Honestly, I hate WebRing. I liked it when they were with Yahoo!, because everything was easier. But now that Darkness Rising has been suspended from WR, I fixed the website to reflect DR's new home, but the idiotic thing still has me suspended... and I can't get the new code or contact the WR master until I get to the webpage, WHICH KEEPS ON FRACKIN' TIMING OUT FOR NO REASON! It's not me, it's them. Idiots.
And I tried to open up a savings account with a better APY than the one I have with Wamu-- this thing advertised in Oprah magazine (Jill asked me to take a look at it and see what inspired me; she wants to start a magazine for girls ages 15-20 that's not so based on trash talk and celeb hype) by Suze Orman, that blonde lady who's all about Rich WOMEN!!TEHYAY1eleventy-one! Anyway, my application "could not be processed at this time," so now I have to call customer service.
Isn't it weird how I get so resolved to do (or not do) certain things in the middle of the year, rather than at New Year's, when we're "supposed" to? Like, I've decided to join the fitness center and try to swim more often (I didn't go in the pool today at Jill's because it was COLD for me. Nikki and James, my 2nd cousins, were splashing about like fish-- me, I didn't want to get my hair wet) and exercise more.
Okay, so... I've decided to turn WikiFic
into the Complete Encyclopedia of Yu-Gi-Oh
. The general theme is for fanfic authors, but obviously any dedicated fan would probably find the place useful. The site is pretty much up now
and is awaiting submissions... but any and all of them are subject to editing, and of course I don't allow anything controversial or biased (X pairing is better than Y pairing; Anzu is a slut, etc.) I'd appreciate it if people ran their ideas by me before creating accounts and submitting anything.
Obviously I'm still looking to customize the site a bit more, but it's proving to be difficult.
I'm also trying to get back into Fathom/Michael Turner's creations, but he went off and separated from Top Cow in 2002 (3?) and now has Aspen Comics, his own line. I'm trying to figure out how the new Fathom volumes work into the original series which I think
I have the completed first volume of, in hardback form. And now there's this new series called Soulfire, and another one called Ekos, and... I'm all confused. (I think what I have is the collected version of Volumes 1-9, with all the alternate covers provided in the back of the book, except the Christmas Cover.)
I also think I'm going to send Dave (of PSX-TECH) back the chip, because everywhere I read, the Crystal Chip doesn't play imports or backups, both of which I require. When Dave "upgraded" me to the Crystal Chip (because the DMS3 was my original order, and the DMS4 is already in production) he did it because I didn't have my PS2 in SF to get a free install... but the CC costs the same (or pretty close) to the DMS3, so it's not like that upgrade really made up for the four-month wait. So now I'll pay the shipping to send the PS2 back to him, but I'll settle for an old chip, so long as it does what I want. I haven't been able to find any local, drop-off places that could install the Crystal Chip anyway, and even if I did, I just don't want the CC anymore. :P
I did eventually go to Jill's today, and it was fun-- I didn't swim, but I had some delish burgers and butter cream cake (I don't know why she always seems to have birthday cake on hand) and Jill and I talked at length about magazines today and what teenage girls and young adult females need-- more than glitz and glam, but inspiration, motivation, and stories and people they can relate to. We might try and put something together, but as excited as I am, I wouldn't really know where to start. Still, I have ideas for layout (Publisher or Adobe) and printing (Jill's house, HP High-Gloss paper), and even articles (I've got enough experience and friends to be able to talk a lot, don't you think?), so we'll see.
As for me and Scott... well, there's no romantic relationship. We're not together, and I know this, and he knows this. But you can't really "regret" decisions like that, you can only wonder or wish you knew what it would be like if things turned out differently. And as always, we're taking these slowly and seeing where they go. We still care for each other, maybe even love each other still (he's kind of unclear with his feelings in direct words, I don't want to jinx what we DO have, so I don't say anything... but on the flipside, when I'm not around him or contacting him so much, the feeling DOES fade).
He didn't want to contact me as much because it would be going back on the whole idea of HIM breaking up with me, which was to the point that we didn't have time for each other (read: him for me) or that he couldn't be the boyfriend I wanted (case: true). But he knows that's bunk, because friends (even with benefits) do contact each other and hang out, because otherwise they aren't friends at all. So... he will call me. And it's not like he was doing nothing the past few days-- he's gotten more hours at work, he's been "promoted" to Guest Services (a much bigger, more comfortable deal at Pac Theatres than it ever was at AMC) and he's been hanging out with people (birthday parties), scouting for a roommate/apartment... So he HAS been busy.
But... well, it's not like I'm so desperate to hang out with him, it's the feeling of hanging out with anyone. I don't have any friends down here, and in times like these when it's slow at work and all I want is for school to start, I'd like someone to hang out with. Scott used to be that person I could devote my energy to 24/7, but I can't anymore, and I've had to reconcile that fact with my reality. When I do see him, it's great because we can talk about what we've both been up to, how things are with the people we care about, and we're just HAPPY to see each other. There's no obligation for either of us... though truthfully, I am going to be sad on Sept. 1, which would have been our 1-year anniversary. It would have been nice to get to that point and be surprised with a nice gift. (He bought Baba and Grandpa a bouquet of daisies and a card for their 60th Wedding Anniversary this weekend!)
It's hard for me to really see the "freedom" that this new relationship of ours offers (even though I can preach about the bonuses of a casual sexual relationship, the few in my history did NOT end well emotionally), and it does feel almost like we're starting over. We've got the great part of our relationship (the attraction, the curiosity, the feeling, the intensity... and yes, the sex) without the arguments over his time, where he is or who he's with, and whether or not I'm still important to him. I never ask my friends if I'm important to them, it's just something I accept as KNOWING, and that's the way I'm going to trust it to be with Scott. Scott's got a bit of a guilt issue with this, because he doesn't want to think he's obligated to be with me, to make me happy just because he broke up with me and hurt me so much. I don't want him to feel that way either, and I don't want to feel obligated to spend time with him (though I always look forward to it, so I don't imagine I COULD feel obligated, like it was a chore). I don't want him to feel guilty about what we do (there's not much "saying" things that he could take back or "regret," like he did in our relationship) so... again, it's just about taking things one step at a time. I still plan on wowing him when I walk into class on the first day of school (leather pants, boots, sheer white-and-black floral printed blouse with a tattoo on my lower back) and MAYBE even inciting the attention of some other people (Scott said he would be jealous if other guys started looking at me... *grin* As mean as it is, that makes me happy)... or maybe just making some friends. :P
Anyway, I've got work... er, again, later today (1:30-7... bastards are cutting me off from a 30 minute break AGAIN!) and then closing (AUGH!!!) on Saturday. Hopefully I'll hear from Jamba CSUN on Saturday, and then I have a few days off... and within the next two weeks, a transfer, a new job application (Red Robin) filed, and then SCHOOL! YAY!