities of the newest hottie on the show. Or something. ^^;
Though the new console is slated to hit shelves this fall (in time for Christmas-- the second you see stores put up "reserve" signs, I suggest you grab it), when Sony finally debuts its PS3, with its "cell" processor (which may or may not be as hot as we're all hearing; I remember someone mentioning something about fiberoptic internal cabling, which means WHIIIZZZBANGfast!) it'll be walking into cannon fire-- literally. Bill Gates gleefully announced that by the time Sony releases its new system, Halo 3 will be ready to go (I'm sure gamers will be disappointed they can't nab a XBox 360 with a Halo 3 package; but maybe by the time Halo 3 comes out, they'll have faceplate parts made so your XBox can look like your armor).
The beauty of the XBox 360 is likely going to be the increased detail of the games-- screenshots of a Zelda-like game known as "Kameo" are nothing less than visually stunning-- they remind me of backdrop planners for Final Fantasy X-2 (specifically, Bevelle's Highbridge. So much color and detail!). Plus there's the usual foray of games to draw XBox and other platform-gamers in-- your usual First-person shooters and action games, but also some new interesting draws like "The Godfather"-- the detail is so photorealistic, it's hard to tell it apart from the movie.
But Microsoft is all about "risky territory," or, as Captain Kirk once said, "to boldly go where no man has gone before." Maybe we should use the politically correct "no ONE" though-- after all, Gates is trying to draw in girl gamers, women gamers, super-kiddy gamers-- everyone and anyone, not just college guys, geeks/nerds, or military vets. That means we can expect to see a wider variety of games. They might not all be appealing, but there's a bigger chance they'll draw a larger audience-- which means more money, which is, of course, what Gates wants.
The XBox still lags by a considerable percentage behind the North American market share that Sony's got. The XBox 360 just might start turning profits if it does as well as Gates hopes-- and if the Sony doesn't live up to everyone's expectations. It's one thing to amp up processor speed, but what about the graphics, the game offers, the backwards compatability... and so on?
What is it YOU look for in a console, anyway? What will swing you to one platform or another, and if you have more than one, why?
...I'd like to note that I would *LOVE* to be the journalist writing for TIME or a gaming magazine-- the one that goes to E3 and gets to see all the advance stuff, talk to all the cool people, ask questions... I'd go hog-wild. The question is, how do I do that? I think I'm "pulling a Kaiba" again and biting off more than I can chew... I mean, I want to teach Journalism/English (the latter, pref. in Japan), I want to write international stories (so I can travel), and I want to get access to exclusive content so I can write what the world wants to hear (be it the world of gamers or the world of the fashion conscious). I'm a bit muddled on where to start, though!
Maybe with getting an Xbox. ^_~
Coming soon:
-more WDKY review replies (I can't wait to give 16 some more time; I've already gotten a great review from DSF that I'm hyper-eager to respond to!)
-first official posts on all my new comms.
-more 30kisses stuff for my pairing...
Today:
-I got the job at Suncoast, and I've got "orientation" tonight from 3-8pm!
-Tonight, get in line for Star Wars and wait for the blast (read: inspiration to finally start writing fics for a live-action fandom)
-Study for sociology final (while in line for Star Wars, of course)
-Figure out how the hell to access binary Usenet groups, since SBC Yahoo is being stupid and not letting me
-FIND A DAMN COPY OF 'TANGO DE REVE' and practice for my ballet final-- Friday. Also bring a cassette to copy the song from the teacher, just in case
-I've jot loads of Jamba hours this weekend-- sure to be a learning experience
-WDKY17!!! (I'm writing, I'm writing! I just wish Dartz and Bakura would leave me ALONE already!!)
-more icons. There's always time for more icons.
I felt like that this morning... after my shower, I poked my head into Scott's room-- he was working on a short essay on "What makes a good teacher" for this job in the photo lab that he wants. From the start of our relationship, I wanted to be more helpful to him-- help with his English and grammar and all, and he's been letting me. But to my surprise, when I was helping him today, he reeled back and said I was *yelling* at him.
