Oh yeah, and as for the closure thing... Well, the particular person that I dreamed of never gave me his number. I'd be astonished if he DIDN'T know I'd liked him (especially after all this time), but contacting him now seems a bit... crazy, especially as I couldn't see him. It's not as if we were ever "friends," either. I just really looked up to him as a mentor, and that kind of snowballed into a crush that became something of a love-hate relationship (on my end alone).
There's another guy who I was childhood friends with but who ditched me in a very mean way. The last time I saw him was when I was working a dead-end job between high school and college and he came to that job (a movie theatre), saw me, and told me he was sorry for what he did to me. I was half asleep at the time, exhausted from a full day, and I was in absolute shock. I thought I was dreaming, and because I was so brainwashed into doing my job well, I felt I couldn't leave the line or ask my supervisor for an immediate break to ask after my old friend's health or anything.
He told me he was in the Marines, but that was the last I heard of him. He didn't stick around to see a movie. He's also got a rather common name, so looking up him at any point over the years has proven fruitless; I don't even know if he went to university or what the name of his high school was.
If I could find him, I'd contact him in a New York minute, just for the relief of knowing he's alive and well somewhere. But I can't even have that, so in both cases, I feel like I'm just left hanging and wondering what a conversation between me and either of these guys would go like.
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Well, the particular person that I dreamed of never gave me his number. I'd be astonished if he DIDN'T know I'd liked him (especially after all this time), but contacting him now seems a bit... crazy, especially as I couldn't see him. It's not as if we were ever "friends," either. I just really looked up to him as a mentor, and that kind of snowballed into a crush that became something of a love-hate relationship (on my end alone).
There's another guy who I was childhood friends with but who ditched me in a very mean way. The last time I saw him was when I was working a dead-end job between high school and college and he came to that job (a movie theatre), saw me, and told me he was sorry for what he did to me. I was half asleep at the time, exhausted from a full day, and I was in absolute shock. I thought I was dreaming, and because I was so brainwashed into doing my job well, I felt I couldn't leave the line or ask my supervisor for an immediate break to ask after my old friend's health or anything.
He told me he was in the Marines, but that was the last I heard of him. He didn't stick around to see a movie. He's also got a rather common name, so looking up him at any point over the years has proven fruitless; I don't even know if he went to university or what the name of his high school was.
If I could find him, I'd contact him in a New York minute, just for the relief of knowing he's alive and well somewhere. But I can't even have that, so in both cases, I feel like I'm just left hanging and wondering what a conversation between me and either of these guys would go like.