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Faith in Humanity Deteriorating...
Feb. 19th, 2003 04:10 pmAt this time about two years ago, way back in my FreeOpenDiary, I posted an entry about my faith in humanity being slightly restored. People had done good things for no reason that made me think that way, and every now and then something good or bad happens to change my perspective.
But lately, it's been nothing but bad. Are people just sucking in evil energy from the earth or something? It's like everyone's got their brain wired to this massive amount of badness, and everyone's either being stupid or cruel. Case in point: Yesterday, a woman who works at my school's Beacon center (think YMCA, but nicer and more creative people, not to mention free classes) brought her sick 7-month puppy for a few hours before she got off work to take him to the Vet. In the meantime, someone STOLE THE PUPPY right out of her car. A sick, 7-month old puppy can't fight back against someone who tries to take him. Whenever I told people about this, the first thing they asked me was "Why would she bring a puppy to school," and from what I'd heard, it was because she planned to go to the Vet later that day-- I'd found this out yesterday around 5:30. What kind of people are that cruel? It really upsets me too, because I know how it feels to lose a pet, and to feel hopeless. There's posters of the poor thing all over school now, emphasizing how no questions would be asked regarding its return, and how there's a hefty reward in store for anyone who finds/returns the pooch. I hope it gets found soon. /.\
The other thing that's pissed me off lately is how people don't take things seriously. I'm probably a hypocrite for saying this, but lately I've noticed people that put more time, effort, and money into playing video games and watching TV/movies than they do school. I used to take college so seriously and be all hyped up about it, like "Oh, I'm going to do so well on my tests... my SAT... my STAR 9s... I'll have a 3.86 GPA again my senior year, and I'll get into State and get my Bachelor's in Journalism. Then I'll go on to another university to get my Master's in it, or in Creative Writing, and I'll land a great job doing what I love in New York City..." But obviously that hasn't happened, and between railing to my friends still in high school about NOT MAKING THE SAME DUMB MISTAKE I MADE I'm worrying to all my college friends, wondering how the hell I'm going to land scholarships, financial aid, or anything of the sort -let alone actual college admission- with my past record. Ugh. Even with all this going around, people are still just playing around. Some people still don't take the whole college thing seriously; I know some people that are still thinking "cutesy" (not Eva; she's already going to college... sigh...) and such. It's not revolting so much as sad, and maybe a little pathetic. People just never grow up.
Speaking of, there was a two-minute fight on the esplanade at my school. The retardness of it all was the fact that it was two Caucasian guys (one whose pants were hanging below his ass. Ugh... talk about rape target), one of whom had a large Afrcian-American friend cheering for him and bashing the other guy, calling him "nigga" and "biatch." Does anyone else see the lack of sense in this? A black person is calling a white person "nigga" in a bad way. I've come to understand that it's okay (for most African-Americans) to refer to ONE ANOTHER as "nigga" because it's come to mean something positive, but when one of them uses it negatively-- towards a non-black? I find that just as preposterous as an Asian guy calling a Caucasian a "nigga." It's idiotic. The only thing that surprises me about the whole ordeal is that even though both guys swung at each other (one even caught the other in a strong headlock) neither one was injured; nor was anyone in the surrounding crowd (though it's my personal belief that some SHOULD have been... hmph). Even more amazing, the fight BROKE UP ON ITS OWN. No teachers. No one. The guys just stopped fighting. It was hardly as if they'd made a truce or they were too hurt to keep going-- but they just stopped, and despite their immaturity and testosterone-infused possessiveness, I had to feel proud of them, just for that. Too bad (?) I don't know either of them... ^.~
Ugh, and for the record, I AM SICK OF FILING PAPERS. I used to be a damned good secretary, and I suppose I still am, but the kind of entry level job I'd prefer at this point would be calling out orders at In-N-Out. Not filing. ANYTHING BUT, PLEASE! Three straight days of filing with Koski... password papers from this year, last year... GAUGH! It's not only a waste of paper, but it's sore on the eyes-- all these pink, green, and white papers are enough to make someone hurl. People have atrocious handwriting too, not to mention idiotic answers for the questions on the worksheets. Not to mention, regardless of what someone does (or doesn't, in most cases) write, they always get their password in the end... though they rarely deserve it. Most forget it, abuse it, or never have the chance to use it at all. Plus, it seems Wash has the most restrictions on computer usage anyway. BLAH. I'll just have to hack into Koski's account again and start mooching files from Will. =D
Right now, I'm here working on the paper... well, sorta, since I'm multitasking by typing here. Diesel was bitching about the most idiotic things, like keeping my joke "I'm too sexy for my shirt" box near the staff listing. I put it in there as a joke, was intent on changing it when we had something appropriate, and here he wanted to keep it! Not to mention we had a lot of people suspecting that a submitted poem was plagiarized, but Diesel didn't want me to spend time looking it up to check-- even though I had a pretty good lead. He said I was wasting my time, and that if it WAS plagiarizing, it wasn't OUR fault, since we didn't know, and that no one would sue a school paper, besides. BARF! For starters, it IS our fault, since it makes us look bad. How unprofessional would it be if we didn't edit the paper at all? When you go over something, you're not just looking for bad grammar or spelling, you're checking everything from the consistency of the word usage, the flow of the story, and the artwork to the page layout and uniformity of the paper! Part of that all is checking your sources- after all, libel is a crime. Blah.
