A karma slave?

[azurite]

hrm, MK's journal title + random thoughts = very confused Mer. Managed to get through math class-- we've started on exponents and logarithms, which will eventually morph into finance and principals of interest and the like. It's all a bad flashback from 3rd year IMP, but that one year break did wonders (read: horrors) to my brain, so math isn't absorbing the way it used to. I hope I don't get too overwhelmed and have a nervous breakdown. I need a way to balance fun and creativity with "have to dos."

Finished CAD 7-1 last night... but now I have 3 drawings to get done by Thursday, so I'll be working overtime today and tomorrow, especially since I need to revise my 2nd Media Notebook draft and assemble the entire 1st notebook, along with revising my Speech outline, reading chapters 8-10 in my Speech textbook, and revisiting my Geography text.

I pretty much slept after I got home yesterday, so I stayed awake once I woke up.
Pleasant Surprise 1: Got $20 for dogsitting.
Pleasant Surprise 2: Scott's a bit intuitive, I guess. Sent me 2 TMs (neither of which I replied to :P) -- he said he hoped I wasn't injured froom the Evil Dog attacking me, and did he say something earlier that upset me?

I guess it's just in me not to say anything to him when I know it'll make me seem weak, or him in a sticky situation. I shouldn't be so selfish and whiny. It's not me. So whatever, I'm chalking it up to PMS and ending it. Besides, I'm sure he'll be all holed up in his lab today anyway, so... what's the use? I'll just go home and do my homework like I'm supposed to. Maybe I'll swing by the mall afterschool and get a book or something.

He also said "sweet dreams" before I went to bed. I wonder what's going through his head when he TMs me. That's my thing; I get too "into" someone or something -- usually the idea of being in a relationship. But I'm horrifically insecure. It's weird, it doesn't seem like "me," but it is. Wasn't there a time when I was grossly overconfident and social?

I don't want this to be Lonnie, take 2. I really don't.

I managed to get a few more outfits done for Téa's KiSS doll, but not nearly enough as I specified in pro_anzu_fans. Plus I'd like some more suggestions, for "originals." Kysra? Mamono? Atlantis? Come on, you guys all write fab fics with delish fashion, so help me out here. I'm tempted to do a cloak-robe thing from ISE, a genie outfit from OUAH, and a cute raincoat with an umbrella from PT. Plus I have some evil WDKY/CO7 ideas... *GRIN!* But I can't draw shoes! >_

Comments

[rivingmass.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm glad to see that the Quake didn't effect things too much where you are. I can't really offer any sage advice on your dealings with the guy, except to make the best of it. Rocky times, tension and apprehension always sort themselves out in the end. Just go with it and try to enjoy yourself.

[zigx.livejournal.com]

mmm cheese =O

Originals?

[guardian-kysra.livejournal.com]

Eh, I'll have to think about this BUT I did have something come to mind after reading your list, particularly since Tea and I have something in common. From someone who spent ten years of her life in dance classes (after I screwed up my knees, I had to quit ;-;), I vote for a ballet costume of some sort - NOT A TUTU >-< PLEASE. A nice flowy veiled skirt would be nice . . . Unfortunately, I had just gotten permission to begin training on toe-shoes when BAM I screwed up my knees >_< A tap or OOOOOOOHHHHH 40-50s style swinger outfit would be cools too, ya know, complete with bobbie socks XD

I'm sure I'll think of something but until then . . . I squealed when I saw you were tempted to do a PT outfit (even though I don't really go into wardrobe descriptions when I write o.o)!!!!! I'll work on ideas for ya!

[schmollieollie.livejournal.com]

mer, you have always been confident and social...thats how i met you after all lol =)

just enjoy this relationship you are in now and try not to analyze every little thing...ur gonna drive yourself even more crazy!

Ummmmm okk....ring me or get in contact with me soon...now that eva is at school , you can send her the book, then she can send it to me! =)

toodles!