Whoo to the hoo and the sing sing sing

Well, the concert is finally over. Thank god for that, I guess. Turns out my mom was the only one that came, so I was pretty sad, but I guess that's okay... ;_; EVERYBODY OWES ME! We messed up, as predicted in "Music of the Heart," but to be honest, Ulrich just doesn't give the attention and discipline the lower (and even First Ladies, which is ADVANCED, but being an all-girl choir, well...) choirs as he should. Rochelle, ever the dissatisfied, told me afterwards that she had messed up on her solo in my favorite Chamber Choir piece, "Iddem Dem," but it wasn't as if I could tell. There's so many fantastic singers in Chamber...

Show choir kicked ass too, but they needed to give some sort of introduction to "Little Shop of Horrors." Guess Ulrich just doesn't take advice well. Max Hing was REALLY good- he played the sadistic dentist in the "You'll Be A Dentist" song, which is one of my favorites of the seven or eight songs they performed-- in a row! He didn't recognize my voice while we were changing in the bathroom, and when I told him what choir I was in, he suddenly remembered me. =P Hehe... Well, at least it's better than my reputation saying "Weren't you the girl who...?"

What else? The Bruce Almighty thing is today... are you coming? My mom was guilt tripping me today about Lonnie coming. But I "invited" so many people because the passes were free! Besides, it's not like it's some sappy mush movie anyway.

Gah, third period is starting. More later.

Riddle me this, riddle me that

Here's a riddle for you: but don't worry, your life won't end if you don't solve it.

What's long, both good AND bad, and follows you wherever you go, day or night?

Nope, it's not your shadow. Guess again.
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It's your reputation. Might annoying bastard it is too. People have this preset idea of me, because of some stupid reputation that's followed me from elementary AND middle school. I'm either this annoying geek/nerd that is super-smart and a total teacher's pet or your general, violent bitch who loves to snitch on people.

Hopefully, the friends reading this think otherwise. If not, just... don't tell me. Today hurts enough as it is, and I'd hate hearing something like that from someone I consider a friend, no matter how much I claim to love brutal honesty over tactfulness and the chance of a mistruth.

With only my mom at the concert, suffice it to say, no one cheered for me. I heard people yelling everything from "Kristine!" to "ASTRID!!!" and such, but never my name. While I was sitting down, someone said my name, but when I turned around, the person I saw wasn't anyone I knew/recognized. So much for that. Anyway, I was bummed about this at the end, but BenBen (the greatest guy our choirs ever had) gave me a huge hug and cheered my name, even though the audience was all gone. That made me happy for a little while.

But today during 5th, Mrs. Thompson, in one of her random, off-topic speeches, mentions how good Kristine was in Show Choir last night (and she was-- I clapped and cheered for her even though she's been nothing but rude to me) and the same for Caprisha in the dance concert. I was hoping Mrs. T would say something nice about me, but I practically had to remind her I was even THERE last night, and she barely got the words, "And Meredith was..." before the whole class fell silent and someone booed. Two people clapped-- Eva (softly) and I think Chris Lie (sarcastic? Not sure... he was actually "nice" to me earlier in the day, which REALLY threw me for a loop, since I know he hates me). It made me so sad and depressed I just felt like burying my head in my book-- which I did. No one ever noticed anyway.

Is it wrong to want recognition for something you put your heart and soul into? I don't sing for the recognition, I sing because I love to-- but every so often, it's nice to know that people appreciate you and your efforts, for everything you do. If someone comes to my concert and cheers for me, you KNOW I'll be at their plays, at their art shows, at their graduations, cheering them on. But sadly... no one ever comes. I feel invisible. (Watch, it'll be like something out of Buffy and I'll disappear entirely, then wreak havoc on the world as Invisi-Girl!)

Gawk, speaking of Buffy, it finally ended on Tuesday. I honestly thought the finale would be two hours long, but it wasn't. And Angel didn't even stick around for the whole thing, he was gone 10 minutes after the show started, and since I got there late, I missed it. But I recorded it, so maybe when I get my ass home this afternoon I should see what happened with him. *sigh* It was one of those endings where it wasn't dissatisfying-- you know, in the sense where the implicit promise was kept, and things happen the way they're supposed to... but you don't have to like it.

Here's what I don't get-- there were talks about having Spike become a guest star, if not frequent special on Angel. But how will they pull THAT off, now that he's oh-- DEAD!? And I don't mean undead, I mean DEAD DEAD, like dust at the bottom of hell?! Not even that. The Hellmouth (In Sunnydale... apparently there's been another one in Cleveland all this time? Or was Giles being sarcastic?) closed it on itself when Spike and his amulet (well, Angel's amulet that he gave to Buffy to give/wear as a "champion") went all magnifying-glass and he turned into a focal point for the sun. Sunnydale is now a crater.

Anya died too, which disappoints me-- and half of me hoped that Andrew really WOULD kiss her, or if not her, then Dawn. o_O But the thing is, the whole premise had to keep the original team together. Alive, and still wanting to live. But now, all the girls out there are Slayers-- and that's a great way to end it, because Buffy's still alive, there's no more single point of Big Bad Evil, and she's still super-powered, but she's not alone. makes sense, considering the night of the premiere, all the LJ Buffy Cast members had icons that said "We are ALL Chosen." Definitely spooked me out when that happened in the show.

So, the cast that remains alive (i.e. potential guest stars on Angel:)
* Principal Wood (yes, he lived!)
* Faith
* Buffy (of course)
* Willow (so she's like a goddess incarnate now?)
* Kennedy
* Giles
* Rona
* That redheaded Slayer (in-Training)
* Andrew
* Xander
* probably a bunch of other former SiTs

I know the cast of definitely Dead includes:
* Spike (haha)
* Anya (once again, haha, but somehow she seems a bit more permanent)
* The long-faced former SiT who Dawn found

Other things about the episode before I jet:
* Many of the Turok Han looked... well, peach. For creatures that never see sunlight, are pure vampires, and are generally plain ugly. Makeup just... well, they slacked.
* The whole big thing with Dawn and her latent Key powers never came up... which I think is messed up, since that REALLY needs to be explored
* Trogdor the Burninator of StrongBad fame made a guest appearance-- before the Big Battle, Andrew, the soon-to-be-dead long-faced SiT, Xander, and I think Giles were playing a tabletop RPG, and Trogdor was in it. ^.~

fsssh... I'm tired, headachey, and I need to smile. Going now.