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azuriteToday sucked. Or it has thus far, simply put. I guess I really just take things too personally, or I have really high standards. But on the flip side, I'm taking the blame for other people's meanness and idiocy. See, in Speech class we were talking about persuasive speeches and so on, and it was one of those times when Ms. Sharky asked for input from everyone else. It's a given that, even in a class so small (about 20 or so people), I would be one of the frequent participators-- one of the others is Jeremy, and sometimes people like Nick and Gabriel have a good deal to say.
But I raised my hand for some input toward the end of class, and Ms. Sharky said (and she could have phrased it in a much less offending way) that I'd said enough for the day, and the class hears from me far too often. Meaning, let other people have a chance to say something. I knew this, but it still hurt my feelings, moreso when EVERYONE burst into laughter. I tried to laugh it off, but before I knew it, I was crying. Of course, I'm not a loud, dramatic crier; I just turned my head away, refused to talk to anyone, and tried to calm down. Dima said it was just a joke, but I didn't see the punchline. Ms. Sharky could have been nicer about it; later on she tried to correct herself and say let other people have a chance to speak, but it's not my fault they don't want to participate and I do. I think of myself as someone who enjoys participating and adding my input, though it might become long-winded or irrelevant. I stop myself before it gets to that point.
I've always liked Geography better, even though I hardly know anyone in there aside from Vilma, and the class has an average of 70-90 people every class day. But I like the material, and, despite not having any projects, Mr. Davidson is cool. I especially like East Asia, our current topic material, and Mr. Davidson actually APPRECIATES the fact that I know about the material already, and LIKES calling on me. Ironic, isn't it? You'd think that in a larger classroom setting, the teacher would try to get a wider variety of people to participate, but that's not so. And in a smaller classroom, everyone would get one-on-one attention, but...
Well, it's not what I expected. The thing that made Geography bad was being depressed about Speech and then getting clonked on the head by the guy that sits behind me. But I suppose it was neat how Mr. Davidson mentioned the Matathon (I'd made a too-fast presentation on it on Wednesday, trying to recruit people) and actually got someone to take a dancer packet. Hopefully we can get more dancers.
And Journalism was the same case as Speech, even though there's several more regular participants. And I admit, I did get a bit off-topic, but the subject was film and movie theaters; something I know a lot about. *sigh* I WANT to participate in these classes that interest me, that further my education and my skills, but... the teachers SUCK!
So I came home bummed and tried to sleep. I woke up and played some FFX after only an hour; that's another thing to cheer me up-- I made it as far as the Seymour Flux save point, and now people are leveling up quite well, and battles are easy. I'm still nowhere close to what I need to be at for defeating Seymour; I have to level up Yuna and Lulu... (Yuna doesn't know Protect; Rikku does. Lulu needs the -ga spells. Yuna also needs higher White Magic spells...)
Anyway, anime club's tonight, and then Hollywood, then Little Tokyo tomorrow. FINALLY, I'll get my YU-GI-OH!!!!!! (And everybody say YATTA!) This weekend just might start off on a decent foot. Maybe.
But I raised my hand for some input toward the end of class, and Ms. Sharky said (and she could have phrased it in a much less offending way) that I'd said enough for the day, and the class hears from me far too often. Meaning, let other people have a chance to say something. I knew this, but it still hurt my feelings, moreso when EVERYONE burst into laughter. I tried to laugh it off, but before I knew it, I was crying. Of course, I'm not a loud, dramatic crier; I just turned my head away, refused to talk to anyone, and tried to calm down. Dima said it was just a joke, but I didn't see the punchline. Ms. Sharky could have been nicer about it; later on she tried to correct herself and say let other people have a chance to speak, but it's not my fault they don't want to participate and I do. I think of myself as someone who enjoys participating and adding my input, though it might become long-winded or irrelevant. I stop myself before it gets to that point.
I've always liked Geography better, even though I hardly know anyone in there aside from Vilma, and the class has an average of 70-90 people every class day. But I like the material, and, despite not having any projects, Mr. Davidson is cool. I especially like East Asia, our current topic material, and Mr. Davidson actually APPRECIATES the fact that I know about the material already, and LIKES calling on me. Ironic, isn't it? You'd think that in a larger classroom setting, the teacher would try to get a wider variety of people to participate, but that's not so. And in a smaller classroom, everyone would get one-on-one attention, but...
Well, it's not what I expected. The thing that made Geography bad was being depressed about Speech and then getting clonked on the head by the guy that sits behind me. But I suppose it was neat how Mr. Davidson mentioned the Matathon (I'd made a too-fast presentation on it on Wednesday, trying to recruit people) and actually got someone to take a dancer packet. Hopefully we can get more dancers.
And Journalism was the same case as Speech, even though there's several more regular participants. And I admit, I did get a bit off-topic, but the subject was film and movie theaters; something I know a lot about. *sigh* I WANT to participate in these classes that interest me, that further my education and my skills, but... the teachers SUCK!
So I came home bummed and tried to sleep. I woke up and played some FFX after only an hour; that's another thing to cheer me up-- I made it as far as the Seymour Flux save point, and now people are leveling up quite well, and battles are easy. I'm still nowhere close to what I need to be at for defeating Seymour; I have to level up Yuna and Lulu... (Yuna doesn't know Protect; Rikku does. Lulu needs the -ga spells. Yuna also needs higher White Magic spells...)
Anyway, anime club's tonight, and then Hollywood, then Little Tokyo tomorrow. FINALLY, I'll get my YU-GI-OH!!!!!! (And everybody say YATTA!) This weekend just might start off on a decent foot. Maybe.
