There's a reason why I'm up at this ungodly hour

[azurite]

My flight to leave back to Oakland is at 9:55. Gotta be at the airport by 8:55ish, and that means leaving by 8:30, and waking up by... well, now. :P

I already have a lot to do when I get back:
* Update Anzu's journal (hehe, I came up with things for her to have done and everything)
* Sort my bookcase and closet to accomodate my new schtuff
* Play video games... I'm in withdrawl here
* Duel, deck construct, and plot for "Prophecy Girl"
* Finish up WDKY9 and start sending *everything* over to my loverly betas
* Start packing up stuff, since Baba wants me to start bringing things down as early as Passover (Apr. 10)

Ugh, we just fed the dogs again, but before we did, there was a dead crow on the front lawn. I've never seen anything like it, and it was quite disturbing, kinda scary, and really sad. All the crows in the trees were looking down at us and cawing. ;_; I think it wasn't 100% dead yet, either; one of its eyes was still open. And something was funny about its butt; I wonder if it was a girl-bird and had an egg or something?

Still, not a good omen when I'm about to fly out of Burbank, ya?

Not enough room on my blank CD to burn the "Know Who I Am" (Goo-goo Dolls/Iris) Yu-Gi-Oh AMV. It's quite good. :D But now I have the "Hero" (Creed) Kaiba AMV, which ROX MY SOX. There aren't enough YGO AMVs out there. I might just give up on the uncut/Japanese DVDs of YGO, since the HK rips are *so* sucky... Yeah, you do get to see everything that remains unchanged, but... Well, unless someone can point me at Japanese-source DVDs, instead of HK ones, I'll gladly buy those. The ones like Edo works with.

I finally crammed everything into my bag... I just hope I can get through airport security okay. What's depressing is knowing that when I get to Oakland, no one will be there to greet me... *sniff sniff*

Anyway, so I have the rest of today and tomorrow off, but I work Wednesday. And despitre that being the day Eva and Steph have planned a get-together, there's no way around it for me; I can't switch shifts with anyone when I only have one shift the entire week! I need the money, anyhow-- moving is going to be expensive, and Baba's suggesting I don't have a part-time job while I'm down here, especially if I have a full unit workload. I don't know, for all you college students, what's the workload like, and do you juggle a part-time job? What are your hours like?

What else?

Here's something that's been on my mind for a while, now.

Why are YOU reading this? I have LJ friends, and then friends with Xangas or whatever who stop on by to read LJs... and those without any LJs or Xangas or whatsits at all, and they just want to say hi. But then there's people that SOMEHOW know about this... I don't know how. It's not in my AIM Profile (anymore, anyway. Someone hacked it during XMas). It *is* linked on my FFnet profile, but you'd have to know my penname and where I post to know where *that* is. What I want to know is why so many people from my work and my old high school read this. Okay, maybe not SO MANY, but apparently people who could NEVER stand me find it fulfilling to read this.

Why?

I'm talking about the people who I hated, they hated me, it was a mutual hate-spree. Why do they read my journal? How the hell do they even know about it?

It's not one of those things where I'll get mad at someone or whatever; this is the Internet, it's public domain, yadda yadda-- but if you're dumb enough to think I'll post something say, worthy of blackmailing me with, on here, you're sadly mistaken. Yeah, I do post a LOT of stuff on here that I don't talk about, and stuff that bothers me... I'm a very frank and honest person; it's who I am. But I'm NOT stupid. If I post it here, I frankly DO NOT care who knows about it. What disturbs me is WHO knows. I know people who have me friends-listed read this; I know people who are my IRL friends read this. Key words there being FRIENDS.

Why would people that hate/dislike/don't really know me want to read this?

Well? SPEAK UP! I'm talking to you!

Comments

[rivingmass.livejournal.com]

I don't hate/dislike you. I think I read it for the same reasons I use to justify my viewing of Reality TV Shows: new ideas and a sense of the unknown. Unlike a book, which I can read and be done with in a day, other people's LJs update without warning, and never end. It's that sense of, "What's gonna happen next? Will Mer ever find satisfaction at a job where people aren't bastards? Will she finally overcome the obstacles that seem to jump out of nowhere and block her college acceptance? Will she ever manage to convince FFnet admins to set up a yaoi filter?" It's drama with plot twists too real to be created in some network studio.

You're right though, this is the internet. I'd never go off and spy on other people without expecting the same in return, and this is no different. I keep my LJ open for all to see, and if I ever put it private, I'd add you to my friends list, and request the same.

Anyhow, that's my answer. If you ever feel weird about it, just let me know and I'll stop.

^_^

[azurite]

In all honesty, I wasn't thinking of you at all when I posted it. People on my friends-list I knowingly realize read my LJ; the same is true for people that have *me* on their friends list, even if I don't know them.

But I hear that my co-workers read this, or people that hated me from HS. It's weird.

^-^ Thanks much for the niceness.