Petals on the Wind

[azurite]

Came up with this as I was picking petals off a daisy on my way home from Media Academy today. I haven't done it in a while; I was kinda feeling nostalgic.

Leave a trail of daisy petals
For me to follow
To find my way to you
I don't know if what you do
makes me want to smile or cry
Yet for some reason
There's tears in my eyes

I can't be with you now
Leave a trail of daisy petals
Let me follow you
Someday I'll feel ready
And you'll know
What all this means

One for "he loves me"
One for "he loves me not"
Circle 'round and 'round
Till they're all gone

Petals on the ground
Petals in the wind
Leave a trail for me
I'll follow you
Maybe
Someday


Oh, by the way-- I finally saw "The Ring." What is everyone so scared of? EVERYONE I talk to is like "I can't watch it Mer, can you come and watch it with me?" Don't get me wrong, it FREAKED me out-- but it wasn't SCARY like "AAAAAAAAAAHHH" if I'd seen it in the theaters I would have screamed. Or maybe I would have, since the pictures would have been 60x the size they are on my TV, not to mention there probably would have been THX sound or something... o_O But seriously, I walked away from that movie feeling "shaken, but not stirred." Disturbed, but not to the point where I belong in a mental institution. -.- Like some people.

Truthfully, a lot didn't make sense. Like how the video was made, what certain parts of the video MEANT, and how in the hell Samara could have survived in what, by all rights, should have been a 2000+ ft. deep well for SEVEN DAYS when her mother had suffocated her. Can *you* fall down a well that far and not hit your head or break something? Even if there's water at the bottom, I highly doubt it. I'm half-tempted to see the Japanese version, "Ringu" (it sounds so stupid... even Yubiwa would have sounded better) but Joe tells me it's nearly the same as the American one, just with screaming *Japanese* people instead. But I imagine the plot has to be different; after all, I highly doubt there are horse ranches in Japan. o.0 Are there? I know horses aren't native to Japan. Last time I checked, anyway, they weren't.

Mrs. Thompson is a BITCH. And not the good kind. Every kind of possible insult I could throw at her-- she's every one of them, and no matter how much she favors me "on a good day," I still hate her. Give me Brewer over her any day. Maybe even Archer. (shock!) Today, at 12:37, I remembered, upon opening my backpack, that I had an allergy appointment at 1:00. I was supposed to be GONE by now! I was supposed to have gotten my permit to leave earlier, and then bothered to show it to Thompson and Koski the next day (Wednesday). STUPID, STUPID! I told her I had to go to the office to get a PtL, but she was like "No, I can't let you go anywhere..." blah blah. She dropped her book in the shock of me getting up and getting ready to go. So I run to get the PtL; my counselor, Huddleston, predictably could not be found. I had to ask Kelleher, but since this appt. slip didn't have a signature, he had to go and call my mom, who was on her lunch break... @_@ GAUGH! I finally did get my permit to leave, but with less than 15 minutes to spare before I had to be there (turns out they wanted me there at 12:45). Mrs. Thompson just pissed me off so much because she was acting like I rarely come into her class. I hate the way she singles me out because I did a simple computer favor for her ONCE! And she always tries to place me on a pedastal-- in all other circumstances, I wouldn't complain, but I feel bad because she picks on the other students. Maybe only 2 of the given 5 she wheedles on actually DESERVE her criticism.

Yesterday, we got back our Canterbury Tales Prologue tests. I knew I failed it the moment she started going over the answers; Chaucer used so much irony in the story that practically all my answers were the exact opposite of what they really were. Not to mention I hadn't actually bothered to READ the damn story; in class, the presentations sucked (Thompson kept interrupting, and then inserting something about HER life, and then referring to herself in the THIRD person! GAUGH!) and I fell asleep more often than not. Thompson's such an airhead. She forgets where she puts photocopies, she forgets what she's talking about, she forgets to talk about herself in the first person (though I know I'm not alone when I say I wish she wouldn't talk about herself and her damned opinions of outside topics at all), and she forgets people that are supposed to present. When we corrected the test, she forgot to hand back our tests! ;_; I got an A- on the vocab, but a D- on the actual test. -.- Whee. But I have an A overall... and I plan to keep that. One measly (EXCUSED) absence couldn't hurt my grade; when she actually bothers to assign stuff, I finish it before she even remembers to collect it, and everything's all said and done. I usually go above and beyond the call of duty for her assignments, and while that might make me look a little TOO good, I suppose it's to be expected when I'm an Honors/AP English student in a regular English class with failure shmucks (I don't care that Michelle's going to UCLA, the UC system is so screwy that she might as well have gotten into CCSF). I'm in it not because I feel like being the head of the class or showing off (more often than not, Thompson ignores me in class, isn't that shocking?) it's that I couldn't handle AP anymore, and there is no Honors English for senior year students. So, there. I'm also a lazy bitch who complains about all her teachers. =P