Mind you, I don't even have a voice to yell with-- seriously, my sore throat has been so bad, I don't even think I sound like myself. I'm not going to strain it by talking loudly, much less yelling. So I was pretty hurt and shocked; but I was well aware of plenty of incidences where *he* thought he wasn't doing or saying anything hurtful, when in fact, he was. I just had to tell him flat out because, well, sometimes people NEED to be told. They can't see what they're not looking for, right?
I didn't realize something so simple was stressing him out so much. I was trying to be gentle in how I explained everything-- "think of teachers you liked and the qualities that made them good," or "think of teachers you didn't like, and what traits they could have had to make them better." He came up with four good subjects, but I wanted him to flesh out his answers a bit more-- I said the first trait, knowledge (a teacher should be knowledgable in the area they are teaching), prompts the question "Why?" Why should a teacher know about the subject they're teaching?
For some, this is an obvious answer (especially me; many of my substitutes for high school chemistry knew less about science than they did about voodoo, while the longest-running Journalism teacher was actually an English teacher who didn't give a rat's ass about the paper), but I guess for Scott, it took much more time to think about. I tried to give him a reassuring hug, and that failed, too-- the zipper on my jacket nearly pierced his arm. -_-
...I skedaddled out of there before I could get more upset, or before I could screw things up further. I wasn't that far from grabbing a pillow and screaming (or trying, anyway) into it. I felt like such a complete fuck-up for something so innane and silly. Worse, those dreams I still demi-harbor, about one day teaching the things I love (Journalism, English, writing, any and/or all of them)-- suddenly I got the impression that I'd be a really LOUSY teacher.
*sigh* I didn't want to make Scott take me to school on top of that, so I asked Grandpa, and right as I was getting ready to leave, Scott came downstairs. I apologized (and I kind of wanted one, myself) and he said it was okay... but I knew he'd already started his whole thing over again. It felt like my fault too, like I wasn't helping, just stressing him out more. -_- I think I do that a lot.
Well, I guess it's never good to dwell on things like that. So let me start raving! I'm so glad I scored a super-cheap subscription to TIME magazine; the newest feature article is about the new XBox 360 coming out this fall, and like "The Legend of Zorro," it looks like it'll give me a lot to look forward to. Me, Sony's l'il bitch, might convert back to Micro$oft... well, if the price for the new console is within reason.
Gone is the traditional "big black box of doom" look for the XBox. I seem to recall one of the guys from AnimeFX describing the XBox as useless for gaming-- but great as a lethal weapon, if you were into clonking people on the head in the dark.
So much for that idea. The new Xbox isn't even black-- hell, it's not even really a box, if you think about it! It's got a sleek, modern design, in a color known as "chill." If the name doesn't give it away, it's like an off-white color accented with a dusky silver. Oh, and it stands up, so it's only about 3 inches wide, maybe 10-12 inches tall, and about 6 inches deep. (One of the reasons why the XBox flopped in Japan is because they're such space-savers there; the new XBox was so sleek and adaptable to small spaces that the Japanese test market thought it had to be from Sony or Apple!)
But if you're one of those l33t gamers who likes to customize your console, fear not! The faceplate is replaceable, too. That's handy news, considering they've subjected the console to baking, freezing, tilting, shocking, and god knows what else. If your faceplate simply happens to pop off, get yourself a new colorful one!
Aside from the obvious --it'll play games-- it's also made to link up to everything and anything you have. Call it the superstation. It's definitely a "computer in a tiny box" now-- it'll have all the juicy features of watching DVD movies (wide screen games, 5.1 channel surround sound), plus super-detailed and realistic. So if you're stuck watching someone play Tiger Woods' PGA Golf 2006, you can at least count the blades of grass. Yes, BLADES OF GRASS. @_o
If your home PC is running Windows XP, you can also hook *it* up to the XBox so you can view pictures! The idea behind the whole XBox 360 is more than just "convergence" or using one mass tool to hook up everything digital in your life. It's adaptability to the smaller, sleeker, more modern designs the public seems to be itching for. That means... wireless! So you can hook your PC up to your 360 without any... hooks! That's always nice. (The controllers are wireless, too.) You can also nab pictures from your digital camera or cell phone.
Then there's the default things everyone expects of a new console-- it can play DVD movies and music, but the neat thing about the 360 is that it's also slated to be able to rip music from your *shock!* iPod or your CDs, and then save them to the XBox's hard drive.