Mm, but I've been making some killer images in Photoshop lately, both for my personal site (when I get home I'm going to try and post the new version of skindeep, my peachgirl page, nicknamed //orangecreme//. Hehe. It looks uber-nice. XD Plus I have to figure out what's up with my forums, check NboR (if it's up) and post about my forums and the openings for Fanime... which I have to bug mom about. And then there's conquering Eluria in SO2, which I got to this morning. =D I also wanna make a new version of Uminosei, my SO2 site, though technically it *is* separate from Blacklight Arcade's SO2 section. @_@ Hmm, titles titles...
Yep yep, Mer has much to do, much to catch up on, much to plan. I'll prolly bring my Econ book with me to FX tonight (SCI 101! Whee... and if I get there early enough, I'll meet Gina and play some iD... perhaps handing Iketani-no-baka a can of whoop ass! ARGH, I'm going to beat him, I swear!) There's no time to work on "Dangerous Games" right now; it's not finished so I can't upload it... mm, maybe I'll post it for a certain-other-iD fan to beta-check for me? Hehe... >_> I'll just upload it to my site for now. And my articles too, I should start an online portfolio of sorts. Hehe... whee. HOME~!
But lately, it's been nothing but bad. Are people just sucking in evil energy from the earth or something? It's like everyone's got their brain wired to this massive amount of badness, and everyone's either being stupid or cruel. Case in point: Yesterday, a woman who works at my school's Beacon center (think YMCA, but nicer and more creative people, not to mention free classes) brought her sick 7-month puppy for a few hours before she got off work to take him to the Vet. In the meantime, someone STOLE THE PUPPY right out of her car. A sick, 7-month old puppy can't fight back against someone who tries to take him. Whenever I told people about this, the first thing they asked me was "Why would she bring a puppy to school," and from what I'd heard, it was because she planned to go to the Vet later that day-- I'd found this out yesterday around 5:30. What kind of people are that cruel? It really upsets me too, because I know how it feels to lose a pet, and to feel hopeless. There's posters of the poor thing all over school now, emphasizing how no questions would be asked regarding its return, and how there's a hefty reward in store for anyone who finds/returns the pooch. I hope it gets found soon. /.\
The other thing that's pissed me off lately is how people don't take things seriously. I'm probably a hypocrite for saying this, but lately I've noticed people that put more time, effort, and money into playing video games and watching TV/movies than they do school. I used to take college so seriously and be all hyped up about it, like "Oh, I'm going to do so well on my tests... my SAT... my STAR 9s... I'll have a 3.86 GPA again my senior year, and I'll get into State and get my Bachelor's in Journalism. Then I'll go on to another university to get my Master's in it, or in Creative Writing, and I'll land a great job doing what I love in New York City..." But obviously that hasn't happened, and between railing to my friends still in high school about NOT MAKING THE SAME DUMB MISTAKE I MADE I'm worrying to all my college friends, wondering how the hell I'm going to land scholarships, financial aid, or anything of the sort -let alone actual college admission- with my past record. Ugh. Even with all this going around, people are still just playing around. Some people still don't take the whole college thing seriously; I know some people that are still thinking "cutesy" (not Eva; she's already going to college... sigh...) and such. It's not revolting so much as sad, and maybe a little pathetic. People just never grow up.