Gilmore is starting to become somewhat more tolerable though. I'm loving this "extension product" project, even though her time constraints and expectations are a bit far-fetched. So tomorrow afterschool, Slava and Kripa are supposed to come over so we can finish up the poster board Kripa is supposed to get today. Our extension product is something *I* came up with (I'm amazed I had the creativity; when I have to pull stuff out of my hat, it's usually very stupid) -- and since no one reading my journal is either a) in my class and therefore in direct competition with me or b) able to actually produce this product and therefore mooch millions in potential royalties away from me, then I'm fine with telling everyone what it is. And maybe you'll think it's a bit weird too, but so far, the people we've asked LIKE it. The idea? Mood Hair Gel. @_@; It'll be an extension product of the current standard Dep hair gel, this line called Dep FX. =D The idea behind it is that a lot of people want to dye their hair, but dyes cost too much money, or they don't know exactly what they'll look like. Also, gels and dyes separately tend to cause a lot of damage to your scalp; together in one, it could cause less damage, and with the right ingredients, could actually be BENEFICIAL to your hair (more volume, body, shine, etc.) In case you didn't know, the whole concept behind "Mood" anything is that the colors change based on how you feel. Mood rings, and even things like LCD monitors use this mixture of chemicals with something called nematic crystals. These crystals are VERY sensitive to temperature, and so change color based on how hot or cold something is. In the case of mood rings and other "mood" jewelry, the heat in relation to your mood has something to do with how close your capillaries are to your skin. When you're embarassed, angry, horny, or whatnot, your capillaries are more likely to be closer to your skin's surface, therefore making you hot. Mood rings and such would be a very vivid green, purple, or gold. When you're normal temperature, you're likely to have a blue or black mood ring. And when you're in the bitter cold, you'll probably get some weird colors, like brown, red, or orange. ~_~ Now, my problem herein lies-- I don't know what the ingredient is for cosmetics. I know it can't be nematic crystals, since they're a suspended substance within chemicals-- and also very toxic. I tried looking for it online, but I can't find ingredient lists. >_< Can anyone help me???

For the record, hospitals are, in every way, a complete rip-off. The machines -every one of them- will eat your money and not deliver. I learned the hard way, trying to get some damned pads/tampons in the women's bathroom (why be anything but blunt? seriously, it's not my character, and it tells people flat out not to screw with me. I should get the shirt with the disgruntled cat that says "I have PMS and a handgun. Any questions?") Despite the big fuss I made about getting to my appointment on time, all it was was a simple checkup with my allergy doctor. I paid $15 to talk to someone.I'd done extremely well for an asthmatic such as myself (I suffered miserably holding a vacuum-type thing in my mouth that emitted a nasty-tasting gas, not to mention I drooled on myself for much of the test) and she wanted to congratulate me and tell me it wasn't possible for her to medically excuse me from the swim test my counselor's been nagging me about.