And then there's the thing that neither Nintendo or Sony have quite grasped yet-- XBox Live. But it's going to have a fabulous upgrade-- aside from chatting live across the 'Net (yay for free long distance!) you can also instant message, send music and photos, video conference, and get exclusive content for games, such as trailers or additional, custom, gamer-created levels. The beauty of it is, you don't actually have to be playing a game to do this.
Grrl!gamers also into watching Desperate Housewives can be chatting with their girlfriends across town, wailing over the infidelities of the newest hottie on the show. Or something. ^^;
Though the new console is slated to hit shelves this fall (in time for Christmas-- the second you see stores put up "reserve" signs, I suggest you grab it), when Sony finally debuts its PS3, with its "cell" processor (which may or may not be as hot as we're all hearing; I remember someone mentioning something about fiberoptic internal cabling, which means WHIIIZZZBANGfast!) it'll be walking into cannon fire-- literally. Bill Gates gleefully announced that by the time Sony releases its new system, Halo 3 will be ready to go (I'm sure gamers will be disappointed they can't nab a XBox 360 with a Halo 3 package; but maybe by the time Halo 3 comes out, they'll have faceplate parts made so your XBox can look like your armor).
The beauty of the XBox 360 is likely going to be the increased detail of the games-- screenshots of a Zelda-like game known as "Kameo" are nothing less than visually stunning-- they remind me of backdrop planners for Final Fantasy X-2 (specifically, Bevelle's Highbridge. So much color and detail!). Plus there's the usual foray of games to draw XBox and other platform-gamers in-- your usual First-person shooters and action games, but also some new interesting draws like "The Godfather"-- the detail is so photorealistic, it's hard to tell it apart from the movie.
But Microsoft is all about "risky territory," or, as Captain Kirk once said, "to boldly go where no man has gone before." Maybe we should use the politically correct "no ONE" though-- after all, Gates is trying to draw in girl gamers, women gamers, super-kiddy gamers-- everyone and anyone, not just college guys, geeks/nerds, or military vets. That means we can expect to see a wider variety of games. They might not all be appealing, but there's a bigger chance they'll draw a larger audience-- which means more money, which is, of course, what Gates wants.
The XBox still lags by a considerable percentage behind the North American market share that Sony's got. The XBox 360 just might start turning profits if it does as well as Gates hopes-- and if the Sony doesn't live up to everyone's expectations. It's one thing to amp up processor speed, but what about the graphics, the game offers, the backwards compatability... and so on?
What is it YOU look for in a console, anyway? What will swing you to one platform or another, and if you have more than one, why?
...I'd like to note that I would *LOVE* to be the journalist writing for TIME or a gaming magazine-- the one that goes to E3 and gets to see all the advance stuff, talk to all the cool people, ask questions... I'd go hog-wild. The question is, how do I do that? I think I'm "pulling a Kaiba" again and biting off more than I can chew... I mean, I want to teach Journalism/English (the latter, pref. in Japan), I want to write international stories (so I can travel), and I want to get access to exclusive content so I can write what the world wants to hear (be it the world of gamers or the world of the fashion conscious). I'm a bit muddled on where to start, though!
Maybe with getting an Xbox. ^_~
Coming soon:
-more WDKY review replies (I can't wait to give 16 some more time; I've already gotten a great review from DSF that I'm hyper-eager to respond to!)
-first official posts on all my new comms.
-more 30kisses stuff for my pairing...
Today:
-I got the job at Suncoast, and I've got "orientation" tonight from 3-8pm!
-Tonight, get in line for Star Wars and wait for the blast (read: inspiration to finally start writing fics for a live-action fandom)
-Study for sociology final (while in line for Star Wars, of course)
-Figure out how the hell to access binary Usenet groups, since SBC Yahoo is being stupid and not letting me
-FIND A DAMN COPY OF 'TANGO DE REVE' and practice for my ballet final-- Friday. Also bring a cassette to copy the song from the teacher, just in case
-I've jot loads of Jamba hours this weekend-- sure to be a learning experience
-WDKY17!!! (I'm writing, I'm writing! I just wish Dartz and Bakura would leave me ALONE already!!)
-more icons. There's always time for more icons.