Speaking of, there was a two-minute fight on the esplanade at my school. The retardness of it all was the fact that it was two Caucasian guys (one whose pants were hanging below his ass. Ugh... talk about rape target), one of whom had a large Afrcian-American friend cheering for him and bashing the other guy, calling him "nigga" and "biatch." Does anyone else see the lack of sense in this? A black person is calling a white person "nigga" in a bad way. I've come to understand that it's okay (for most African-Americans) to refer to ONE ANOTHER as "nigga" because it's come to mean something positive, but when one of them uses it negatively-- towards a non-black? I find that just as preposterous as an Asian guy calling a Caucasian a "nigga." It's idiotic. The only thing that surprises me about the whole ordeal is that even though both guys swung at each other (one even caught the other in a strong headlock) neither one was injured; nor was anyone in the surrounding crowd (though it's my personal belief that some SHOULD have been... hmph). Even more amazing, the fight BROKE UP ON ITS OWN. No teachers. No one. The guys just stopped fighting. It was hardly as if they'd made a truce or they were too hurt to keep going-- but they just stopped, and despite their immaturity and testosterone-infused possessiveness, I had to feel proud of them, just for that. Too bad (?) I don't know either of them... ^.~
Ugh, and for the record, I AM SICK OF FILING PAPERS. I used to be a damned good secretary, and I suppose I still am, but the kind of entry level job I'd prefer at this point would be calling out orders at In-N-Out. Not filing. ANYTHING BUT, PLEASE! Three straight days of filing with Koski... password papers from this year, last year... GAUGH! It's not only a waste of paper, but it's sore on the eyes-- all these pink, green, and white papers are enough to make someone hurl. People have atrocious handwriting too, not to mention idiotic answers for the questions on the worksheets. Not to mention, regardless of what someone does (or doesn't, in most cases) write, they always get their password in the end... though they rarely deserve it. Most forget it, abuse it, or never have the chance to use it at all. Plus, it seems Wash has the most restrictions on computer usage anyway. BLAH. I'll just have to hack into Koski's account again and start mooching files from Will. =D
Right now, I'm here working on the paper... well, sorta, since I'm multitasking by typing here. Diesel was bitching about the most idiotic things, like keeping my joke "I'm too sexy for my shirt" box near the staff listing. I put it in there as a joke, was intent on changing it when we had something appropriate, and here he wanted to keep it! Not to mention we had a lot of people suspecting that a submitted poem was plagiarized, but Diesel didn't want me to spend time looking it up to check-- even though I had a pretty good lead. He said I was wasting my time, and that if it WAS plagiarizing, it wasn't OUR fault, since we didn't know, and that no one would sue a school paper, besides. BARF! For starters, it IS our fault, since it makes us look bad. How unprofessional would it be if we didn't edit the paper at all? When you go over something, you're not just looking for bad grammar or spelling, you're checking everything from the consistency of the word usage, the flow of the story, and the artwork to the page layout and uniformity of the paper! Part of that all is checking your sources- after all, libel is a crime. Blah.
Mm, but I've been making some killer images in Photoshop lately, both for my personal site (when I get home I'm going to try and post the new version of skindeep, my peachgirl page, nicknamed //orangecreme//. Hehe. It looks uber-nice. XD Plus I have to figure out what's up with my forums, check NboR (if it's up) and post about my forums and the openings for Fanime... which I have to bug mom about. And then there's conquering Eluria in SO2, which I got to this morning. =D I also wanna make a new version of Uminosei, my SO2 site, though technically it *is* separate from Blacklight Arcade's SO2 section. @_@ Hmm, titles titles...
Yep yep, Mer has much to do, much to catch up on, much to plan. I'll prolly bring my Econ book with me to FX tonight (SCI 101! Whee... and if I get there early enough, I'll meet Gina and play some iD... perhaps handing Iketani-no-baka a can of whoop ass! ARGH, I'm going to beat him, I swear!) There's no time to work on "Dangerous Games" right now; it's not finished so I can't upload it... mm, maybe I'll post it for a certain-other-iD fan to beta-check for me? Hehe... >_> I'll just upload it to my site for now. And my articles too, I should start an online portfolio of sorts. Hehe... whee. HOME~!