Doesn't matter anyway; I've been sort of thinking about taking it anyway, just for the hell of it. Eva hasn't taken it either, so we'll probably try next week. I'm not sure whether to be apprehensive or not. It's been so long since I swum seriously-- I mean, I splash for fun at pools at hotels, but even at Fanime I was too freaked to try diving. I used to be a damned mermaid! *sigh* The thing that haunts me is that the last time I took the test (it's the same test as if you wanted to use the deep end of the pool. How childish) I passed the 6 laps part just fine, but when it came to treading water for a minute, I almost went under. My arms were so TIRED! So I technically only passed it halfway. For graduation, there is no halfway-- you either do or you don't (sounds very Yoda-ish). Oh, but it gets worse: the pool is closing for renovations to the boiler (compared to the JCC in Marin I used to go to all the time, Rossi is a damned ICE BOX) so I have maybe about 2 Fridays to actually try this. I don't know if you can take the test the same day you fail it-- and, not to sound like a pessimist, but I'd like to have as many chances as I can. I'm sure as heck not a hydrophobe, so after this mess, I better pass it. My only real problem now is finding my swimsuit in that dump I call my laundry. Blech. I need a car or something, because I must have HUNDREDS (no exaggeration) of laundry to do. Stupid cart had to break... and then when it got fixed, it rained... then it broke again! ;_; DAAARN IT! Stupid landlords can't let me use the machines? I wonder how much longer they'll be gone, maybe I should break into the back where the machines are... >_> (they don't come back till 3/22. I might actually be able to pull that off)

Laaa... must see more AMVs. I left the CDs I wanted to borrow from Vince at his house. Going back to get them sometime this week would also be a chance to see the rest of FMoS, if he'd let me stick around that long! HAH! I have a few CDs of AMVs (Anime Music Videos, duh!) but most are the same thing, repeated. The general classics: Super Smash Brothers Melee to Green Day (I'm not sure if there was a title to that one), Odorikuruu, Spectacular Anime... I have personal favorites, like the Pretear one to "You're Original" and several of the Aluminum Studios ones (though some of their earlier ones look so cheesy compared to newer AMVs). But there's so many new ones I want! Even older ones, like those Linkin Park "In the End" ones to Evangelion! ;_; Those vids got me hooked on that song! =D I have CDs D1 and C1 from the Sakuramento Anime Club; I know Vince has ones I don't have. I also have one I got at last year's Anime FX finale meeting, from Curiously Obnoxious Studios. =D Many that people have just burned for me-- mixed CDs from Joe, Vince, Mike... ~_~ whee. But I need to catch up... I checked out animemusicvideos.org last night, and so many videos haven't shown up yet! But there don't appear to be many Full Moon o Sagashite vids. I downloaded one from a girl on a mailing list I'm on, but it's not wonderful and spectacular and all. SPOIILERS! Whee-oo, now I know a lot more than I did before. =P So once the series is complete, I'll make an FMoS vid of my own (assuming I finish my G-on Riders one first) ... I should brainstorm ideas, ne? For songs, a theme... ^^ all that jazz. It'd be killer if I could get one done in time for Fanime 2K. Even though the cost of transferring everything and such would be a pain. I'd feel guilty if I asked others to do it for me, since they have the tech and the know-how, and I'm just a n00b. @_@; VGA converter... *dr00lage* Ahem, so yeah. That'd be a dream come true. But I have to FINISH it first, ask Vince if he'd premiere it at AFX. =} Final Cut Pro might be cool and all, but it was confusing as heck to me. I'll stick with Premiere, no matter how much memory it sucks.

Oh, I finished "Princess" today. It's scary how much I actually have in common with Princess Mia. I mean, aside from the fact that I'm not a Princess (maybe a duchess way the hell down the line... or some kind of lady. Or maybe that's just wishful thinking) or anything. The movie "The Princess Diaries" seemed to combine parts of the first and second books... in the book, the action takes place in New York, not San Francisco (oh well). The end of the book was somewhat predictable, but maybe it's because I almost lived it. There's a guy in there named Kenny who's obsessed with Japanese anime... and while he's nice and such, he's not the hottie Mia's got her eye on. Most people have probably heard me mention Kenny sometime or another. Some people actually KNOW him. When I read this, my eyes nearly popped out of my head. It was hilarious. I loved the book. I want the next one. ^.^ I'm so selfish. But I love having such a varied bookcase. I mean, I've got almost all the Nancy Drews (mystery), plenty of Lois Lowry (suspense, thriller, horror), lots of Harlequin romance novels (no explanation needed), craft and research books... the list goes on and on. I even have a section of GRRL-themed books, like "Net Chick" and "From Girls to GRRLS!" Whee. I'm so cultured. (laughs)

Oh, and I decided to call my grandparents today. My living grandparents, FYI, are on my father's (aka the estranged) side of the family. I told them I was sorry about what happened to Jean (my grandfather's brother... he passed away two days ago. I heard it online from Shaina) and that I really wanted to see everyone again for Passover (Apr. 15 & 16). They agreed; we managed to work out a day when everyone would be there, and I could take a flight down, but be back in SF in time for my birthday. Turns out the Seder is on Apr. 12th, so I'm leaving Friday afternoon (the 11th) at 4:00pm from Oakland. So I'll probably either miss of all of school or most of my afternoon classes. I come back on my birthday (Apr. 14) at 12:05a. By the time I get home, I will be 18 years old. =D Hopefully the Seder will also incorporate a party for Grandpa (he'll be 81!) and me (the reciprocal of Grandpa's age... how weird is that!?). I don't want it to be too depressing, even though Jean won't be with it. I'm really going out on a limb here; my dad WILL be there, and hopefully my cousins will include me in the things they do. I can only hope that Baba and Grandpa give me money -with Anaheim costing $330, I doubt my mom will be fielding any money for me. I kinda want to go to Anime Plus, the only anime store in Northridge I know. Baba suggested I go to LA (as in the CITY of!) with Erin and Shaina-- which would be killer, because I would go to Arcade Infinity and play until I lost feeling in every part of my body necessary to play games. @_@ Hee hee. And seeing Jill and family (relatives on my Mom's side of the family that I love to bits also in the area) would be cool too, but hey, only three days... ~_~ I want to help cook for sure though. It'll keep me distracted. From being alone, dealing with my dad, and/or dealing with Erin's damn poodle, Mookie. @_@;

But what it all breaks down to is that Mom still wants me to do something for my birthday. Since it's Spring Break (Mon, Apr. 14) I hope everyone that doesn't work (or is in college) can come to some sort of party. I could always wait until Friday (the 18th) and do something at RTA, but... >_> I dunno. With Will's party, I don't think another party less than a month later for a n00b to the arcade such as myself (well demi-n00b) would happen. But it'd still be cool on some weird level. I just want to have fun at my party for once. My birthdays have never really been that great. ~_~; For the record, I hate chocolate cake. =P

My best birthday cake was my 7th birthday, when my mom, sister and I stayed at the Bonaventure in the middle of LA. Two glass towers, a pool in the middle of the hotel, see-through elevators, and a HUGE buffet for breakfast in the morning. My birthday 'celebration' was just me, my mom, and my aunt by the poolside-- and the cake was a yellow cake (my favorite!) with almond slices and strawberries all over it. I was in love. ^^ I remember that so clearly, even if the same day, I nearly killed my sister. >_> But that's another story! Eh...

Lately I've been reminiscing a lot lately. I remember my times at Camp Parks in the ROTC (I'm beginning to believe myself when I say that my crush/flirting with J.Po is only because he reminds me so much of Cunningham), vacations... whee, just all this stuff. My dreams, too. Some very hilarious ones that I posted in my old diary... very long and strange. Great stuff. Maybe I'll retell them one day if enough people are curious. I hinted at one the other day too-- and if Rochelle read my diary, she'd laugh upon recognizing the name: Cherry Bing-Bing. =D

Buffy and Smallville are a repeat tonight. Joe's supposed to come over with AMVs. Yay. =D

Comments

[dahak.livejournal.com]

Yeah, The Ring isn't that scary when you watch it at home. Even if you do have good surround sound. Those quick noise level switches in the movie were the parts that freaked me out. So was the part were Samara teleports a few feet closer to that guy in the end. That freaked the beejebus out of me.

BTW, I want that guys' hair. You know Rachel's "man". His hair is so cool. :D

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[azurite]

Noah? Yeah, he was kinda hot. Blah, the freakiest part (to me) had to be when they showed (for a brief, brief instant) the faces of the dead people-- all... eew. Gross. Just gross. Was that movie from this year? Maybe it'll get an Oscar this Sunday. For best makeup or something. @_@;